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Your POV 

while i laid on the bed, i started to have a flashback of the most gruesome and shocking occurrence of my life 

*Flashback*

"leave me the hell alone!!!!!" my mom yelled as i watched her being taken and beaten

"Hyosung run and dont look back" my dad yelled, i was only 10 so i couldn't do anything but cry and watch the horrid scene from afar.

i watched my mom and dad being beaten to death while oppa was out with his girlfriend.

i wouldn't budge no matter what, i ran and start punching one of the guys but he kicked me and i fell against the wall. The fall was hard that i got dizzy and my head started bleeding while my legs were stepped on in the wrong position which caused them to fracture. i cried and cried while my eyes were wide open and blood was running down my face.

"Leave my daughter out of this!!!! take us instead" my dad yelled 

One of the three guys came to me and held my chin up making me watch the gruesome scene, my mom looked at me and said "i love you honey, stay safe. i'm always watching over you" and in a flash my mom's neck was sliced infront of me while blood splatted all over me

"Yobo-" my dad screamed out and was dropped on the ground, he immediately crawled to my mom and laid next to her but he got shot six times. 

all the guys ran out leaving the dead bodies of my most loved ones infront of me. I was in the state of shock....not shocked, i was traumatized. minutes later my oppa ran in to see me against the wall with wide eyes and ran to me and hugged me. Once he let go, i ran to my mom and dads bodies and held their hands crying. 

*Flashback ends*

tears flowed and flowed when suddenly i was disturbed by a phone call. it was oppa.

"oppa.... i miss them...where are you when i need you.... why cant i reach you, why cant i have the hug i've been waiting for.....i've been left alone in this world without some one there for me.....some one like you..." i cried and cired 

"Hyosung....i'm sorry that i've ever abandoned you....oppa will be with you forever so dont worry" he started to tear up too 

"i cant stand it any more, why did it have to be them and not me! i wanted them to stay by my side but they left me just like you did" i hung up and stuffed my head in my pillow crying. 

i'm having flashbacks of how they broke my dads leg and arm but they completely disoriented my moms body..

BLOOD....BLOOD....BLOOD....thats all i can think about. i started punching and kicking my bed in pain of those memories. 

"dont watch over your past but instead foget them. they wont help you at all but hurt you more." i heard a voice somewhat familiar, i rolled over on my back and saw my oppa. i ran to him and hugged him tight 

"i know what you're feeling so i'll stay by your side and wont ever let you go again" he said in a depressing tone which deffinately meant he was about to cry.

"Oppaa~~~" i cried in his warmth

we hugged and cried for minutes until someone kept knocking on the door

"dont worry, i'm fine now that you're here" i let out a fake smile and opened the door, only to make it worst, it was Zico.

"Hyosung, i miss you. i'm sorry i did all that to you, please forgive me. i promise i will never leave your sight again.. just please.." he said and held my hand. i snapped back and pulled my hand away

"you caused all of this and all you have to say us this. you just casually appear infront of me without even realizing what you've done. leave" i yelled at him then he tried to hug me but i pushed him aside 

"dont make me do something i dont want to do" i threatened him enraged 

"I WILL KILL YOU! YOU BROUGHT MY NIGHTMARES BACK AND PUSHED ME AS DOWN AS YOU COULD! AREN'T YOU HAPPY THAT I'M THE WAY YOU WANTED, AT MY VERY EDGE! ARE YOU NOT DONE YET? DO YOU STILL WANT MORE?! YOU ING BASTARD! LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!" i screamed probably waking my neighbors but i didnt care because he caused this so its his fault. then my oppa held me back 

"i think its best you leave, i will take care of her for now"  my oppa said to him and closed the door.

i feel on my knees and started to cry more, oppa knelt down aswell and helped me up 

"i know how you feel. just leave your worries for now and stop crying. do you remember what umma said before she died. she told me to never let you cry and to help you up everytime you did so don't cry and show me a smile" he gave me a warm smile which reminded me of my dad and so i stopped crying and smiled while looking up at him

"thats my little sister that i love" he said and hugged me 

"i miss that smile" i said and wiped my tears away

<<<2 hours later>>>

we both had changed the subject immediately to other stuff when he suggested to go to a Noraebang. i was surpprised to his suggestion because he would never go to a Noraebang...EVER... i laughed in connfusion and agreed to go.

when we arrived at the Noraebang, to my surprise, Gi hyun was there checking in and so my oppa ran to him to surprise him and indeed he was ecstatic to the sight of my brother. i went along and greeted him. After that i went to get checked in but when i did Gi hyun took my hand and boldly said

     (<------that is Gi hyun)

"i already paid"

i was astonished.

"wait..what? How did you know i was coming? Do you stalk me???" i interrogated him but he just simply laughed 

"i felt like we needed to meet up again so i made a date" my brother, HyunWoo said as he left out a giggle. he really hasn't grown up, has he? i laughed along at their hilarious conversations as we entered our room.

"you two are the same as you were a while back" i stuck my tongue out 

both of them laughed histarically at my aegyo. 

in a moment or two, we sang songs that were just normal and pleasant but right after that we pumped up the atmosphere with blasting upbeat music and started dancing along with the beat. 

i watched them go crazy and it was very joyous to see the image of my Hyunwoo all giddy after all that hes went through. it felt very peacefull when he smiled and laughed which reminded me of when before our parents died.

"i miss you like this"

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OH and by the way, the main image is Hyosung oppa which is Hyunwoo. the other picture is Gi hyun. Gi Hyun is actually someone i know but haven't had a full on converstaion with, yet.. He is my brothers friend (just like the story LOL). If you guys have any personal questions for me, ask in the comments and i will answer as soon as i can! hope you liked it!!! I CRIED WRITING THE FIRST PART OF THIS CHAPTER!! Thank you soooooo much for your patience and for continueing to support me!!! 

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