Chapter 5

What Could Have Been

Seohyun stares at her phone, fingers flying furiously over the keypad, as she texts a reply to Myungsoo. Her lips are curled up into a small smile as she laughs at what he said. Her eyes are bright like the stars she so loves, and her skin seems to glow.

Her father narrows his eyes.

Sidling over, he asks, “What are you doing?”

She jumps slightly, letting out a soft, “oh!”, before composing herself and locking her phone. “My friend,” she says.

Her father raises an eyebrow. Seohyun doesn’t have many friends, not ones that she texts, anyway.

“Someone new in school?”

Seohyun cringes. “No.”

“A classmate?”

“… No.”

She can feel her father’s eyes boring into her as she stares downwards, taking a sudden interest in her study table.

“Well.” Her father moves to stand right next to her. “Who is it, then?”

“Someone I met around the neighbourhood.” She said slowly.

“A neighbour?”

Seohyun wants to scream at how persistent her father is.

“No.” She breathed out. “The boy who sells ice cream.”

Her father’s eyes narrow once more. “That delinquent?”

“He’s not a delinquent,” she protests softly.

“He sure isn’t a role model child, either.” Her father in a breath, then lets it our slowly through his nose. “Seohyun,” he begins. “You don’t know what kind of person he is.”

“I-“

“He could be a cheat or a thief!”

Seohyun sighed. “Daddy, he’s-“

“I don’t approve of you making friends with that boy. I want you to keep your distance from him.”

She opens in protest, but then decides against it as her father exits her room, flustered from his findings. Her lips set into a thin line. Anger, an emotion she rarely feels, boils beneath the surface of her skin. She defiantly picks up her phone again and continues texting Myungsoo.

She never agreed to her father’s wishes.

--

XXVII

“What’s it like in the boy’s home?”

He doesn’t need to think about it. “Noisy, rowdy, crowded.” She laughs.

“But warm,” he muses. “Like family.”

--

“I’m going out after school today,” Seohyun says to her mother as she puts on her shoes. Her mother is too preoccupied with her phone to hear her. Her father is away on a business trip; the house will be even emptier for the next two weeks. Seohyun will be left alone, seeing as her mother is even busier than her father is.

“Mom,” she calls softly, and her mother lifts her head to look at her. Seohyun catches a look of the eyebags and the wrinkles under the powder and gloss, and her heart squeezes painfully.

“Yes, dear.”

“I’m going out after school today,” she repeats. “I’ll have dinner outside, too.”

“Okay,” her mom calls, slipping into her heels and joining Seohyun at the front door. Her mother is clueless about the fact that Seohyun barely has friends in school; she wouldn’t find it weird that Seohyun was staying out until late. Her mother is busier, less strict, and Seohyun doesn’t know if her dad has told her about Myungsoo. She is not about to ask.

Her mom reaches out to smoothen her hair, smiling proudly. For a moment, her tired eyes sparkle with warmth.

“My beautiful daughter.”

Seohyun smiles back in return.

--

XXVIII

She rushes through school, overly-eager for it to end. When the bell rings, she lets out an almost audible laugh, one that catches the attention of the classmates around her, and quickly stows everything in her bag before running out.

She passes the classrooms, walking down the hallway to the main gate of the school. Students are streaming out, determined to enjoy the cool breeze and fresh air that a sudden bout of rain in the morning had brought on. She walks down the road that leads out of the school, trying to contain her excitement. She looks around, biting her lips in anticipation. Everyone around her is wearing her school uniform, but she looks around for someone who is n-

“Seohyun.”

She spins around, almost falling down, to come face to face with him. She breaks out into an uncharacteristic grin.

“Hi,” she breathes. “Did you wait long?”

He smiles ruefully. “No.”

He takes in her appearance, navy blue school skirt and white blouse, with a small tie around her neck and a badge pinned to the collar. Cream coloured socks and black buckle shoes. Her hair is loose and frames her face beautifully. His hand yearns to reach out and play with it.

“Should we go?”

“Yes,” she nods eagerly. Her heart beats joyously; she doesn’t even know why she is so excited. But she is. The prospect of getting to know more about Myungsoo makes her happy beyond imagination.

“May I hold your hand?” He knows he doesn’t need to ask, she loves it when he holds her hand. But they are surrounded by people who are giving them weird stares as they walk past, and he thought it was best to ask for permission.

She smiles again, and looks up at him, her eyes sparkling. She holds out her hand, and nods slightly.

“Yes, please.”

He grins his feline grin, and takes her hand in his, wrapping his fingers around hers, pulling her close to him.

They set off. She is excited at what she is about to see, and he is excited to show it to her.

--

“Careful.” He holds her hand as she slips out of her shoes. He doesn’t let go as he leads her towards the inside of the large house.

“There are about twenty of us living here at one time,” he says. “Add in the mentors and some of their families, and that’s close to forty people.”

She looks around in awe. For something that has been described as noisy and rowdy and crowded, the space is immaculately neat.

“We get assigned to a buddy, and we’re completely responsible for that person. And if that person doesn’t do his chores, we get the punishment.” He laughs. “It’s a bit complicated.” She just nods, looking around and trying to take in everything.

The living area is spacious, partly because there is not much furniture in it. There is a couch pushed against a wall, with a small television opposite it. Beanbags are stacked neatly in the far corner of the room. An entire wall is filled with photographs, both hanging in frames or stuck on with tape, along with a few birthday cards. Seohyun trails up to that wall, her eyes seeking Myungsoo’s face.

She sees a photograph of Myungsoo hugging Dasom. The little girl was dressed in a pretty frock, with a princess crown on her head. There was cake all over her face, and she was smiling the widest smile Seohyun had ever seen her smiling. Myungsoo looked like a proud parent.

“That’s beautiful,” she says softly, reaching out to touch the photograph. Myungsoo smiles as he gazes at her. Her gaze travels to another photograph, this one framed nicely and placed in the centre of the wall. It seems to be a family shot; everyone in the photo is sitting or standing in a very formal manner.

He bends over her shoulder, pointing to a boy in the second row.

“That’s my buddy,” he says. “The one I’m in charge of. His name is Jae Joon.” The boy in question looks young, with tan skin and a wide grin.

“He looks nice,” she muses, and he nods in agreement.

She spends a few more minutes staring at the wall, before Myungsoo takes her hand.

“Come on, I’ll show you my room.” He leads her up a flight of stairs, and turns left on the landing, to a room with a blue door and a wooden sign that reads: “Myung, Taek and Jinnie.” Several hearts had been drawn beside the names, and coloured in with pink crayon.

“Myungsoo, Taekwoon, and Jinseok,” he explains, opening the door to the room. “The hearts were a gift by Dasom.” Seohyun giggles.

Her smile turns into chuckles as she sees the plaid blanket that lays at the foot of his bed. He smiles shyly. For some reason, he really wants her to like his room, going as far as to nag at his roommates to clean up the night before.

“It’s nice,” she says. There is a sort of simplicity and warmth to the place that she cannot describe. He sits on his bed, and pats the space beside him, Joining him, she fiddles with her fingers before asking, “Where’s everyone?”

“Taek is still at school. Jinnie should be in Baekhyun’s room.” He glanced at her, a soft smile playing on his lips. “The rest are either at school or somewhere around here. Do you want to meet them?”

Her eyes shine, then dull. She wants to meet Myungsoo’s family, but she is afraid of all the new faces. He reaches out to take her hand. “I’ll be with you,” he says encouragingly. She nods.

Suddenly there is the sound of the door slamming, two sets of footsteps bounding down the hallway. The door flings open, and Seohyun’s eyes widen in shock.

“Hyung!” A boy whines. “Baek ate all of my pocky!”

“Jinseok-“ Myungsoo starts, only to be interrupted when another head appears in the doorway.

“Because he drank my milk!”

“Guys-“

“We could have shared, you know, then we wouldn’t have-“

“Boys,” Myungsoo says louder. Seohyun watches with a small smile on her lips as he exerts his authority. The two young ones turn to face him, finally noticing that there is a girl sitting on his bed.

“Oh,” they let out simultaneously. Then, “Hello.”

“Hi,” Seohyun says shyly.

“Is she the one you kicked me out of the room for, hyung?” Myungsoo’s face colours a light pink.

“The girl with the pretty hair and the nice laugh right?” Baekhyun’s eyes are bright. “Right?”

“Stop talking,” Myungsoo says, suddenly feeling a headache coming on. The boys just laugh, and Seohyun cannot help but smile.

“This is Seohyun,” Myungsoo says, standing up and helping her to her feet. Seohyun gives the boys a small wave.

“And this is Jinseok, and Baekhyun.”

“Noona,” Jinseok coos. Bakehyun immediately comes in to grab her hands. She lets out a soft yelp and looks at Myungsoo. Myungsoo lets of a disgruntled growl.

“Hey, I didn’t say you could touch her.”

Baekhyun just laughs and lets go, putting his palms up in a surrendering motion.

“Let’s bring you to meet everyone else!” Jinseok bounces up and down like an enthusiastic bunny. She nods again shyly, and starts to follow them out of the room. Her heart beats in anticipation and in slight fear, but Myungsoo catches her hand, lifting it up and pressing his lips against the back of her palm, and she feels more confident than ever.

___________________

And introducing Maru/ Jae Joon from C-Clown, Leo/ Taek Woon from VIXX, Chaejin/ Jinseok from MyName, and Baekhyun from EXO!

Just a question, are you guys starting to find this fic too fluffly? Does it seem like it's missing an actual plot? Please do tell me!

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dearlybeloved
#1
Hi!! I just wanted to tell you that I missed this story and I think about it especially on warm, summer nights.. much like tonight has been! I hope you are doing well, author-nim, and thank you very much for writing such a wonderful story that still holds a special place in my heart, even after almost a full 2 years! (Somewhere in the back of my mind, Myungsoo and Seohyun of this story are sitting on the back porch of their home, warm summer breeze drifting by, together eating ice cream..)
dearlybeloved
#2
Chapter 12: (It is currently 3:14 AM as I am typing this, and I'm so sorry if I'm incoherent right now.) YO OKAY you're easily one of my favorite authors because of this fic, like omg every single chapter you've written is PERFECTION. PERFECTION, I TELL YOU. Like seriously, the description of what Myungsoo was thinking at the top of the roller coaster.... just.... the perfect combination of visual imagery and philosophical insight. YOU INSPIRE ME SO MUCH. ;A; I've been working on improving my own imagery and whatnot, and reading your writing really helps me figure out what exactly I want to focus on in my writing. The way you narrate the characters' actions is always so smooth and just the right balance of... kind of like the mechanical, technical description of what they're doing, and what the actions mean to them or what kind of feeling or ambiance is supposed to be conveyed. (Seriously, so sorry if I'm not making sense. I'm determined to comment on this chapter before continuing on with the next chapter tomorrow.) I also really loved your description of how Seohyun's mother trusted Myungsoo. That part really stood out to me for some reason, haha. I think it's because you were able to narrate in a paragraph what happens in a flash in the eyes. Like idK BUT I THINK THAT'S JUST REALLY COOL???? Like seriously, idk why, but that part really made an impression on me. But yes, another beautiful chapter which all your readers and future readers are absolutely grateful for!!! ♡ Thank you, thank you!!! And congratulations on passing one hundred subscribers!! It is definitely something to be celebrated! *throws confetti*
OfSereneNights
#3
Chapter 13: I really wonder who's that girl though. I mean, is she gonna play an important role here? :)
OfSereneNights
#4
Chapter 12: OMG THANK YOU FOR THE UPDATE! AMONG MY FAVORITES, YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS UPDATED SO FAR. /DEPRIVED TBH/ ANYWAY I AM SO SO SO PROUD OF MYUNGSOO. ASIDE FROM THE FACT THAT HE'S WORKING REALLY HARD TO GET THE PARENTS, HE'S ALSO TRYING TO WIN THE BATTLES INSIDE HIM. RIGHT AT THE MOMENT, THE ONLY THING SEOHYUN AND MYUNGSOO NEEDED IS THE SUPPORT OF ONE ANOTHER. SOMETIMES PEOPLE ONLY NEEDED SOMEBODY WHO'S GOING TO STAY WITH THEM, HOLD THEM (NOT NECESSARILY IN A LITERAL SENSE.

AND I AGREE WITH THE USER BELOW, YOU MAKE YOUR READERS FEEL HOW THE CHARACTERS IN YOUR FIC FEEL.

ON THE OTHER HAND, I AM SCARED FOR SEOHYUN. I ALREADY GET SOME SNIPPETS OF HOW SICKLY SHE IS (FROM THE PREVIOUS CHAPTERS). BUT I AM SHAKEN AS TO HOW BLATANTLY YOU PUT THAT IN THIS CHAPTER :((((

PS STILL GONNA WAIT /winks

PPS SORRY FOR THE CAPSLOCK HIHIHIHI
dearlybeloved
#5
Chapter 11: I just realized I haven't been commenting on this, omg I apologize. I always mean to but it slips my mind somehow, BUT AHHH THE LAST FEW UPDATES HAVE BEEN AHHHHHHHH. I keep wanting to be happy, because omg the fluff is so cute and heartwarming and sweet and I just may about die because it's so darn cute, but I don't want to be happy because there's those little signs that Seohyun is a little too skinny nowadays, or she seems a little paler, a little sicker than normal, anD THAT'S SCARING ME. I SENSE SOMETHING IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN BUT NOOO THEY'RE TOO CUTE TOGETHER. TT__TT

On another, I really love the ambiance of this fic, which I think I have mentioned before, but I can't help but noticing because it really fits the story perfectly. Like I just always imagine a really soft kind of lighting when MyungSeo are together, if that makes any sense at all. Like this chapter when they're just lying on the couch together, I could imagine a soft breeze blowing through, cool yet not enough to make you shiver, with a little bit of sunlight streaming through the window. I mean, you don't even have to explicitly write it, but I can feel it, you know? And the love that the two have for one another, how it's expressed in uncontrollable smiles and laughter, and wonder and support and concern and amazement... Absolutely beautiful.

Eheh, sorry for rambling, but thank you for the update! ^^
ChunjiLover #6
Chapter 11: I just love this story period!!! I love Myungseo update soon :D
OfSereneNights
#7
Chapter 10: It's fine you have a schedule for the update of your different fics! I also do the scheduling thing but, err, I never really did update accordingly (to the sched) XD

Anyway, first of all, I don't like the way Seohyun's described here. Although the words are subtle, it appears to me that she's getting skinnier and if it's in a very unhealthy way, she might be sick or something? T.T That leads me to something else.

But since the focus here is meeting Myungsoo's mom, okay...Hmm. Obviously, for a mom to be envious of Seohyun being with Myungsoo, she's desperate to "make things right" for her son. Just that, Myungsoo's too pained because his past seems to shape him what he is right now and because his past seems to have an effect on him, still.

Thanks for the updates! Although like you've said before, this might not turn into something we can rejoice of, I'm still excited to read how things might turn out :')