Kyungsoo was breathing heavily.

He could only look at his trembling hand instead of the person in front of him.

Everything had happened so fast.

And he regretted it so much.

He had used violence against his friend.

The violence he had been trying to escape from.

But it wasn’t his fault, right?

It was Jongdae’s fault.

Why had he kissed him?

They were just talking normally.

Or at least that was what he thought.

But he had failed to realize how Jongdae was getting closer and closer to him as he was lost in his thoughts.

And now his lips burned.

Not in a passionate way, but with a feeling of betray.

His lips had touched another lips.

Not Jongin’s.

And why would his friend do that?

Why would he kiss him knowing he was with Jongin.

That he loved Jongin.

“Come with me to China.” Suddenly Jongdae said as if hadn’t kissed him in the first time.

And Kyungsoo looked up confused.

His friend’s face was still so close to his.

He could easily kiss him again and Kyungsoo’s hand would be a second too late again to stop him.

So he took a step back but couldn’t go farther as an arm went around his waist pulling him closer to the other male.

“I have been waiting for you all this time….you had finally decided to leave him…” Jongdae said in a sad tone.

“I won’t leave him…” Kyungsoo could hear the words leaving his mouth.

“I love him and I won’t leave him even if he hits me again.”

But as soon as those words left his mouth he covered with his hands at the same time Jongdae’s arm went loose on his body.

“You need help, Kyungsoo…”

The other male said softly his head now resting on Kyungsoo’s shoulder.

But Kyungsoo took a step back again.

The last time he had seen Jongdae was before starting a love relationship with Jongin and all these touches were making him uncomfortable with the other.

And yet he knew the other was right.

He needed help.

He was so scared of Jongin and yet he wanted to be by his side.

“but I love him…”

Those were his final words before leaving a shocked Jongdae at the front of the building.

He had to return to Jongin.

The sweet Jongin that was waiting for him.

The Jongin he loved and planned to keep.

Because he didn’t mean it when he said he would stay if he hit him again, right?

He was only staying because Jongin was nice to him again.

The same Jongin whose sleeping face Kyungsoo looked with love.

Because he still loved him.

Because he had never stopped loving him.

Even with all the pain, his heart still beat for the other.

But there was something that still annoyed him.

The fact that his mind couldn’t seem to forget those violent scenes.

“Let me forget you just for one day…

These are words I can’t keep.”

He wished he would at least for one day forget that violent Jongin.

Just for one entire day, erase all the pain and solely enjoy the time with his boyfriend.

But it seemed impossible.

Because just one moment of silence, just one different look, just one loud sound would put his body in alert mode and fear would cloud his mind.

And Jongdae’s words and actions made everything worse.

And Kyungsoo only looked at his hand again.

He had slapped his friend.

The same Jongin had slapped him in the past.

Was he now the violent one?

Was he the one who would hit Jongin?

Did all the pain have created a monster in him?