Daesung P.OV

I was alone at my room after the... the.... whatever that was. Why would he do that to me? He more than anyone, knew what that person meant to me. He was everything, but... why? There must be an explanation. But, now its too late, I did it. I pressed the red button... He dont have a chance against the killer, no, he does have. He is my best killer. But, if things become like that, than Youngbae... Could he do it? Kill G-dragon. Even if he succeed, I will lose one of them, And all that, all that because of Seunghyun. I hit the table with my hands,

 Why did he had to come into my life?  Why did I had to fell for him? Why did I had to be so selfish? Am I paying for my sins? Do I really do not deserve to be happy? Why? Why? Why? 

- Kang Daesung! You stop right there! What do you think you're doing? Have you lost it? Here, let me see your hands. - My father walks in the room, I didn't notice, my hands were bleeding. Half a pen, had entered in my hand. How did that happen? When? Am I really losing it? 

- Here, let me see. You cant do that son. People are expecting things from you, you have people who depend of you. - I couldn't control myself more, I felt my walls falling down, cracking, breaking like a glass, smashed.

- I know it! Father I know! How can I forget? There is always soeone to remember me, from my duties, the way I'm supposed to act, speak, thread, everything! Papa, cant we just stop it? It hurst too much. My heart. Do I really have to lose everything that is important to me? My sister? My mom? Mona, that stupid dog. Seunghyun? My own kid, your granddaughter? And now, Jiyoung? Why papa? Please, I want to go back to the past, I want to sit on a table and eat the jajjagmyun mom made. I want to hear her sing, I want to hug my mom, and listen to her heartbears right before fall in a deep sleep. I want to be awake by my sister loud laugh, I want it. Cant you give it back to me? Cant you? Why cant you? Why did you have to destroy our hapiness? Tell me.. - A loud sound echoed through the corridor. A red mark appeared in the place where my father hit me. My face was red, because of the tears, because of the hate, because of the anger, because of the slap.

- Now, you stop right there Kang Daesung! Do you think I dont regret it, everyday of my life?! I, more than anyone, know the coust of what we lost. Don't - I cut my dad off - No, you don't know. Its more like you dont care. That day I was the one that did all the dirty work. All you did was sit and stare, as if you already knew it. Father, you.... you let me bury my own sister, my own mother, while you did nothing. Did blood scare you? Were you a coward? Well, I was afraid, I am still afraid. Everyday, I wake up and see my mom looking at me w