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August 21, 2013

Dear Yongie-ah,

Yongie-ah, 안녕! Today, I woke up later than the usual. But you see I still feel tired. Why is that? I don’t know. I woke up feeling heavy-hearted. Why is it that you’re most tired after doing absolutely nothing? Hmm I don’t really know. I just want to be glued on my bed. I didn’t want to get up. It felt so comfortable under my blanket. I just want to stay like that forever. It felt safer to be that way. I don’t want to get through another day like this.

It’s still raining today. The weather’s been like this since last Saturday. For us, rainy day here is quite common. Today it is stormy and pouring and gray, which doesn't really help improve the state of one's spirits. When I woke up it’s already past two in the afternoon, I didn’t expect to see Mr. Sunny Sun today but I know deep inside I secretly want to feel his comforting warmth. The sky has this ugly looking dark clouds, dark heavy clouds. Because of the rain the day was very dull for me.

I’m really hungry by that time but I lose my appetite. So instead of eating tasteless foods I my laptop and just do whatever. After for about an hour I became bored, well that’s me being just me. Soon I my music player, plugged in my earphones then boom, you know the drill.

My ears were filled by your enchanting voice. Oh how I love the way you utter each and every word with the right amount of sharpness but also has this gentleness, as if you’re silently requesting for something but with the tone of commanding. Do I even make any sense? Your voice is all I can hear; even the rain that’s heavily and angrily pouring outside didn’t have a match with it. I was soon brought into this world with full of mysteries.

Yongie, How are you today? How’s your day? What are you doing? I’m bored to death here, that’s why I’m writing again. There’s nothing to do, because I can’t go outside. While browsing the net I saw your tweets today; you’re probably at your studio again today huh? One word, work. You’re probably sitting there since forever, doing what your good at, did you even ate breakfast? How about lunch? Are you going to eat dinner? You’re getting thinner and thinner day by day. How can you ignore your health? The bags under your eyes are becoming more prominent. What are you doing? Do you even take a shut eye? Yongie you can’t do this to yourself. You’re pushing yourself to the limit. I know, I know you’re 2^nd album is in the making and your very busy busy busy, and you have to prepare and all, but don’t you know the word rest? At least get some sleep and eat more? I know I get it you’re one of those people who doesn’t stop when tired; you stop when you’re done. But you’ve been working so much; you look like you’re in between exhausted and dead. You see, I’m upset no it’s making me sad because I’m thinking that you’re pressured to do more for us. For us VIP’s. I don’t know, but that’s what’s inside my head right now.

I’m not an artist or an idol to know what you’re going through, hell I don’t know anything about your world, but it doesn’t mean that I don’t know its tiring. Just by looking at your tired face, it feels like I’m feeling your exhaustion too. Idol’s nowadays tries so hard to impress people, to make people like them, but you’re not like that. You’re being watched and judged by people; people who don’t really know you, people you don’t know. There are people who bash you, who mock you. That’s life, people always has something to say, so just what they think and do what you want. It isn’t easy being you, being the gold and diamond boy. I know there are times that you’re hurting too; there are times that it’s too much for you, honestly sometimes I think that you’re just wearing a thick mask to protect yourself from hurting even more. As a leader I think it’s hard for you to stay strong all the time because after all you’re still young and you have your own issues too. I can’t say that I know how you feel because I’m not you, I don’t know what you’ve been through, I don’t know what you’ve felt or what you feel right now. What I’m trying to say is people care about people who care about themselves but I know you really don’t care about those people, just be you. Show them who you really are. Do whatever that makes you happy, because when you’re happy I’m happy. We, VIPs are happy.

It’s okay not to be okay, if you’re tired then rest. I said this before to myself, Sarah its okay to be not okay. It's okay to be scared. If your sad it's okay to cry. Let’s face it, everyone tries to be strong and act like nothing ever goes bad in their life, but in reality we all struggle and need help once in a while, it’s okay to ask for help because no one is perfect.  Life is indeed full of contradictions. Sometimes it’s crazy to be sane. You need to fall to fly. People suffer because you care. You have to unlearn to know the lesson. You have to give up because you are strong. You have to be wrong to make things right. Nonetheless, life's complexities are also life's source of beauty. You have friends and family who really cares about you, you can lean on them. If you feel like you’re so tired you’re going to breakdown fell free to do so because tears is a sign that you have feelings, that you are indeed alive and breathing not just existing.

This is the life you chose. You were born to be Kwon Jiyong but it’s you who chose to live as G dragon. You have responsibilities. You have obligations. You know Yongie there’s this someone who taught me that if you were in somebody else’s shoes you’ll see that what you see isn’t everything. Don’t forget that this is your dream. I’m not saying that you’re acting like all mighty and that your ego is so huge now. I’m saying that remember how it felt when you were young and all you want to do is create music. I don’t know you personally but I can say that music is your first love and performing is your life. This is it. This is you. You said music is oxygen. You said that music is something that is always there and wherever you go it’s a part of you. You’re crazy and I like that. You once said that rather than saying you’re good at writing songs, it’s more like when you write song a lot of people likes them. And you also said when you blink a hit song is born and you even try not to blink too much? Aigoo. How conceited jerk you are? Tsks kidding aside you were so cute when you said that. And after you said that you looked down because you’re too embarrassed. How adorable. Oh My GOD I can’t believe I’m actually spazzing right now. OMO! Okay enough of fangirling, you said that inspiration comes out naturally right? So that means you don’t have to force yourself. You don’t have to stress yourself too much. You don’t have to burden yourself too much. Okay? You have a lot of people behind your back; people who will help you, people who will listen to you. Don’t shoulder everything. Chill man, loosen up. No need to be pressured. We will accept everything and anything that you’re giving to us VIPs. We will support you no matter what. We got your back. So take a rest. Eat up. Loosen up and have fun. I want to see you smile. We’ll be waiting for your new album. FIGHTING!

I don’t know why am I even writing this because I know this wouldn’t get to you, but writing this somehow feels that I accomplished my mission. A fan mission, I guess? It somehow to make me feel that I did my best, as a fan; that I did what I could. So just let me do this okay? I wrote everything I wanted to tell you, it feels like I’m really talking to you. I wanted to talk to you in person but that’s near impossible. Let’s be real, I can’t do that even if I want to. So yeah. I’ll end this here. Goodnight Yongie-ah.

Your forever fan,

XXXSarah

Author's Note: This is only a simple letter.I do not know Kwon Jiyong personally. Again this is only a letter. I do not intend to harm anybody. Any pictures that are used are not mine. Credits to the owner. (Not yet edited, you might see a lot of errors)