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YOUR Secret Diary [HIATUS]
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.:YOUR STORY:.
Hey guys, thanks for opening up again. I really missed this thread. ;; And hello to the new admins. c:
I'm not looking for a solution or anything but I just wanted to express myself somewhere. I think it's gonna take a while to write, I'm sorry--
So it's been three years since I fell in love with this guy. Let's call him... Kevin. Kevin and I didn't meet each other "naturally"- My best friend introduced me to him.. she like kind of forced us to become friends to like get close and stuff. And it was pretty awkward for us two because well, you know- So yeah, we started talking and stuff, mostly over Facebook chat and it was pretty awkward. But we got really close; there wasn't a day when we didn't message/talk to each other. He was basically my best guy friend. And eventually, rumors got out that he liked me and whatnot. ;;
I don't know what happened but my best friend changed. She became obsessed with things like being popular and looking good. She asked me that if Kevin asked me out, what would I say and obviously I'd say yes but she told me to think carefully because she didn't want me to. I was confused because she was the one who wanted us to be together. Because he wasn't good-looking or popular enough? I have no idea. And then I found out a friend of mine also liked him and I started to rethink my decision but everything came too quickly and I had to make my choice which ended up in a rejection. And man, that was horrible. I really regretted it. And it was almost unbearable because Kevin and I had music practice with other kids after school. It was so awkward and different now that I rejected him and I hated it. It was just so uncomfortable. He still tried to talk to me but the feeling was just so weird that I never replied back or was too afraid to. And from that day, we just stopped talking.
But later in that year, lots of stuff happened. I "broke up" with my best friend and I quit music. Things just got so stressful and I think I kind of fell into a sort of depression. I lost a friend and I was neither sad nor happy about it. But the loss of a friend really hurt me because aren't friends for life? I have not had a single friend who lasted for long periods of time. They all left me, it's lonely. And because of this, Kevin stepped into my life again. He understood what I was feeling since he used to be good friends with my now ex-best friend too.
We had more heart to heart talks. I was surprised he could even talk about his rejection quite freely. But after these conversations, I learnt more things during that gap when we di
I'm not looking for a solution or anything but I just wanted to express myself somewhere. I think it's gonna take a while to write, I'm sorry--
So it's been three years since I fell in love with this guy. Let's call him... Kevin. Kevin and I didn't meet each other "naturally"- My best friend introduced me to him.. she like kind of forced us to become friends to like get close and stuff. And it was pretty awkward for us two because well, you know- So yeah, we started talking and stuff, mostly over Facebook chat and it was pretty awkward. But we got really close; there wasn't a day when we didn't message/talk to each other. He was basically my best guy friend. And eventually, rumors got out that he liked me and whatnot. ;;
I don't know what happened but my best friend changed. She became obsessed with things like being popular and looking good. She asked me that if Kevin asked me out, what would I say and obviously I'd say yes but she told me to think carefully because she didn't want me to. I was confused because she was the one who wanted us to be together. Because he wasn't good-looking or popular enough? I have no idea. And then I found out a friend of mine also liked him and I started to rethink my decision but everything came too quickly and I had to make my choice which ended up in a rejection. And man, that was horrible. I really regretted it. And it was almost unbearable because Kevin and I had music practice with other kids after school. It was so awkward and different now that I rejected him and I hated it. It was just so uncomfortable. He still tried to talk to me but the feeling was just so weird that I never replied back or was too afraid to. And from that day, we just stopped talking.
But later in that year, lots of stuff happened. I "broke up" with my best friend and I quit music. Things just got so stressful and I think I kind of fell into a sort of depression. I lost a friend and I was neither sad nor happy about it. But the loss of a friend really hurt me because aren't friends for life? I have not had a single friend who lasted for long periods of time. They all left me, it's lonely. And because of this, Kevin stepped into my life again. He understood what I was feeling since he used to be good friends with my now ex-best friend too.
We had more heart to heart talks. I was surprised he could even talk about his rejection quite freely. But after these conversations, I learnt more things during that gap when we di
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