The two were on their way back to Donghae’s house, Kyuhyun was quiet as he drove but a sight of smile was visible on the younger’s face in which the elder thought odd, well not strangely odd but, a certain joy that glistened within those captivating eyes. Hesitant on asking, he cuddled the medium sized panda that he has on his hands. Arms wrapped around tightly, a sound of glee as he felt the soft and tender stuffing inside, “You liked it I see” Kyu suddenly spoke but still eyes on the road

Hae only pouted as he was disturbing his tender looking doll, “Sorry” Kyu then followed up. Curious, Hae looked at him “For what?” a small frown showed at the lips of the latter, stopping at the red light, Kyu turned and faced him. “For not giving you a real one… I really wished I could buy you a real panda cub just like you dreamed of having” a tone of disappointment was evident with what he had just said

Feeling bad about what the latter was thinking, “No… you don’t have to say sorry, I… love it…” it made Kyu’s eyes widen for a moment and then turned passive as he turned back to the road ahead “It doesn’t eat… sleep, poop or pee, it’s really that much of a hassle for me. Having something look so adorable and cuddly like this is more than enough for me, thanks… for turning another one of my dreams into reality” he gratefully said

The younger couldn’t suppress a smile, a feeling in which his whole body tingled with joy as he heard such words. “It’s nothing… I’ll make sure all you dream of would come to reality” he assured and the elder only looked at him. Astound on the confidence he seemed to have, he knows Kyu will never break a promise “I love you…” the car nearly hit the hydrant at a turning point but luckily no other cars were up ahead and same goes from behind

The car stopped and Kyu immediately turned to Donghae, seeing the man holding carefully at the stuffed animal, face buried underneath the fluffy cover. Hopefully Hae doesn’t forget to fasten his seat belt; Hae slowly raised his head and looked up front. After seeing that there wasn’t any serious danger, he turned to face the young driver, “Hey…! What the hell is your problem? You nearly got us killed and~” in a blink of an eye, he was tucked inside an warm embrace

He didn’t know when Kyu undid his seat belt; he didn’t know what was going on and most of all he doesn’t know why Kyu’s heart raced so fast. Maybe it was because of the near accident that might have had happened, but, he felt Kyu’s tears falling down his head. The warm droplets, it made his heart ache each time a drop would be felt on his head. “I… I thought… I’d lose you” Kyu muttered and his voice shaken with the event

The hands wrapped around him were all too accommodating and seemed to tighten even more, “Please… tell me you’re alright… please…” he pleaded as he sank his face on the brown locks of the elder. “I’m… alright” that was all Hae could muster, it was like he couldn’t say anything else. It hurts so much. He couldn’t conclude to what he felt at that moment, and even as they made their way back to their house, he still feels the sting of what he had felt. What was it?

When they got inside the house it was empty. They made their way up to Hae’s bedroom and sat at the side of the bed, Kyu immediately wrapped his arms once more to the elder. Feeling the warmth of the younger’s body beside him once more, he felt safe but still puzzled with what had happened. “W-What happened with you earlier?” Hae finally managed to ask

“I was… shocked, I felt like my heart stopped for a moment and I couldn’t control myself… and when I was able to get myself back to normal, I almost placed your life on the line… I’m sorry, I’m so… so sorry” he continued to plead, “If you were hurt… or what so ever… I will never forgive myself, even if it would cost me my life, I’d do my best to protect you” still wondering what he was thinking at that time, he felt the need to dig in “So… what shocked you?”

“You said that you… love me” it a matter of seconds, Kyuhyun was pinned down with two raging hands and a pair of knees straddling him on the bed, the younger was more than just shocked, he was scared. As he watched Hae’s eyes it was filled with anger and frustration, but behind those furious looking orbs were care and relief, “You … I wasn’t saying anything like that to you! I was referring to Marcus! I told him that I love him” frozen with what Donghae said, he felt like a total moron for the very first time

“W-What…? Marcus…? Who’s that…” a small tone of jealousy was obvious “He’s the damn stuff panda you gave me! You ing ! You nearly got us killed because of your dumb hearing…! I thought you were a genius but with what happened earlier I’ve found out what a total dunce bag you are!” Kyuhyun was still taking all that in, “He loves the stuff panda more than me and~” he paused

“M-Marcus…?” he repeated, “Yes…! I named him Marcus… because that what he looked like, that’s what I felt he’s supposed to have and that’s because it’s your English name that I’ve picked!” his eyes soften and his grip loosened, in replacement of the tight straddle, Hae embraced the latter “I hate you so much you moron…! I thought I’d lose you… I thought I’d die… I thought I’d also lose Marcus” he felt a sad chuckle but still he knows Hae was crying a bit

“So… you named him after me?” he closed his arms around him, “No… you really are an idiot, I said it’s because it’s your English name… it sounds… perfect” though Hae was referring to the panda, to Kyu it was more than enough that it was for him. “I think I’m gonna hate that panda” he jokingly said and Hae pulled away and sat at the younger’s legs, a mask of curiosity was evident “Why…? Are you blaming Marcus that we nearly kicked the bucket?” he said in a defending tone

“Yeah I am” he rose half of his body and took the panda that was right beside the pillows, “I hate this creep… he’s taking my true love all in one sweep of introduction” he squeezed the small arm; Hae pouted and pulled it away. Hugging it tightly in his embrace “Sorry… Marcus is mine… and you keep that dirty hands of yours away from him before I kick you out of this house!” he threatened “And also… what is it to you that he took my heart away” he kissed the nose of the panda, earning a pout on the younger’s reaction

“Aish… I shouldn’t have bought you something like that…” he rolled his eyes and sighed, “Why are you jealous?” Hae said teasingly and then kissed the seemed to be mouth of the panda “Alright this guys has to die!” he took it away from Hae and hoisted it up in the air beyond the elder’s reach, “Hey give him back!” he tried to snag it back, “No way, he’s not going to kiss you anymore!” he did all he could so Hae wouldn’t be able to reach for it, “Just give him to me Kyu!” he was beginning to sound serious

“I’m bringing it back to the store where I bought him and I’ll get you a nice fish stuffed toy, how ‘bout that?” he offered “You can’t tear me and Marcus apart… he’s mine, we’ve already spent time together so give him back” Hae was persistent on getting his hands on the toy but Kyu having the upper hand of height stood up with tip toes to prevent Hae from laying a finger, Hae jumped up to try and reach but still no result “You’ve only gotten him for about an hour and a half, so why bother… I’ll get you another” he was smiling so much

“Knock it off you, give him to me… he’s my toy not yours anymore, you gave him to me and I’m going to keep him!” he still tried “Are you fricking jealous of a stuff animal?” he said, all of a sudden, Kyu stopped and looked him straight in the eye, “Yes… I am” he seriously said. Uncertain of what he had said, it brought Hae off balance and knocked both of them on the bed. Both eyes still laced together and Hae’s body was above the younger, their hearts raced at sync beat

They didn’t know what to do or what happened, it was all too sudden, all too unpredicted… all too luscious. They felt each other’s lips damp softly, their eyes still looking at each other, bodies heating up and bliss taking over. It was sensual and at the same time remarkably satisfying, they stayed like that for a good minute until Hae felt shy and broke away, he sat up straight at the side letting Kyu daze off with what he had dreamed of doing “I… so love you right now Donghae” he relaxingly said, “You are my first, love, first date and first kiss… damn… were really meant to be”

Blushing red as a tomato he didn’t want to look and see Kyu’s reaction, “T-That’s not counted as a real kiss… that’s nowhere near a real one! That was an accident… a damn accident that will never happen again!” he rushed down stairs and Kyu could practically hear the footsteps making their way towards the living room, sighing at the wondrous feel. He pulled the panda right in front of him “You are one lucky bastard… either way, you kissed him first before I did… but still… we kissed and I still am jealous with you” he punched the panda’s face

Meanwhile at that moment, Donghae was curled up on the couch. He was reliving the whole scene, he couldn’t take it all, he couldn’t get himself to believe so and he couldn’t let it pass that he had lost his first kiss to Kyuhyun “This is so damn wrong… that wasn’t supposed to happen… I wanted my first kiss to be special; I wanted it to be blissful and romantic… I wanted it to happen in a place where everything feels like heaven and the feeling would bring me up in the clouds! This is certainly not the kiss I’ve dreamt about… no… not in a life time”

He felt like a dream in his list was violated and turned into dust, he didn’t liked the fact that it was just a mere accident that his preserved first kiss would end up like that… it was a huge NO in his vocabulary. But still, it felt wonderful to feel Kyuhyun’s soft and shiny red lips damp with his; he felt the tenderness of it and the way his heart pounded like crazy as he was taking in the whole thing. It was, (He still regrets) magical. “I am so going to kill Kyuhyun for this… damn it!” he messed his hair up

For an hour, Kyuhyun hadn’t gone down the bedroom. He played with the stuff animal at the time being, kicking it punching it and pinching it. He was more than just jealous, “I really, really, really hate the fact that I bought you” he gave it one last punch before looking at the clock, he noticed it’s been an hour and knowing Donghae’s attitude, he’s calmed down by now. He made his way down stairs along with the accursed stuffed animal he resented; he then got to the couch and found Hae sleeping, at his side, knees raised to his chest arms embracing the throw pillow

He smiled on how cute he’d look; he sat at the available slot at the other end. He nudged him and he seemed to wake up. Hae slowly broke away his sleepy eyes and looked at the younger who was shaking the panda right in front of him while his face was behind it “Marcus wanted to see you” it made Hae smile, he reached for him and sat back up “So… are you fine with Marcus now?” Hae didn’t bothered looking at Kyu but he looked at the black bead eyes of the panda

Kyu thought that it’s like a medium in which he could talk to Hae’s inner feelings, “Of course, after a few negotiations we’ve managed to think of a good deal” Kyu smiled as Hae fiddled with the arms as if he was waving at him “Really now… what’s the whole deal. Can I know the details?” he curiously asked “No… it’s a secret deal between the both of us, only we know what we talked about so don’t get your nose into it” he kissed Hae’s cheek, he felt it steam up but there wasn’t any opposition from the elder

“Do you think that you stand a chance against Marcus?” Kyu only smiled, “He’s better looking, cute, cuddly, smart and above all perfect” Kyu chuckled, “Though I really hate it, for you I’ll make it only as my rival… but still I can’t put myself into thinking that I would have a rivalry with a dumb stuff panda” Hae’s face turned and the panda as well, pouting once more and jutting his lips “Do you tend to mock Marcus? Or do you want him to elope with me?” Kyu’s eyes narrowed at the panda

“You are one bad influence… corrupting my Donghae’s mind with your run away schemes” he said in a suspecting way, Hae only pulled the panda away and hid it from him “Don’t you dare look at him like that … he’s mine, and guess what he’ll be a much better lover that you’ll ever be” he then jutted out his tongue which was an effective insult to Kyu “Damn I hate that thing” though he was pissed with the panda, he s his arms around Hae’s waist, still no violent reactions “By the way… what did you and Siwon had to talk about? He asked to talk to you privately earlier and you didn’t tell me anything about it… what’s going on?”

A sudden shift of discussion “Nothing much…” he landed his chin on Hae’s shoulder and watched how Hae was still playing with the arms “He’s just asking about me…” it didn’t made sense with what he was saying “So… is he asking you out or something… maybe he’s gotten into you” he joked “Nah… it’s nothing like that, but, if he did, it’ll take him a HUGE miracle to even make me go out with him” they both chuckled “So… what exactly did the two of you talked about?” still aiming to the whole thing

“He wants to know how we’re doing right now… how our relationship is developing” he felt Hae gulp, “What’d you tell him?” he didn’t want to ask about it but it kind of slipped out “Were doing good… having a little progress from time to time, and I also thanked him” he looked at the fine looking face beside his face and damn he was blushing at the sight but he shrugged it to continue on the conversation “For what?” he softly said “First of all for inviting us to that outing, if it weren’t for that outing we wouldn’t took a step into this relationship… you wouldn’t have dated me” Hae took another heavy gulped

Kyu took that as a “Next” “Lastly I thanked him because, he gave up the feeble love that he had for you… he sacrificed himself for us to be… he’s giving his trust over me” he felt the warm stare Kyu’s eyes was doing, he felt so hot at the moment “You and I know that his feelings were mere friendly love and it wouldn’t exceed to it… we both knew that, he’d only been confuse to what he went through because he found you valuable. Unlike me, I knew from the very first time I’ve laid this tantalizing eyes on you that you belong to me” he sounded cocky “But I know you’re never going to go down without a fight” he took his words back though

“Aigoo… you know that but you still persist” he looked away and his eyes was brought back to the doll “Because I know that I’m always yours” he cupped Hae’s chin and turned it back towards him once more. “You own me and likewise, so there’s nothing to fear, nothing to take heed and nothing to feel so down about that I wouldn’t have you… because were both for each other” Hae smiled, “Then why the hell are you jealous with MY MARCUS?” he really emphasized the MY and the name

It made Kyu frown in an instant “Don’t bring that dirt ball into discussion, he just popped out un announced so don’t count him in our relationship” he hissed, “But still, he took my heart right in an instant, why not take him seriously into account?” he chuckled and it made Kyuhyun seriously pissed, “Come on, let’s get something to eat so that delusional head of yours could think straight again” he pulled Hae’s wrist and brought themselves to the kitchen, Hae still bearing the doll on his other hand as he merrily sat at the table

It was as if the doll had a huge bull’s eye on it and Kyu was willing to throw a nuke into it “Alright Marcus, this’ll be our first dinner date so let’s enjoy” he happily said and damn, it irritated a lot “Here” he laid the plates and the bowl, “Hey, no animals or toys in the dining table” he peeved “He’s no animal or toy… he’s my lover, ain’t that right Marcus” he kissed it’s forehead and then he started to eat up “I don’t know how your imaginations run so wild” he sighed and took his seat but Hae could only smile and chuckle each time Kyu would act overly jealous of the doll

He loved seeing him being so self-conscious about that certain hugs and kissed that the doll would have, he adored the fact that he was gritting his teeth that the doll had more of his attention that the younger and he certainly loved it that Kyu couldn’t hug him because the doll was at the middle of them and hugging it like it was the most important thing in the world. Of course, Kyuhyun cursed the doll so much that he wished that he was able to go back in time to get that ing doll into a shredder and burn it into ashes and then throwing that remains into oblivion at space but… it was Hae’s dream pet, though it didn’t breathe, it was something Hae had wholeheartedly want

Well in any case, the damn doll seems to have maintained its diplomatic immunity within Donghae’s whim. He’s damn screwed that’s for sure, and most of all being really, really jealous of a stuffed animal. He had gone to low. “This is so humiliating” he thought to himself. All he could do right now it just put up with Donghae’s antic towards the doll, but, he needs to focus on how to get one awesome event to happen for Donghae to crumble a bit more

It’s been 4 days and to be honest, Kyuhyun was more infuriated with the doll, he wants to take it away from Donghae and burry it underneath the soil for about 500ft. Why the hell wouldn’t he be jealous? Donghae never let go of the doll when they were going home; when they’re at the living room, dining room and even the bedroom. The only thing that he didn’t bring the doll was when they were outside to buy stuff at the mall and the bathroom. He didn’t knew that Donghae was amused about it and loved to continue the whole pissed out latter

Sighing at the sight of his elder still playing with the doll that sat at his thighs, he couldn’t help but to roll his eyes with what Donghae was saying “So Marcus tonight is a Friday night so we don’t have to worry about sleeping early today. Everything’s going to be fun and fantastic for the both of us” he gleefully said

“Enough already, I’ve had it with that of fur” he snapped but he continued to drive carefully, “Why? Still feeling insecure with him?” he teasingly said as he farrowed his eyes on the latter, “It’s Friday Donghae, your mine tonight and that good for nothing crap isn’t going to ruin my plans for tonight” he coldly said, “Well bad news for you, I don’t tend on being apart from Marcus any time soon” he pouted

“Aish…” he sighed once again and without a second thought he grabbed the damn doll and threw it behind the backseat, it made the elder narrow his eyes on him with an irritated look “Yah…! Kyuhyun-ah…! Don’t you go and throw him like that because I don’t like it!” he complained in a higher pitch of voice

He stopped the car and for a moment Hae felt a bit intimidated but he didn’t seem to be shaken by the intense focus in Kyu’s eyes “You’ve gone too far with that bull and I ain’t going to stand for it anymore, besides. I have a much special gift for you after supper so don’t spoil it by being so moved by that dumb looking doll” he bluntly said, Hae only frowned at what he had said “What makes you think that I’d enjoy having you around now that I have Marcus”

“Shut up, today and the rest of our days… you only belong to me” he firmly said as he then started the engine and drove off. There was a thick silence between the both of them, none of them dared to break it. Hae wasn’t scared nor was he anticipating the younger’s sudden burst of words but still; he didn’t want to cause a bigger ruckus if he’d argue along with him and he knows that Kyuhyun doesn’t give a damn if he’ll continue to say something concerning his beloved stuff animal. But he just really loved the gift Kyuhyun gave to him

They got inside Hae’s house and still same old scenario, his mom wasn’t home. They sat in front of the TV for a while and still not trying to make a conversation, they ate supper quietly and they’ve settled back down to the car without even saying a single word. It was rather late, Hae saw the time in Kyu’s car and it was around 8 in the evening. He didn’t know where Kyuhyun would take him nor would he dare to ask at that point, he didn’t know how to speak up against the long period of stillness

As he was drowning himself within the thought of what’s about to come, he didn’t notice where they were anymore, they seemed to have stopped at a small hill or some sort. It was rather dark, hell it was really dark now that he figures out the surroundings. Without question he got off the car and followed Kyuhyun, he stood closely at the younger since he has a flashlight at that moment, he couldn’t suppress to question now “What… are we doing here?” he gulped

“Don’t you trust me?” it was the only thing Kyu asked, “I… I trust you” he manage to sputter out “Hold on closely to me, remember. I’m here with you and nothing bad will happen” he assured him with a soft and tender voice, as they made their way inside a dark and creepy looking forest, he wasn’t sure about the town having a forest. He didn’t goes out much though. Hae’s arms were tightly locked on the younger’s torso and his head felt the protection of Kyu’s other arm around him as he pointed the light on their path

He didn’t question, wondered nor even thought something bad. If it was Kyuhyun’s plan, it’s more than enough to rest assure that he’ll be fine. He’s with him, he’ll be safe. Hae closed his eyes when he heard twigs being snapped from other ways of the place but he didn’t stop as he knows Kyuhyun’s leading him. He has full faith. “Where here” he heard Kyu’s voice and they stood, slowly he opened his eyes it wasn’t that dark anymore

He looked beyond their trail as saw a top view at some part of town; he watched the lights around down town and what seemed to be their neighborhood, he was amazed on how it looked like. “Look up” he heard the younger’s voice instruct him once again, as he darted his eyes on what he was told to. His orbs glimmered with the sight of a beautiful meteor shower, it was magnificent. Seeing numerous strings of light falling down from the sky, some were fast and some weren’t. It wasn’t anything he’d ever seen before. It felt so captivating

“It was said that there would be a meteor shower tonight so I took the opportunity to lay down the best spot for us to see it, if were back at our place we would have seen only a few but dragging you here in a dark and secluded place from town, it’s sure that we’ll be able to relish this wonderful scenery” Hae felt his heart flutter out with joy, his smile never cease to wade. “Just like this meteor shower, I’ll always fall in love with you” for Hae it caught his attention

And as he turned to face the younger, their eyes were brought back to the unworldly stare that they would do. God he felt so cold around the time they got there but being stuck on that pair of eyes again made the temperature rise into full heat. He felt himself warm up from the previous feeling. He felt two arms leisurely warped around him, pulling him closer to the warm body right in front of him. His heart raced once again and his pulse beats so loud that it was clogging his hearing, he felt this before but right now it increased ten folds

Hae felt a certain polarity between their faces. He felt a certain urge that was pulling him those red and luscious lips he had felt a couple of days ago, he still hadn’t forgotten about the way it felt with his. He’s most certain that he’ll feel it once again, he was anticipated for it. Finally about an inch apart he let his eyes close as he braced for the burst of feelings he’d attain. It didn’t meet his expectations, it exceeded it. It was beyond his predicament to feel a powerful spark at the very moment he felt on those lips once again

He felt like he had always dreamed of it, he felt being lifted up in the sky above them. Hauling him away from the solid ground, his heart didn’t stop going wild while his thoughts went into a complete blank. It was the best feeling he could ever had at that point. It was a, dream come true. Lazily they parted; a bit of disappointment was visible on Donghae’s side but still he was fully content with what had happened. He watched a smile break free from Kyu’s lips, “I hope this made up for that accidental kiss we had” he softly said

Hae wasn’t aware, he was turning red but luckily the light of the moon made it the least less noticeable “I… I guess so” he muttered out, “By the way, it might not be a falling start but… you could wish for something” Kyu encouraged him. Hae smiled and turned to face the glacier of light that was drawing lines, he closed his eyes and clasped his hands together. When he was done with the wish, he turned back to look at the younger but he didn’t seem to do the same though

“Didn’t make a wish?” he kiddingly said, “Don’t have to” he pulled him even closer, “Because I already got my wish…” he leaned closer until his mouth was close to Hae’s ear, he felt the hot breath damp his skin “And it’s you” smiling at what he said, he turned back a favor and embraced him tightly. He didn’t want the moment to end; he didn’t want to go home and most of all he didn’t want to leave where they are right now. They were both wishing that they’d succumb to a standstill within time for them to last to where they stood

But unluckily, things wouldn’t be like that. They went back home, still feeling rather disappointed, he still felt a win with the whole thing Kyu thought of. Maybe it was fine to let it end like that, to make it a part of his valuable memories with Kyu, maybe it was better to let things flow between them until Kyu would do another thing to make him feel utterly happy. Whatever might come at the near future, all he needed to do is hold on to him firmly and never let go as he leaned besides his loving younger

They got back and they lay underneath the blankets, feeling the bliss still lingering inside of him. At that moment, his favorite doll was somewhat forgotten, like Kyu said though, it was his time with him “So, what did you wished for” Kyuhyun asked as they were both face to face while Kyu’s hand held on to his, hesitantly he didn’t want to reveal his desires out “That’s mine to keep” he teasingly said. “No fair, I told you mine… it’s only right for me to know yours” he whined, “Come on Hae…” he gave a puppy look on him

Hae only giggled “Please… please… please~” he was shut up by a pair of lips; eyes still wide open as he watched Hae’s face focus on his assault. Little by little the younger’s eyes softened and rendered towards the loving kiss, they parted and watched the shimmering spark within their eyes “Is that good enough for you to not ask?” he couldn’t suppress a smile, Kyu nodded and pulled him close into him. He hugged the elder tightly in his arms and Hae felt the rapid beat of his heart as he laid his head cozily at his chest

“That’s more than enough to shut me up” he giggled at the thought, “Well I guess, I know how to zip that mouth of yours” he nuzzled down on the warmth of him. Hae didn’t know when Kyu fell asleep, he didn’t notice when the latter stopped fiddling with the strands of his hair but he knew that he was asleep when he felt the calmness of his heart. “My wish Kyuhyun-ah… like I said I won’t tell you but… even within my mind I’d like to say it to you… my wish was, to forever stay in love with you”