~Eunmi~

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For the past few days I stayed at the hospital and Changmin and the guys kept visiting me everyday. Changmin never missed a chance to be with me and always insisted on being with me and didn't show how tired he was.

But I did notice that he was tired but still he kept coming and didn't show any sign of sadness, tiredness or exhaustion.

Finally after 3 days, The doctor decided to discharge me. Well, mostly cause I wanted them to. I wanted to spend my time outside the hospital cause if there wasn't.. a heart available.. I didn't want to loose any time with my family, my friends and especially not Changmin

As I was packing suddenly I heard the door open and I recognized Changmin's steps as he entered

I spun around and greeted him with a smile but I could see that something was bothering him

"Oppa!" I squiled

He looked up and smiled at me as I ran towards him and hugged him tightly

He my hair with his fingers and kissed me and when he pulled away, he noticed that I wasn't wearing my hospital clothes

"Where are your.. hospital clothes?" He asked confused

I smiled brightly

"They're discharging me" I smiled

He eyed me

"BWOH?! CHONGMAL ?!" He shouted happily

I nodded

Suddenly he lifted me up and hugged me tightly as I couldn't help but laugh and hug him back

He then let me down and looked at me. Somehow I noticed his concern in his eyes

"What's wrong?" I asked him

"What do you mean?"

"You look.. very.. thoughtful..and.. a bit.. hesitating.. I don't know what it is but I just feel like there's something wrong today with you" I said carefully

He shook his head

"It's nothing.. just because I've been worried about you. Makes me feel a bit more relieved now that you're going home"

"Nae~~"

He smiled

"I'm fine.."

"You need to go home and rest" I said

He shook his head

"I'm not going to waste my time on anything else besides you from now on"

I chuckled

"Waste it?" I asked

He nodded

"Spend it then.." He rolled his eyes

We both started to laugh

"You're finished?" He asked

I nodded

"My parents are going to be here any minute.."

He sighed

I watched him carefully

"Something wrong?" I asked

"You're moving to your parents right?" He asked

I nodded

"I have to..."

"Araso.."

"Wae?" I asked

He took me in his arms and hugged me

"It's just that I'm not going to see you as often as now.. and also.. I can't go to you anytime I want" He said

I shook my head

"That's not true. You're more than welcome at my house" I smiled

Changmin looked at me

"What are you saying?"

"Well.. since mom and dad has a bedroom available, which is the guestroom, if you want to you can always move in with us.."

He stayed quiet as he kept listening

"I think it's because after the incident.. when.. you took me to the hospital.. They kind of realized how much I mean to you.. and mom and dad.. is considering you as a part of the family now.. and since your family isn't here.. you might feel lonley.."

"But I have the members" He chuckled

I nodded

"I know.. I told them that.. But they wanted me to tell you just in case.. They wanted the members to move with you"

"You can't be serious.." He gasped

I shrugged

"Mom's like that.. She's.. odd" I chuckled

He laughed

"But it's true.. There is a guesthouse available at our house.. It has 3 bedrooms.. and if you guys.."

"All this because of me? Us?" He asked still not believing

"Well yes.. that's what she said.."

I somehow kind of figured out that mom wanted me to spend time with Changmin as much as possible. She was afraid that I was going to regret it and that I might.. pass away... a bit .. earlier than expected.. she was scared to death and so was dad..

And She knew herself that if Changmin were moving then all of the members had to move as well..

I sighed

"Are you serious?" He asked again

I sighed

"To tell you the truth.. I think the reason for this.. is because of my .. disease.." I said truthfully

He looked at me

"I think she's putting everything I want and need first on her list at the moment and.. we won't be able to see each other as much as before if I move back home" I said

He nodded slowly

"She's just scared that ... I.."

I quieten

He hugged me again and shook his head

"NO.." He said

I didn't answer

"I'll talk to the members.. We were thinking moving out anyway since we wanted our own house instead of a dorm" He said

I nodded

"But.. that's not a house.. it's a guesthouse.." I said

He shrugged

"Better than nothing.." He smiled

I smiled at him

Afterwards, mom and dad arrived and greeted Changmin warmly as Changmin took my bag and walked with us out of the hospital and down to the parking plot.

We decided that I was going with Changmin in his car on our way back home.

As he was driving, I knew that he was thinking a lot and when I saw his profile, I noticed how skinny he had become and how tired his eyes looked

I took his free right hand and squeezed it lightly

He looked at me

"What is it?" He asked

I shook my head

"Would you promise me something?"

"Anything" He said

"Promise me that you're going to rest when we get home" I said

He chuckled and nodded

"Araso~~"

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~Changmin~

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Eunmi was right. I wasn't myself today.

I was feeling frustrated and sad. Because of everything that was happening.

But I was never tired.

As I took her bag upstairs into her room, I lied down on her bed and soon she arrived and sat down next to me and started to play with my hair as I was closing my eyes. She maybe had gotten better but she wasn't cured..

When she thought that I had fallen asleep she went downstairs, I finally got my breakdown

I started to cry silently as I started to think of the situation. The reason why I looked tired was because, my headache refused to disappear and also because I was still mad for the news about Eunmi's disease. I wasn't angry with her. I was angry with God for giving her the disease..

And also.. the phonecall earlier.. it just couldn't make my life better at the moment..

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~Changmin's flashback~

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As I got into the car, I fasten the seatbelt and closed the door

*Ring Ring

I looked at my phone to see a number I did not recognize

"Yoboseyo?"

"Yoboseyo? Is this Choikang Changmin?"

"Nae~~ It's me.."

"My name is Doctor Park. I have your testresults from the examination my partner did with you. Are you available to come to the hospital?"

"Now?" I asked

"OR do you want to take this through the phone?"

"It doesn't really matter to me. If You're available doctor..."

"Well I think it's better if you come down here.."

"I'll be there in a bit"

I hung up and hurried to the hospital and went up to the 5th floor to see Doctor Park waiting for me. He showed me the way into his office.

he then turned off the lights and the x--ray and put my pictures on

I was standing in front of my pictures with Doctor Park, waiting for him to talk

"First of all.. do you see this?" he asked

I nodded as he pointed

"That is your tumor"

I nodded

"IT has grown a lot and that is why you have had so much headaches lately"

"Araso.." I whispered

"As you can see here, the tumor has grown a lot bigger and this is your brain.." He said

I didn't say anything

"If the tumor keeps growing, it will grow into your brain and through it.."

My body froze

"What do you mean?" I asked and faced the doctor

"It's just about a few inches Changmin~~ssi. I'm afraid that the tumor can make you brain dead.." HE said truthfully

He the lights and pointed at the chair as I sat down and he sat down in front of me

"So.. your statement are?" I asked

He took off his glasses and looked at me

I didn't know if I wanted to hear the truth but I had to. I couldn't escape from it

"I'm sorry Changmin~~ssi. But it's just a matter of time before your tumor will grow into your brain. And it is impossible for us to remove it since the consequences are too high. Even if we manage to remove it, it can make you paralyzed, handicapped or even die. The chances of surviving is very small"

I sighed frustrated and I felt tears falling

I looked up and wiped away my tears

"So.. practically.. I'm.." I choked

He nodded

"Yes Changmin~~ssi.. Unfortunately, you're dying. The tumor has already started to grow and it will continue grow. Even if we are removing it, you will never be the same person again"

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~End of flashback~

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As I was lying on her bed, I tried to figure out how to tell her. How to tell mom and dad.. my sisters..

But if I just think of Eunmi's situation at the moment.

I cannot... cause her anymore pain

I'm dying..

With a brain tumor.. inside of me, growing

I've never seen the value of life until I met Eunmi. Now I know why she valued her life so much, how she could be so deep even before we met.

I'm not gonna live forever.. and I'm not gonna be able to stay here to keep my family, my members or even Eunmi company..

I shook my head

I'm 20.

Weren't God being unfair to us now?

As I was thinking, I soon figured out my conclusion

I was dying. Eunmi was dying

She had 2 months

I didn't know how much I had

But I knew at the moment, I had to value every minute I had with Eunmi, with my members.. and with my family

The time was running through my hands like sand

But first, I have to figure out how to tell Eunmi

I knew that there was no way to tell her in a nice way cause she would end up crying

And for the first time, I felt that I was grateful to life

I had met Eunmi. I had experienced love. I had met my members and I had my family.

I'm not going to waste it. I sat up and sighed.

"Seize the day Changmin" I mumbled