“hyemi, shinhye is acting weird, she said she’s not Park shinhye, we are now at the hospital because she tried to cut

her wrist again.”  Mina park said as she’s talking with hyemi. Hyemi, gasped and cant help the tears from falling. Even

though they are not in good terms, she and mina maintain a civil relationship for shinhye. “did the doctor know what is

happening to her?” she asked. As much as she wanted to go to france and see shinhye, she cant. Her real father, Park

Moon Shik is determine to get her. Luckily Mina came to her one day, wanting to have shinhye, fortunate enough

shinhye never became hesitant to go with her. Hyemi sighed. “It’s my fault isn’t it” she said not like a question but

more of a statement. She can’t forgive herself to put shinhye into this mess. Her husband wanted shinhye to be a jung

but she refused. Though she stay beside Mr. Jung, she didn’t deny that the feelings she had for shinhye’s biological

father is very much vocal. Mr. Jung is kind enough to understand her, with that when shinhye was growing up and

hyemi saw how Mr. Jung show the father figure shinhye needs she felt guilty. She wasted the feelings she felt for Park

Moon Shik. “we don’t know yet hyemi, I just hope this time we will know what’s really bothering her. I’ll call you again

for updates” mina said and hang up.

“Ms. Park, Shine is experiencing an identity crisis. As the test shows, she didn’t want to be known with her name Park

Shin Hye, she said that its Shine Jung, I suggest that shinhye should undergo psychologist assistance at least twice a

week, don’t you worry with proper talks and right medication to calm her nerves, she will be fine” the doctor explained

to Mina, she fight the tears from falling, she didn’t expect shinhye to be this confuse at this state. She is just in her

adolescence stage, time for confusion and the thing she’s dealing with is not helping, rather its making it worse. “I

suggest too that her family should help her too, I mean, she needed all the love she could have, as we saw with her,

she didn’t felt love, but in her case, I can see that she is, like I said, its all in her head so she needs a more family

members as possible. She felt neglected and abandon” Mina closed her eyes, her chin is starting to tremble with her

fight not to be emotional. “I will tell her mother about this doc, thank you” mina said. After that talk she went to

shinhye’s hospital room. There shinhye is, lying, sleeping soundly on the bed, she walk to the side of the bed and trace

the marks on shinhye’s right wrist. Its been the second time shinhye did this, at first she thought she is just being

bullied but when she went to the school, she learn that shinhye is sometimes the bully in their class, the teacher

suggested that shinhye should went to a psychologist but she refuse, shinhye is not mad. “dal, you scared me and

your mom, yunho will be arriving next week during his break, he will help me with you” she kissed shinhye’s forehead.

Shinhye’s eyes flutter open, mina smiled at her niece. “Omma?” shinhye asked looking at her in a confuse stare. “yes

dal?” mina asked. “where am I? why does my wrist hurts?” once again, shinhye forgot it. Mina gulped to ease her

blocked throat. “don’t think about it now dal, the doctor will do their best to help you”

“hey shine!” shinhye looked at the hallway towards her next class. “hey gustav!” she waved and smiled at him. Gustav

is her classmate in her minor subject. “hey, uhm, we are going to have some drinks later, do you want to come with

us?” Shinhye pursed her lips and titled her head to one side. “you are still not finish with your layout right?” gustav is a

architecture major. Gustav laughed and looked at shinhye, “its okay, I’m used on being hang over during class, so you

want to come?” he asked again, shinhye mentally checked her schedule for the coming 2 days.”come on,don’t be a kill

joy” shinhye sighed. “okay, I’ll follow you there I just need to pass my designs to Ms. Deroux and to get my meds to

my doctor” shinhye said. “skip the doctor thing, you’ll survive” she laughed with the way gustav wriggled his eyebrows.

“arasso , I’ll just pass this to Ms. Deroux, give me 5 minutes” “I’ll wait here outside” he said shinhye smiled

and went her way. “this is another superb design shine and to think you just started last night, 3 designs already, tsk,

you really are impressive” shinhye smirked while seeing the face of Ms. Deroux, when the professor looked at her, she

gave her the sweetest smile she could give. “its nothing ma’am, I just want to make it breathtaking” “it is indeed.”

Shinhye is walking towards gustav when her phone rang, she recognized the ringing tone so she hurriedly took it from

her back pocket. “oppa! How are you?” she squealed. “ey, don’t use your French skills with me, I don’t understand it,

well, a bit of it” yunho protested. She bit her lips, then she decided to settle for English instead. She didn’t know but

sometimes she can’t remember her native tongue. “sorry oppa, I just…” “hey, did you take your meds with you? You

didn’t skip are you?” good thing that her older brother knows English. “Its with me” she said wishing at he didn’t notice

that she is stuttering. She is skipping her meds for the past few days, she is so busy with school that she forgot that

her pill container is empty already. Yunho scoffed and shinhye bit her lips, “but why are you using your french skills with

me? And making English an alternative? You forgot Korean again?” yunho asked, actually, he did some research about

shinhye’s condition, and he find it confusing that her symptoms about her split personality is not the same as the

books, its like shinhye is having a new kind of it, if there’s any, he shook his head “I’m waiting” he said. Shinhye let out

a sigh. “I just wanted to practice still” shinhye tried her best to remember something, “kwenchana oppa” she said,

yunho laughed, “on second thought, I cant stand hearing your Korean with french accent. By the way I called to tell

you that omma just want me to check up on you and I am going to visit you soon.” Shinhye smiled excitedly, spending

time with her older brother is what she always anticipates every month. She then saw gustav waving. “oppa, I have to

go, bye kiss mom for me” she said and ended the call.

Shinhye is dancing with gustav on the dance floor, she didn’t know why but she ended up dancing with him, she didn’t

know how many shots she have but she is still sober enough to know that gustav is practically pulling her closer, “I

really like you” he said to her ears, that send shivers down her spine, a part of her is telling her that she should push

him away, but there’s a bigger force that’s making her stay and grinned at him too. She saw the playful smile on

gustav’s face, “I can see that you’re liking this babe” she smiled seductively, she reached for his manhood that made

gustav froze, “now you know” she whispered back, in no time gustav made their way to a private room, pushing and

pulling each other, the needs on their body is empowering, shinhye closed her eyes as gustav skillfully making her want

more with all the kisses her body is having from him. The next day, shinhye woke up disoriented, she opened her eyes

harshly when she felt a hand caressing her bare stomach. “good morning beautiful” her eyes widen. “what happen?”

she asked. She abruptly took all her clothes on the room she didn’t know whom it is and like a thunder and lightning

she went out, crying and confuse.

After that incident, shinhye have been regularly going to her psychologist, she was always accompanied by her aunt.

She talked to her doctor and tell her that she didn’t remember anything from what happen. Fortunately, she didn’t saw

gustav ever again, a part of her is saying that she should be mad at him but she knows now that she is having a weird

condition. She then just thanked gustav for using protection. For the past years after that, slowly shinhye erase that

part of her life in her mind, how? She didn’t know too, but one thing is for sure, there are two person inside her, Shine,

the fierce and risk taker one, and shinhye, the real her, or so she thought?

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