I'm back...

No, wrong

I'm still here

The last two-three months were barely endurance.

Around christmas I got some break down. I cried so hard my eyes were ing bad puffy.

They never were puffy before no matter how much I cried.

Then the new year began

The first few days were still not easy for me.

I got better because I ate again (I barely ate for 2 weeks and lost some weight).

My mom didn't give a why I wouldn't have eaten. She stopps noticing me.

Ya know..now....there is her husband she has to take care of.

And she always tells me we don't have enough money but what is she doing?

Talking about to go to holiday this year. Let her children back because they can take care of themself

What is this?

She wanted have three children...got two and has four(?) Stephchildren

When they are visiting us (the two youngest kids) then you see me in my room.

I don't go out until I have to.

Back to topic..

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I didn't write for quite some time because it was getting better

I promised someonento stop cutting myself.

At the begin...a week after I promised I cut me...but then I stopped because..yeah..

I was..

Happy?

I don't know what 'to be happy' means...

You know it when you say 'yes' to all and everyone only to not fight?

I dog this

Or smile even if you feel like crying

I do this