But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you  - The Winner Takes It All

Sunhwa let her fingers to move on their own as she only stared on them. There were a paper and a pen lying in front of her, ready to be used. She took a deep breathe as she glanced outside of her window. Looking at the snow which was falling painfully slow outside. She shook her head, telling herself to focus and start.

“Dear Seungho.

How long has it been since I last saw you? I bet it’s going to be a year in the New Year Eve right? Time flies very fast. However, the pain that you gave me is not gone. Instead, it’s getting deeper each day. Sometimes I would imagine the day you’re sorry for what you did to me, to leave me alone. But that day has never come.

It must be hard for you in the army yeah? But you have that girl so it shouldn’t be that hard. I’m talking about the girl who has taken over my place on your side. I saw you kissed her so passionately a year ago and I could hear you told her that you were lonely when she wasn’t there. Yeah, that day when we broke up, I was going to visit you when I suddenly saw you outside kissing that girl and being lovey dovey. I decided to go home after that and instead of waiting for your day off, I called you and asked you to break up. It was December, 31st.

I didn’t know what I should tell you. I was crying all day and all I could tell you when you asked me why I suddenly wanted to break up was, “I can’t take it anymore.” You were silent for a few minutes before you told me that you were glad that I took the courage to tell you to break up before anything else. I wanted to scream to you, telling you how hurt I was by what you said but I held back. I promised myself that I would be strong so I did. But inside, I was falling apart. I was torn into pieces by our break up.

I have never seen you after that. It killed me slowly. I was missing you so badly but I had never had a chance to meet you. I didn’t have the right to miss you anymore anyway. It wasn’t until that day when we finally met for the first time after our break up that I could tell that you have killed a part of me which was still hoping for you. Do you remember that time?

I went to the place we usually went when we wanted peace as it was my birthday and for the first time after two years, I’m alone. Wasn’t it ten months after we broke up? It was a place that you showed me back then and you told me that it was our place and nobody should go to that place beside us. It was an abandoned park in a small city outside Seoul. A place that none really care of its existence nor they know. But as I stepped into the park, I noticed your existence. You were