Chapter 2

Teenager hormones

“so that actress s that big?” Yunjae asked Sungjae, whispering.

“this big, you could fit those things between you know…” stupid grin plastered on Sungjae’s face.

It was commen for age as boys talking about girls, wondering their uality, what type they like, what type they don't. Girls and boys grew differently. Their build, boys became more muscular and girls became more feminine.

It was teenage hormones that made them do something stupid and crazy. 

They became curious about each other, they will fight with their parents because of not agreeing. They will start to fall in love. 

It was natural. But none of this didn't came to Junhee. Maybe he was late bloomer. He wasn't curious about girls, which made him uncomfortable. Because what if, just what if he was...no he shake away the thought

Junhee could only listen in silence what they were saying. He was confused at himself why he wasn’t excited like them, when they were talking this.

"Junhee, are you listening." Sungjae asked 

"yeah"

"this guy, doesn't even show a expression.. Junhee what type of girl do you like?" the question came, he wish he knew.

"i don't know"

"how can you not know? Boys likes a girls with big chest and slim waist"

He didn’t even feel good when they read those rated magazines where the women spreading their privates in provoking ways.

He thought he wasn’t into those type of girls. Maybe he was into those cute girls.

"Yah, you ert, If you say that to them you'll be dead, you crazy bastard" Junhee said back

"what's your type then?"

"honestly i don't know, girls are scary, try living with girls, you'll get sick, they are so bossy. If you want answers then cute type I guess"

But that didn’t work on him any longer when they watched . The only thing he could get hard on was not the girl who was but the male who’s on top of her. 

That night he got wet dream, he dreamt of the guy who was on top of the girl, his muscular arms, those alluring grunts and moans,  And instead of that girl he was the one who was on the bottom, kissing him on the mouth full, touching and feeling, letting the man dominate him.

He panted as he opened his eyes. God, what did he just dreamt? It is nightmare. He just came while dreaming of a guy. He felt bad, he felt disgusting. But that felt so good. Never in life he felt pleasure like that. He thought he was aual but he was wrong. He tugged at his hair in flustration. Don’t know how to handle this situation. He couldn’t tell anybody, that’ll only create a fuss.

“you, what’s happening” he questioned himself

The next morning

It was a Saturday morning. He searched through all night about his problem which didn’t help his problem. Which only got him more paralyzed. The truth scared him. It was so frightening.

“no it’s not truth, just one dream doesn’t mean you’re gay” he tried to assure himself. But …

“what should I do?” he asked himself.

All of sudden his sister barked in “what’s with what should I do?” he quickly shut down his computer in rush

“n-noona, w-what are you doing here?”

“yah what do you mean what I’m doing here? Anyway how do I look? Pretty?”

“are you going on date?”

“yes and my date is dead gorgeous! I fall in love with him at first sight, so I wanna be pretty for him. So do look ok?”

“actually noona, you’re make up is too thick, and what’s with that dress and hair? It doesn’t suit you, let’s go to your room to redo your make up”Junhee said

“ok Junhee” she chirped excitedly. She know Junhee has got a taste, he's a boy too so he knows what they like. 

Junhee help his sister for the date, redo her makeup, concealing her flaws, drawing a little blush across the cheeks, making her long hair styled in wavy, giving her cute look. Light pink bottoned blouse, fluffy white short skirt. 

“ok. You look cute… ”

“thank you, Junhee-ah. I’ll be going then”

“ok” Junhee said back. Was this one of the reasons… having all those sisters, helping them, because I have too many sisters that I’m feeling like them as well?

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“Junhee” Yunjae called behind as he put his hand on Junhee’s shoulder, making Junhee slightly flinch.

Why did he flinch?

“so today let’s go to siwon’s –“ Yunjae continued

And Junhee couldn’t catch up his talk as his heart started to beat faster, his mind become blank as he saw Yunjae talking and smiling to him. He didn’t know why, when, how.

“she keeps talking about those H.O.T, that’s making my head burst”

Taken back, he just nods and smiled. It was nothing. It was just sudden thing. 

He pretend that he was ok, shielding his emotions as he walk with Yunjae side by side.

When he's heart again start to beat to a sound where he can hear clearly.