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.:YOUR STORY:.   My story may be a little different to the others here but it goes into college and school. In Year 10 of school (That's around the age of 15) i had my first panic attack when i was just about to enter the hall for my Maths exam and since then I've suffered with Anxiety. I'm currently in my first year of college and am about to re-take my English exam and i'm getting really nervous.. The exam is on June 3rd and it's getting ever so closer. I'm trying to get it organised so that i can be in a room on my own with a teacher or another adult to supervise me while i do the exam as i had similar arrangments while at school but unfortunately the school didn't give me any paperwork regarding it so it's going to be harder to get me a room and i'm hoping everything goes to plan, The trouble with anxiety that i find it hard that people don't understand is that you can't physically see it and i just hope the college manage to get something sorted out, I need the C grade for this to get into my next course at college and i'm worrying about that so i'm already worrying like crazy.. I'm also suffering from Acid Reflux in my chest and mild IBS (Irratble Bowel Syndrome) which make it hard to eat certain foods and i'm hoping this doesn't go bad when i have my exam either. One thing i'm saying here is that i have illnesses that are on the inside and i know many other people do too, One thing i wish is that more people would be understanding about certian illness, Also do you guys have any tips on how to stay calm?

Anonymous (16) .:FROM US TO YOU:.  

Hi there!

Before I started anything, let me hug you for a while. Now, let take a deep breath and smile. Panic attack is not somethin unordinary. I have panic attack myself everytime I need to meet new people. I used to worry about how people might think about me since I am listed as one of the 'handicapped' people. Simply because I'm mute. But, I've learned through the years that I'm just exaggerating myself and just worrying about myself. Yes, we can't help that. We can't help thinking of the things that we can't control.

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nightStar #1
Chapter 17: That's so true
ExoticBabyForever #2
Did the admins change? I submitted a story during the time when the two admins were still here, do I have to submit it again?
syupeo_choedae #3
Chapter 17: I like this quote a lot~~!^^
syupeo_choedae #4
Chapter 12: Thank you very much! But no, my parents do not know because they are a bit judgemental towards LGBT, and I don't want them to do anything to me or kick me out or anything. If I get married, I will tell them, but until then, I most likely will not. And committing suicide is a fear of mine, and right now I really don't want to do it or ever do it. I just like the idea of things getting better^^
stephhh- #5
Chapter 10: waaah this is beautiful!
surfergirl101 #6
Chapter 12: my heart goes out to you my uncle was gay i never met him but my aunt was his best friend(hes not really my uncle but i like to call him that) he committed suicide and my aunt was so sad nobody told her until after his funeral and when i got older she told me alot about him and every story just made me wish that i could meet him. It gets better people just are mean people that are different from them they jump on them cause they dont care to understand but there are alot of people that will support you i dont know you but im on your team!!!
:-) fighting!!!! :-P
namzUd #7
Chapter 12:
My heart goes out to the OP...I have friends who are gay and recently, my best friend came out to me, which made us even closer as friends. She had a really hard time in highschool and in the days before she came out because of all the negativity homouality was getting in the news (a local pastor made offensive statements/ a professor told off his student etc) and her parents (they tried to introduce her to guys) and I watched her suffer through it all. Like @MissJoanne said, I which I could give you a big hug and tell you that it does get better. My friend ended up joining a LGBT support group/club in her university and she got a lot of support there.Maybe thats something you could think about? Also there are lots of videos on youtube by arielle scarcella, hanna hart, nick laws (and his bf),ellen degeneres, etc that you could watch on youtube to be inspired. This video made me think : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnOJgDW0gPI&;feature=kp
Accept yourself for who you are because it's not wrong. It's society that's messed up. Someone once told me "I don't remember waking up and deciding to be straight" and I think the same goes for being gay:). Embrace yourself. It does get better:)
kpop_dork15 #8
Chapter 7: LOL sorry author nims for my annoying comments *bows*

Honestly I can understand this situation but probably not in the same way as you. Hey you aren't alone! Honestly (OMG take a shot every time you read honestly in my past two comments plus this one XXD) if I had an argument with my best friends and they didn't accept my apology I would probably be super duper sad too. But I agree that they were never your friend if they can't accept your mistakes. I also agree that maybe she just needs some time to recover from this because everyone needs a recovery period after an argument. You really should just confront her and get both sides of the story out and figure out what went wrong and try to mend the friendship some how. I hate seeing friendships like this go to waste like that. And you should try getting out there more and talk to new people I know it is hard trust me I've been I'm pretty everyone has but after a while it becomes easier really it does but be careful whose hands you put your trust in because putting your trust in the wrong hands is dangerous but I'm sure everyone knows that. Have a nice day!~^^
kpop_dork15 #9
Chapter 5: For you: I'm in the same boat as you but I slowly let my walls break down and I learned to only let my walls down for certain people. But seriously don't let past friendships hurt your current ones because honestly you shouldn't let anything in your past affect your present and future it's not worth it. I had to learn the hard way.... Also I'm the same as you where as I have low self esteem but people think I have self esteem besides my friends who know I have low self esteem... Life goes on and people will come in and out of your life for a reason. They either come in your life to stay or to teach you a lesson so accept that lesson and move on. Trust me when I say breaking down your walls for someone even though you're afraid to get hurt again is difficult and I know that from experience but you just have to do it because you'll never know if you can trust them if you never try. Maybe start them off with something small of one of your secrets and build up from there. I don't know maybe that'll help it works for me but everyone is different so good luck
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