Prologue
Miduhyo (Believe)Oh yeah, I forgot to introduce myself.
The name's Seungmi. Seoul Academy of Arts.
I have a boyfriend. No, an ex-boyfriend, actually. His name's Kibum, Kim Kibum. He's sweet and nice and is the perfect boyfriend to anybody whose taste is the same like mine.
Today I am sitting with him, sitting on a bench in a park with Kibum beside me.
"So, tomorrow I'm going to America."
I nodded. "Um, yeah.. So?"
"Let's put this thing to and end," he said.
"What?!" I said, a shocked expression on my face.
"Yeah. Let's end this here and now. I don't believe in long distance relationships," he said.
"I... I.." I stammered. "We.. But we were just dating for a few months..."
"It doesn't matter anyway. Even though we've been in this relationship for years, I would still end it. I don't want things to get complicated."
Oh really? Things would be perfectly fine, you know. If you hadn't do this.
"So, then...?" I asked him, my vision getting blurry.
"But if you want, I can marry you after I get back to Korea, though," he said.
Marriage? I hadn't even think that far.
"Kibum," I called him. "Do you really love me or what?"
"Of course I love you. The only problem here is distance," he said, combing my hair.
I wanted to believe him. I want to. But it's just, I don't know.. unfair? It seems like Kibum deserves someone better than me.
As I was lost in my mind, Kibum hugged me unexpectedly. I was so surprised that for a second I didn't hug back. I think he saw the startled look on my face because he asked me,
"Is something wrong with what I just done?"
"Nothing's wrong," I said. It wasn't wrong. It just doesn't feel right. The problem is, what's not right?
"You know what?" I said, letting him go, "you're right. If you want to put this thing to an end, I'll do it."
"Thanks, Seungmi. I know you will understand. I just don't want you to be hurt." he hugged me again.
Kibum, what you had done to me just hurt me even deeper, you know that? But I don't want you to be hurt. That's why I did this for you, Kibum...
"I will still love you, Seungmi," he said, still hugging me, "from the bottom of my heart."
I wanted to believe you so badly.
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