Waking up with sweat dripping from my tired body, I shook my head in attempt to get rid of the scene in my head. I was dreaming, once again, of that black day, and how I screamed in his face telling him to stop, trying to remind him that we were friends and how he smirked and kept ruining me, every few days I feel all over again all the things that happened to me that night … I can remember how I wished he kill me and end my life…

Cutting off my thoughts the alarm rings and I pull myself out of bed, well, it is just another ed up day to spend in this awful life. And as I drag myself to the bathroom I flash back jun.k's hug and I feel surprised for how much it felt real, like he is hugging me right now, gosh, what is happening to me? This is not right I hit the left side of my chest where my heart lies trying to warn my heart not to open up and to stay tightly closed.

It is already 2 pm when I walk to the hospital, holding with me some fruits and juice to the guy lying in the bed with a big smile on his face while he sleeps, and as I enter the room his eyes open widely like his body was set to wake up when I arrive, pulling the plastic back from my hand, the now kid like jun grins when he see the fruits and goes toward the sink to wash a green apple.

"I knew you would come" he said with the same grin not leaving his face

Hmm…

"Are you alright?" he asked placing his now dry hand on my forehead, "you don't seem to have a fever, but why you look so pale?"

"I'm fine, no need for you to worry" I said with being as much cold as I can

He cut the apple to pieces and hand one to me, I just don't understand how he never stops smiling, and it kind of irritates me! Arggg, I can't look at him while he keeps on smiling…

I take my hand bag and walk out of the room, running toward the elevator, hitting my heart once again, "hey Mr. Ice who gave you the permission to melt?", I say to my heart while entering the book store, my freak work place.

"You are ten minutes late " says a coworker

"Shut up" I whisper to myself while taking my place in the book reading guide section…

The work hours walk so heavily, like time is stepping on eggs, and being so carful not to break any, and with working so hard to control my anger and keep quite and not to answer any of the freak comments I get, I couldn't help but to curve my lips few millimeters upward, as I saw that my shift just finished, and with grabbing my stuff I leave work while running…

I really hate the people there, just as much as they do hate me, but I have no choice, I must work to get money to be able to study, and I have to swallow another disgusting side of the world to be able to actually live.

A harsh car breaks wake me up from my thoughts, and that tall figure in front of me, make me walk backward, trying to avoid talking to taecyeon and run away from him, but as usually he grabs my arm and in few seconds I was in his car while he drives away…

"What the you want from me?" I asked furiously

"I want you to ing stop meeting this ed up Jun and come back to me" he said while screaming

I looked at him not believing my ears and as I snapped out of the shock I managed to scream back: "you want me back? Are you ing kidding me? Aren't you the one that said I was worthless and piece of ? Aren't you the one that told me to get a life?" and here I couldn't pretend to be strong anymore, I just burst in tears, and without conciseness I opened the car door and jumped out while he continued to drive away, and for my luck, before he turns around I was able to stand up and get in a taxi and ask the driver to quickly drive away…

I continued to cry and sob for few minutes more and then I harshly wiped away the trail of tears and asked the driver to take me to the city hospital…

He is sleeping, like a beautiful kid, I gaze at him and my eyes get frozen on his white clear skin, I caress his beautiful cheeks with my crazily trembling hand, I couldn't help but smile when I felt how soft his skin is, and suddenly I felt his warm hand over mine, and my heart sunk inside of me, I couldn't keep it frozen anymore, it fully melted, and it started to beat like it didn't since a very long time ago, and it feels good,  as he placed his hand on my face I blushed, what the hell? I'm blushing?? Since when?? OMG!!

He walked his thump over my jaw line then over my lips, and he closed his eyes and said with the sweetest and most warm voice ever: " I want you to know, that you are so precious to me, and that I love you" he moved his hand to the back of my neck and ever so gently pulled me closer to his face, and I could feel his warm breathe on my shaking lips, then I was took to heaven, with his lips touching the side of my mouth and then moving to be placed perfectly on my lips…

Now not only my heart melted, but also every cell in my body melted, I felt a warmth I have never felt before, and as I slowly opened my eyes after few seconds, I met his long beautiful eyelashes, his eyes were still closed and then he opened them to stare directly into mine, and there I drawn in the chocolate sea of his eyes, and I forgot to breathe…

He chuckled at me and my reaction and placed a falling tress of hair over my so and very red ear… he kissed my cheek and hugged me tightly taking me to heaven with his warm hug once again…

I fall for him, I fall so hard , maybe it is good, and maybe it is bad …     

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