Jaerin's POV

" well, it started 3 years ago" I started... I looked around and saw how everyone looked like they're watching a movie, good thing the foods arrived 

" wait!! before you start "  Chanyeol said while taking a plate of food... He put himself into a very comfortable position as we wait for him

" now?" I asked, he nodded his head

" okay, so 3 years ago.... My mom asked me if I could go with her in Australia, I said yes so I could spend more time with her, after a few weeks, I started helping my mom with her designs and other stuff, so that became our bonding moments..one day my mom told me that I had to go to school, so she enrolled me to a very popular school, but since my mom was well known for her designs, I didnt want people to befriend me because of her, so I asked her I could go to school with different style, then on my first day of school, that's when I met Jason aka Hanbyul, he became my best friend, till we both fell for each other, he accepted me, even though I looked like a nerd.. Then on his birthday he invited me to his party, he introduced me to his friends, they had lots of drinks, then his friends started acting wierd, they dragged me in to a room, then they all-"  I couldn't say the right words, the pictures kept popping in my head, bringing me back that unforgettable night

"Did they touched you?" Luhan asked 

I nodded my head, and the next thing I knew I was sobbing really hard, Jae ah and Yerin sat beside me and they both gently patted my back

"You don't have to continue" Yongguk said

"No, it's fine... I want you guys to know more about me" 

" And the worst part was that....... Jason recorded everything, I begged him for help, but all he did was laughed, right then my feelings for him faded..... When the party ended, my whole body was sore and tired... I didn't know how I was going to face my mom, so acted like nothing happened, when all I wanted to do was hug her and tell her I was sorry... Two days later, I got myself together, and finally decided to go to school, but it turned out to be a big mistake, cause as soon as I arrived in school, I  got called all different names, during the assembly, someone played the video for everyone to see, right on that moment I just wanted to die.....  

The video became a big talk of the town, that even my mom saw it.... She even showed me the video and begged me to tell her, that the girls was not me.... I had no other choice, but to tell her the truth, I was ashamed and disgusted with myself.  I would always cry myself to sleep, I would even go to my mom's room so I could hug her. Then one day I woke up I felt sick that ended up throwing up on my bed, at first I thought it was nothing, but the sickness went on for days and weeks, so my mom brought me to a doctor then when the doctor told us the result, I felt like my spirit just left my body.... All I could ask myself was "how could this happen?" " when will this end!".....

The when we got home, I locked myself and thought of a way to end everything.... When I was about to take all the pills, my mom broke the door and saw what I was about to do, she was terrified, I begged her to just let me end everything, but she wouldn't let me... She didn't know what to do anymore, so she called my dad and told him everything that was happening, and within few hours my dad and my brothers arrived at the house. At first I didn't want them to see me, but then I realized that they'll find out anyway so I might as well face them... When I saw my dad, I thought he would be disappointed, but instead he pulled me into a very comfortable hug, my brothers did the same thing" 

"that's very nice of your family" Suho said 

"but noona, what was the result when you were at the hospital?" Zelo asked while tilting his head

" he said that, I was pregnant" I answered with a small smile, his eyes widened along with some of the guys, but I knew Kris, Yongguk and the others knew what I meant just by saying that "I felt my spirit left my body"

"so where's the baby?" Chanyeol asked

" his in heaven" I answered, I can feel my tears threatening to fall, but I bit my lower lip instead...

" that's what my mom meant, when she said I almost died" I reminded 

"I don't get it" Daehyun shook his head

" well, when we finally accepted the fact that I was having a baby, my parents took care of me... My pregnancy wasn't normal, the baby grew fast.. As time pass I learned how to loved my unborn child, it was my 16th birthday, when my water broke, my mom took me to the hospital... I suffered from the pain, the doctor knew that the pain was too much for me, so he called in both my parents and he talked to the three of us"

" we can't continue" he said

" wha... What do you mean" I asked

" the baby is in a very complicated position, I'm afraid that if we continue we'll lose both you and your baby" 

" so, what choices do we have??" my dad asked

" if we do this the normal way, the baby would not make it, due to his position and his size, but if we do a C-section, then I'm afraid that the patient would not make it, so we'll give you some time to make a decision" the doctor left 

it was silent for a few minutes till I spoke

" Mom, Dad..... I don't know what to do" I cried 

"sweetie, I know it's hard, but you will have other chances to have another baby " mom said

" so your saying I should stay and let my baby go?" 

"It's for the best " my dad said

" how so?" 

" the baby was made in a wrong way Jaerin, and after all this you can have a brand new start, forget that anything bad happened" 

"I don't wanna kill my baby" I continued to cry

" your not, he will be your angel, who will guide you to a beautiful future"  my mom said

" what would people think?" I asked

"Doesn't matter what they think, cause when you're all better, we're going back to Korea" my dad smiled

" okay, but after I give birth would I get a chance to see my baby?"

" of course " with that both my parents left and told the doctor my decision

When the doctor entered the room, he injected  me something, then few minutes later, I could barely feel anything below my waist

When the baby came out, I was hoping I could hear the baby cry, but the doctor just hand him to the nurse who left the room

"how are you feeling?" he asked me

"sore"

" you did great" he complimented 

"Doc, is it okay if you check the DNA of my child?" I asked

" why? Don't you know-.... Sure" 

" thank you" I said

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"so the baby didn't make it??" Kai asked... I shook my head

"so did you ever find out who the father was?" Luhan asked

"I did" I answered

" who was it?"

" it's "

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A/N 

okay, sooooo what do you guys think???

I'm sorry if I failed really bad, the Ideas just came to me as I typed it, I don't know anything about pregnancy and births so this is all I came up with... Sorry to disappoint you guys :(

To be honest, I didn't expect it to turn out like this, but I did my best

"I will reveal who the father on the next chapter

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