At this point of January, it's snowing.

Makes me want to cry because there is no one to cuddle with, except for my blanket.  Everyday wasn't depressing, it was a different feel of weather inside of me.

Me:"Lihua, can you please slap me now.  I don't feel like living!"

Lihua: ***Slaps...***Punch

Me:"Thank you, although I can't feel it."

Lihua:"LOL hao le"

I try to pull myself together, but what did someone stick inside of me that couldn't be removed.  I can't explain what I feel.  I just want to be alone. (ASDFGHJKL;)  Alone like how Tao takes those long walks on beaches.  I just think it is so beautiful.  It is really soothing. 

I told my friend Salli about how Tao got the same ipod as me.

Salli:"So did you copy him?"

Me:"No, I got mine before he did; like a week before black Friday.  And the color was from my last ipod, the shuffle."

Salli:"Somehow, you and him are so alike.  Both look so dark, you guys even like black!  You guys are like double jointed and flexible!  Just too much!"

Me:"I guess, but he's just a gege, nothing much if it was to be between both of us."

Salli:"What happened if he kissed you?"

Me:"Well I don't care."

Salli:"You said he was your gege T^T."

Me:"Still gege and oppa."

She thought I was weird.  But the weirder the more fun that person is.  On the same exact day, but at 8pm I was having a good laugh with my brother.  My friends they call me scary because when I spaz I take long laughs about 5 minutes and I start to cry mix the laugh.  My brother recorded a video of me crying, my face was all red.

Him:"Ew? Is that snot?"

Me:"Never! It's just my laughing tears!"

The reason why we were both laughing is because I recorded a video of him being a retarded grizzly bear while he lifted up his t-shirt; then he got shy and ran straight into the bathroom but failed to trip into the bathroom.  Who knew me and my brother can get along.  But still I was, I can't explain what I feel.