Overdose

Chen's pov;

"Sehun?" I opened the door to his room, sighing when I saw him lying with his eyes closed on the desk, head on his chemistry book

"Sehun-ah~" I petted his head "wake up food is ready"

No response.

I pocked his cheek and yet I got no response, I frowned

"Ya! makna!" I shook his shoulder and he finally opened his eyes

"wha-what"

"Why are you sleeping when you should be studying"

He didn’t answer and quickly looked away from me, wiping something from his eyes

Is there something wrong? I grabbed his chin and forced him to look back at me, I gasped, how could I not notice the dry tears that soiled his cheeks or his puffy red eyes? aish I'm a bad hyung

"Se, what happened?"

"N-nothing" he wanted to stand up but I pushed him back to his seat "Tell hyung" I demanded. He shook his head "I'm fine"

Aish this kid is annoying "if you won't tell me I'll get Joonmyun hyung and he will milk it out of you"

Sehun opened his mouth, wanting to say it doesn't matter but quickly closed it. I mentally highfived myself, that threat works every time~

"It's just- I-I don’t know it's just the stress and school and I kinda…" I set on his bed, waiting for him to continue

"Yeah?" he mumbled something and looked at his desk, not wanting to meet my eyes

"All I heard was 'I' Se"

He took in a deep breath, not daring to look at me

"I'm afraid to fail my test tomorrow and I-I didn’t submit my history paperwork on time and next month I have like 13 tests and 10 paperworks to do and I can't concentrate and I'm going to fail all of them and I-" he put his head between his palms, resting his elbows on his knees "this is too hard hyung"

I heard him sob, but I didn’t move "I know everyone did it and everyone has gone through what I'm feeling but I just can't! My parents are expecting me to bring straight A's at everything like they did when they were my age and I feel like such an idiot for not understanding this and feeling like this is too difficult for me and I never felt like that before I can't even excuse myself because I know I'm not stupid"

His whole body started shaking when he sobbed and my heart sank, I put my hand on his shaking shoulder and then he looked at me, endless stream of tears falling down his cheeks

"I just don’t know what to do hyung, I studied for a whole week for the last biology test and I still didn’t get an A..."

"YA! Where are you the food is getting cold!" Kyungsoo yelled and kicked the door

 I sighed and stood up "let's get something for you to eat, we should talk about this later, ok?" he nodded, wiping his cheeks the last time and followed me to the dining table.

 The next few weeks I've been watching Sehun more, we never talked about that since that night. I tried getting him to open up to me a couple of times but he just ran away or changed the subject… However… I think he's fine, he's been spending more time with new friends from school and he looks more relaxed. That’s a good thing… right?

 "...And there he was, with the super spicy pizza in his hand and his lag in the bucket of glue and suddenly the horse said 'food mowing'"

 "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA" Tao's laughter draggers me back from my thoughts, he was the only one laughing from the lame joke Kris just told, the others laughed because they couldn’t believe that fail on a hyung was one of their group leaders.

I looked at Sehun, he was smiling happily, his eyes were a bit red but I guess that’s because he got up really early this morning… like, really early it doesn't suit him to wake up naturally at 6am...

"I'm only laughing because I didn’t sleep well tonight" Joonmyun said still laughing at looked at Sehun, that was sitting next to him "You can blame our makna for that" he playfully pinched the makna's cheek.

The latter immediately straightened in his seat, expression turning mad he stood up "WHAT THE ARE YOU DOING?!"

We were all taken aback from his reaction, I never heard him yelling like this. Everyone stopped smiling, looking scared at the makna in his untypical angry state. Sehun kicked a standing chair and ran to his bedroom, slamming the door behind him. What is wrong with you Se?

"Jongdae can you go get him please?" Joonmyun hyung asked me while setting the table "but hyun-"

"please"

I sighed for the billionth time today and walked to knock on his door, "Sehun please come out, we brought sushi, your favourite"

The door opened, he walked out smiling happily at me and skipped to the kitchen. Wired.

We set to eat and Luhan was giving each of the members his food, "I don’t want this" Sehun pouted and glared at his hyung

"But this is your favourite sushi, how can you say no to this?"

"I SAID I DON’T WANT THIS" he grabbed the box of sushi and threw it across the room. Here goes the sushi…

"Sehun! What the hell is wrong with you?!" Luhan yelled at the angry makna

"NOTHING!" Sehun yelled and walked to the refrigerator, opening it and pulling out a pack of sliced cheese… Sehun? Eating cheese instead of sushi?! What the ?

"Sehun are you feeling well?" Minseok asked, they were all staring at him, I knew he didn’t like it "I guess our makna is just growing to like new tastes" I laughed, earning a smile from the other members and a pissed off Sehun glaring at him. His eyes are red again.

"Sehun-sshi! Are you sick? Stop fooling around and get the steps right!" Manager hyung shouted from the back of the practice room in the SM building "Aish go wash your face or something you look bad" I saw him walking out of the room with blank expression on his face. It was exo-k's turn to dance so I slowly walked after the makna, I looked around and slowly opened the bathroom door.

I froze. In front of me stood a shirtless Sehun, checking his own eyes in the mirror. I gasped, "Sehun-ah…" he jumped from surprise, grabbed his sweatshirt and turned around to look at me while trying to cover his half body "Jongdae… what are you doing here?"

I walked in to the room and closed the door behind me "Take off your shirt" I demanded. His eyes winded "I-I…"

I grabbed his sweatshirt and pulled it from his hands "How did this happen Sehun-ah?" I looked at his body, he lost weight, a lot of it. I could clearly see his ribs even when he's breathing normally, his stomach was sickening flat.

I got mad. I could feel my heat rising as I scanned him with my eyes, what the hell is wrong with him?! Why is he like this?! And why the wont he let me help whatever that is that he needs help with?!

"WHAT THE HELL SEHUN?!" he was startled when I yelled, I never yelled at any of my members before

"DO YOU THINK IM BLIND OR JUST STUPID?!" I grabbed his arm and pushed him, his back hit the wall and he let out a groan of pain that snapped me out of my anger.

I looked at his fragile body and pulled him into a hug "why are you doing this Se?" I whispered when I felt his tears rolling down my neck as I held him close to me. Of course, a small head shake was all I got as an answer...

We have a free day, that’s rare. Everyone was visiting their families and friends... I was at my grandma's house for the past few hours but my parents are on a vacation out of Korea and my brother is with his girlfriend in Japan~ I guess I'll have the dorm to myself then

"Is anyone home?" I shouted to the dark flat, no answer… I closed to door behind me and walked to the toilet, I opened the door and the light,

I screamed.

Sehun was half lying half leaning on the wall next to the toilet, the toilet itself was dirty and covered with vomit, Sehun's face was in a morbid grayish color and his eyes were closed.

"SEHUN!"

I kneeled in front of him and grabbed his face "wake up you idiot!!" I slapped him. No response.

My heart fell, I checked for his pulse, thanking god that he's there. Weak, but still there. "Yes I need an ambulance…"

"Are you his friend that brought him in?"

I stood up, looking at the young doctor "Yes I am"

"I don’t know if you knew that your friend in there was on drugs, he took an overdose, it’s a good thing you brought him here because just a few more minutes and he would have been dead" he looked at me for a long moment and sighed, "Do you need us to make contact with his parents or guardian or do you-?"

"I will call them" I said firmly, even though I had no idea what I'm going to say to his parents or the rest or the members. The doctor nodded and walked away, leaving me to do my phone calls…

It's been almost three mounts since that evening when I saw Sehun, I didn’t get to see him when he finally woke up and after that there was a decision to send him to rehab. I never thought I would miss his stupid smile so much... I mean, I'm happy that he is getting better and Joonmyun hyung even got to visit him, he said that was looking like the old Sehun again, like the makna we all know and love…

But that’s it, today he's getting out of rehab. The past few days I've been living in fear, I had to go to China with the rest of Exo-m members, all I could think about was the boy that I will soon see in Korea…

I hope he will be his old self back

I hope he will forget everything that happened and smile again

I hope he will never ever even think about doing such a thing again

I hope he won't hate me. Not after I realized what a huge part of my heart he owns...

This is a little different from the previous ones~

I wanna know what you think ^^ please comment if you can :3