Junseung
This Love
I can see it in your eyes
Taste it in our first kiss
Stranger in this lonely town (this lonely town)
Save me from my emptiness (save me)
It was getting late, much later than usual and it was the third time in row he got lost in that stupid city. He started to feel nervous when the buildings started to become empty garages and abandoned houses all covered in graffiti. He was pretty sure about where he was at first, he could swear he knew the previous places. But not anymore and he started to walk faster while looking around, waiting for a or a thief to come out any minute. He hugged his bag, he had all the work of the day on that bag and wasn’t ready to let it go. His thoughts were interrupted by a loud noise on his back. He started to walk even faster, or maybe he should call it run, when he heard a voice behind him.
“Hey, pretty” Someone said behind him, his footsteps nearer and nearer.
He kept almost running, trying to go back to a more crowded place, but it seemed like he was going further into that abandoned place instead. He tried to not look back, instead he tried to hear any noises from behind but it was quiet again. He tried to catch his breath again and looked around, it was getting darker and he still didn’t know where he was. Maybe he should call some of his new colleagues, they might help him knowing where he was or at least give him some indications to where to go. He took out his cellphone and started to walk again, still fast but not as faster as before, when a hand took him by the wrist and pushed him into a dark alley. He found himself face to face with a stranger who looked nervous and scary. The stranger pinned him on a wall and looked straight at him, while he was frozen, limbs trapped and totally speechless. The stranger talked straight into his left ear and he was able to hear the same disgustful voice from before, a voice that sent him a frightened shiver down the spine.
“You thought you would be able to escape from me, pretty?”
He didn’t know what to do, he was paralyzed and disgusted at the same time. But he was also sure that none would safe him there, or even heard him yelling. Or at least he had been sure until he felt another hand grabbing his own and a pair of lips crashed against his lips. He opened his eyes in shock but wasn’t able to push the other because he was way stronger than him.
“Sweetheart, I have been looking for you like forever! You shouldn’t leave without telling me!” Said the stranger while dragging him by the hand and leaving the crazy rapper behind without knowing what to do.
Once outside the dark alley he was able to regain his will and pushed the stranger far away. The stranger looked at him with a smirk, a y smirk he had to admit, while coming closer again.
“You look lost, little deer. Don’t you think you should be thanking me for saving you back there?”
“And how should I thank you? By letting you kiss me again without my consent?” Said him with a defiant glare.
“That would be of help, but I guess I can accept your name as a start. Mine is Junhyung.” Said with a grin while bowing a little.
He looked at Junhyung kind of dumbfounded, who was this man and why was he like that? And more importantly, what was he doing in a place like that at almost night? Maybe he didn’t want to know, maybe it would be better to just walk away and forget about the incident. But his mouth worked on his own and answered for him.
“Hyunseung” Said him, while shaking Junhyung’s offering hand.
You told me it would be ok
I trusted you to hold my heart
Now fate is pulling me away, from you
Their hands were perfect for each other. With each passing day Hyunseung was surer about it. Every time he and Junhyung went out, to eat ice cream, the theater or just walk around, they would hold hands and Hyunseung knew they were made for each because the shape of their hands fitted perfectly, and he wasn’t hesitant about telling his boyfriend about it.
“Jun-ah…You know that our hands fit perfectly, right?” He would say with a dreamy smile while Junhyung would just rolled his eyes.
In the last few months, after their first awkward encounter they meet up a few times before they decided to start dating. Hyunseung had just arrived the city while Junhyung had lived there his entire life. It was thanks to Junhyung that Hyunseung didn’t get lost anymore while coming back from his work, he would come every day to pick Hyunseung up. At first they spent their way back just talking and laughing about silly things. Hyunseung would talk about his day at his job while Junhyung would nag about how hard it was to be a singer. But little by little their conversations would become more intimate and personal, they would talk about their families and friends, about their lives before knowing each other, and they would start looking for more physical contact, just a brush at first but becoming more and more with every slight touch. They became kind of addicted to each other touch and soon enough they started to hold hands unconsciously.
Hyunseung felt like all his problems could fade away once he was holding hands with Junhyung. Junhyung gave him a feeling of safety and reassurance and he started to feel complete and content with his life for the first time. He was sure that they only needed to be together to feel perfect, because, as their hands, their souls fitted perfectly.
And it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around
I won't give in
I can't give up
On this love
Hyunseung thought about leaving silently, maybe he could go and stay with his family for a while, he would ask for some holidays at his job and would relax while re-bonding with his neglected family. But it was impossible to him. He knew he wouldn’t be able to leave if he had to say it face to face, but he would leave at least a letter. A letter explaining why he was leaving, why Junhyung had to become a great singer and, specially, that he wasn’t going to give up on his relationship, he would wait until they can be able to start the relationship anew, the moment when Hyunseung won’t be a burden to Junhyung.
Makes me sick to even think
Of mornings waking up alone
Searching for you in my sheets
Don't fade, away
His phone started to buzz and Junhyung took it lazily, hoping to be able to stay in bed all day, even though he knew it would be impossible. Even though he rejected the American contract he got a very good deal with a Korean label and he was now working on his debut. He was working as hard as he could because that were the only way to be able to function. While he was singing or dancing till his voice wouldn’t come out or his muscles would get sore he was able to stop thinking about Hyunseung, about how much he missed the other and about how much he wishes to see him again when he’s back at home. And it’s not that he hadn’t tried to look for the doe eyed man. He had looked for him everywhere, in every place in that ing city without any result. He even quit his job and left his house, leaving nothing behind, just the memories and that letter that he keeps repeating on his mind over and over again.
And it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around
I won't give in
I can't give up
On this love
I never felt anything like this before
Tell me the truth no matter what we're going through
Will you hold on too 'cause
Even if I leave you now
And it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around
I won't give in
I can't give up
On this love
Hyunseung punched Junhyung once again, this time with more strength.
“Look how you talk to your boss, Jun-ah” He said while walking away confidently.
Junhyung looked at him dumbfounded, not getting what Hyunseung was talking about, but he didn’t mind, he was sure they would have a lot of time to catch up in the future. By now he just walked next to Hyunseung, holding his hand tightly.
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