Chaerin's POV

After a talk with unnie, we decided to go on a beach escapade. I don't know where since it's unnie's plan, but no matter where it is I would definitely love to go since beach has always been my stress reliever.

So at night's time, I decided what to bring and again failed to bring less stuff and overpacked -.-

Seems like I'm bringing my whole closet. binkinis, sunnnies, crop tops and short shorts (from ombres to plain denims).

After I was finish packing, I rested and stared into nothing well particularly on the ceiling.

I kept thinking why am I too stressed thinking about Jiyong, I mean I used to feel all so giddy before but when I knew he was GD, I felt sick being around him. Why? do I really like him but just don't think of settling down yet? I don't know I'm just too confused with everything. First I knew he's GD then the revelation of that guy in my dream. GD and my dream is just one person - Jiyong, Kwon effin Jiyong, how can you complicate my life like this, or am I just the one complicating things? I just wish I wont see him for days, weeks, months or years. I'm getting crazy!.

This can't be love, right?

with all these thoughts, I think I need a good night rest now

"Comeback!"

I hold the guys arm and forced him to face me

"for what Chae? you're pushing me away"

"but.. but... no!"

"I love you by all means but you're the one' provoking me to leave your life"

Jiyong walked away, and I just kept looking on his retreating back then gone into darkness while I'm glued on the spot where he left me, crying a river..

"what have I done"?

riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing!

ugh! my goddamn alarm woke me up! 

I woke up with the annoying sound of my alarm and noticed the almost dried tears in my eyes, its still kinda wet though.

I cried.. with the thought of Jiyong leaving? I'm provoking him to leave which I really wanted-------------not! now I'm confused.

I need to know how I really feel. Yeah! unnie was right, I need to know exactly what I