Author's note: Short chapter I know... but hopefully you like the over dramatic fanfic stuff. HAHAHA

I woke up to the consistent cries of Jongup’s alarm.

“ this” I heard him roll over to turn off his alarm; Jongup’s not a morning person.

I was feeling the same way. Normally I need an extra hour than Jongup to get ready for class, but today I didn’t care. Today, depression was sinking its way into my bones. Today, I wanted to wake up next to Bang Yongguk like last night. I couldn’t keep that mindset; I needed to stop my feelings for him before they got worse.

I made the decision to stay in bed, not to go to class. I didn’t have the energy, I felt horrible, and I didn’t want to even run into Yongguk.

“Yah, Himchan! Wake up you have to get to class.” Jongup’s voice was groggy.

“I’m not going” my eyes still closed

“Wae?” he sounded full of confusion. I could easily picture the dumfounded look across his face.

“Because…”

“Is it because of Yongguk?”

The pit of my stomach growled. How did he know?!

“Leave me alone…” I whispered loud enough for Jongup to hear.

“What happened between you two last night? You two are such a tight couple”

“We aren’t a couple! We aren’t together Jongup!” I exploded as tears started to form in my eyes, “Just l-leave me a-alone”

I turned back over leaving Jongup stunned in position.

Eventually Jongup left for class leaving me alone. I rolled over to check my phone: 4 missed calls, 5 new texts, one voice mail

From Gukkie <3:

U get home okay?

(I forgot to text him when I got home… Still it pained me a little to see his nickname and a heart next to it. I moved onto the next message)

From Gukkie <3:

Himchan? Text me when u get home

From Gukkie <3:

U aint home yet?

From Gukkie <3:

U are really mad at me then eh? I hope you made it home safe. Can U at least text me saying “I’m home” so I no?

From Gukkie <3:

God damnit Himchan

I moved onto all the missed calls; each by Yongguk. I sighed knowing the last thing I had to check was my voicemail. I couldn’t… I couldn’t hear his voice. After battling with myself, I deleted the voicemail. I watched as I realized I’d never hear the contents of that voicemail… I wouldn’t hear his soothing deep voice. The only thing I wanted right now….

I felt more tears roll down my face as I checked the time:

12:11pm… lunch

That’s when my vibrated and I looked down to see I had gotten another message from Yongguk

From Gukkie <3:

Himchan… please dont be mad. Come eat lunch with me. Lets talk? Stop avoiding me.

*knock knock*

Consciousness slowly came to me

*knock knock*

“Who is it?” I yelled my voice cracking.

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No answer.

I shifted as I started to get out of my sheets and head to the door. Shifting the turner, I opened the door.

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Bang Yongguk.

My hands started to shake, I was so happy to see him, yet my rational side said to close the door.

“Himchan…” his deep voice was exactly what I wanted to hear. I looked at his eyes, they were filled with sorrow his hair was a mess, dark circles under his eyes.

“p-please Yongguk l-leave m-me alone” I sounded weak, my voice still cracking.

“Wae?! Himchan I don’t understand! Did I do something wrong?!”

I didn’t say anything. I couldn’t just admit my feelings for him could I?

“HIMCHAN!” he started to get angry.

That’s when I fell apart, “Y-you d-don’t know what you put me through Bang Yongguk…” my voice getting shakier as my eyes became misty, “You torture me every day with how you treat me. I have a burning hope that how you treat me is real, is genuine, but in reality I know you are joking. I c-c-CANNOT deal with it Yongguk.” My checks were the rocks to waterfalls, “I LIKE YOU YONGGUK! You don’t understand! You can’t treat me like this and act as if it’s a-”

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I was cut off.

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By him… k-kissing me.

One of his strong arms slid behind my back, giving me stability; the other, gently grabbing my jaw. His lips melted with mine, creating a sensational feeling of connection. His tongue had ever so slightly entered my mouth, just barely caressing my tongue. His caring yet strong touch was domination within the kiss. It felt… incredible. I- couldn’t help but let out a small moan from satisfaction. I felt his lips curve into a smirk. Our lips disconnected creating a cold draft between us; I wanted more.

My eyes were still closed, and I let out a breathy moan. I still couldn’t wrap my head around what had just happened.

“Don’t say I don’t understand” his deep voice strong, “Himchan, you drive me wild. … You turned me gay” he laughed, “Everything about you, I can’t turn myself away. You’re like my favorite food, my favorite song, my favorite everything, I can’t get enough… Don’t be mad at me babe… Just be with me” he grabbed my hand.

I latched onto him, as his arms curved perfectly behind my back. His security reaching to me; I couldn’t help but cry.

“No more tears over me Himchan” he said as he wiped my tears away with his thumb.

“G-gukkie… I need you”

He smiled, “Don’t worry babe… I’m here”…