Calm breeze of summer wind blows, Butterflies and birds are swaying and singing around. 

Flowers bloom perfectly, giving the whole place colors and sweet scents. 

You are now standing on sand, your bare foot dipping down on sand, you could feel the softness of white sand on your barefoot you watch the wave of ocean dance along with the wind 
"Is this the real heaven?" you asks yourself, you look down to yourself you are wearing a blue floral dress, smiling you look to your hand 


A long time ago, you dream about having a good life, to have a good job, nice and comfortable home and a happy family. 
A family that you can treasure for a life time, A nice, handsome and loving handsome and children, 
You smiles, those thoughts are too old. 
Before you wish that you can go back in past, and just stay being young and careless, without anything you but only your dreams Sounds stupid and childish but everyone thought about it too, some people wished that they didn't grow old and just young and wild. 
You can't blame them, because world is too cruel for everyone, things go wrong according to plans. 
Things happens even we didn't want it, People came and then leave too. 
People you treasure so much betrayed and leaves 

But for you, as of your life now. 
You wanted to keep in present and plan the future, when you give birth to liyan you almost died everything in past came back to you like a pouring rain, you see what you did wrong but you didn't regret it, maybe if you learn to accept there's no other things you want to regret. 

On that time you learn to accept the reality, that things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like and Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. 


"Mama!" A cheerful voice called you, Liyan is already running to you holding her doll, you smiles at your first daughter, you thank god the moment he let you live again and stay with your family, you thank god that he gave you a chance to see you daughter grow up and to be with your husband. 

"Mwama--" your second child called you too, Li wei your twelve month old son sitting on his father's arms 
"Aissh, Calm down son" Kris chuckles whe Li wei kick his stomach, you silently laugh, lifting your daughter to your arms too, Kris and Li wei came on your side. 
"Hello baby boy" you kiss your son on cheek, he giggles in response pressing his cheek on your lips, You then turn to Kris giving him a peak on lips 
"How's the check up?" you asks turni