'Don't do this to me, Jonghyun.'
"He's Mine. My only exception"
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Jonghyun and I have been living the perfect life... well as perfect as perfect can get, yes; we've had our fair share of fights but; Jonghyun is always there to tell me after every fight, how he was sorry even though it was me who was the cause of it.
It has been 5 months, since Jonghyun and I have decided that it would be the best idea to see how it feels to live under the same roof with each other, and more than one and a half year, since I've had the pleasure to have Jonghyun in my life and one wonderful year since I've decided that taking the risk with Jonghyun was worth it.
Everything seemed to be going well (perfectly well), Jonghyun finally finishing his last year of college only to be face with the job of working as the heir to his father's company as well as me being in the final year of college.
I'm finally living it; the perfect life with none other than someone I can say I fully trusted.
I remember, so vividly the day I was finally able to voice out the trust, I was able to finally give him woth no doubt; the trust he earned and deserved.
It had been a week since the day that I had move in, we were in the living room, watching reruns of 'Star King', late afternoon. He was sitting on the leather sofa, legged crossed with one hand around my waist lovingly while the other sitting comfortable on the top of the arm chair, while I on the other hand was turned slightly to my side with one hand causally playing with the strands of soft brown hair while the other was wrapped around Jjong's shoulder in the front with my head, resting comfortably on top of it.
Everything was falling into place; my life, love life as well as what the possible future could hold.
And I couldn't help but let a wide smile paint my lips at the thought of it, I have a hardworking boyfriend with me and a dad, who has finally realised how women wasn't as important to him as he thought.
"Jjong~~..." I said trying to gain his attention, failing miserable as all I got in return was a hum in response, drawing a clear hurt pout on to my face.
I circled my arms around his neck before giving him a kiss in the cheeks, "Jjonggie...pay attention to Kibummie", I whined acting as sickeningly cute as possible.
You gotta do, what you gotta do.
But as soon as a small chuckle left your luscious mouth I knew that I had already won, "Okay, I'll give all of my attention to my Kibummie" he said before catching my light pink lips, placing a soft kiss on to it, making me giggle in return.
"I'm cold, Bummie's cold" I told him as I nuzzled my head in the crook of his neck, another chuckle falling out from his lips, "C'mere..." He said as he patted both his thighs, "...then, Bummie", he continued with a smile.
I kissed him again before placing myself in the warmth of his lap, with both his hand wrapped around my waist, while mine were sitted comfortably on his shoulders behind his head, playing with soft tuffs of hair, "How's, Mr Kim and work Jjongie?" I asked in a mumble as I brought myself closer, pulling him into a hug.
"His fine, baby; actually he was asking about you today, telling me that if you wanted, a space could be made for you in the company, after you finish college of course."
I smiled knowing just how thoughtful, like Jjong, Mr Kim was, "It's okay yeobo, tell him that I'm honoured to be asked, but studying is still my main priority", Jonghyun hummed in agreement while he caressed my sides.
I shy smile grazed my lips, I still can't get my head around the fact that I'm one of the luckiest person alive, with such a caring boyfriend, putting up with my child like antics even after a hard day of work.
Just like his father; hardworking and a respectable noble man. Remembering, the first time that I had met him, I realised how the saying 'the apple doesn't fall far from the tree' may not be, just any normal saying as it was proven by Jonghyun and his father. He was exactly like Jonghyun, maybe a little bit taller but it's easy to say, that it was as if Jonghyun was a carbon copy of Mr Kim; so perfectly a like.
"Your a beauty, Kibum-ah, my son is lucky to be able to catch a boy so beautiful and polite, like yourself" Mr Kim praised me after we had our talk; Jonghyun beamed in what seemed like proudness and admiration, "I sure am, dad and I'm not letting this beauty go anytime soon" Jonghyun said while wrapping me in a back hug.
I asked him to get some food for his father to take home, which he did obediently, walking straight to the kitchen to do so.
"Take care of him, Kibum-ah, he may not look like his been through a lot but he has. I know he still feels as if his disappointed everyone one with what he choose to be, but I can see why he doesn't care about the pain he feels anymore, the joy you bring him overcomes those pain and... his happy. I'm glad his finally found someone who he loves; welcome to the family, Kibum-ah" he said to me with a loving smile; sign of a great loving father.
"I promise, Sir. Jonghyun will be well looked after and loved" I reassured the elder man, because I'd be stupid to do something careless to hurt such a person, like Jonghyun.
"Call me, Appa" Mr Kim, told me, making me blush, Jonghyun came in with a bag of food, "You'll be having a feast tonight, dad", Jonghyun said with a grin, giving his dad the bag of deliciously cooked food.
"I probably will, Jonghyun-ah" he said before bowing, saying his goodbyes. Jonghyun hugged his father and I did the same before whispering, "Thank you, Appa", Mr Kim, smiled brightly before saying how he shall visit us soon and giving the both of us his final wave of goodbye.
It thrilled me to know, how even though it felt like the whole world has came crushing down on both Jonghyun's and I, we were still blessed with loving and understanding fathers.
Can't help but smile at the thought of Jonghyun as a loving,caring and protective father. He'd be perfect.
I sat myself straight, now straddling Jonghyun with one leg at each side of him; looked straight in the eyes getting lost and mesmerised by how much love and care they held for me.
"Baby, I want you to know...that my trust is now one hundred and ten percent, in the palm of your hands, you've waited so long and I'm happy to tell you that Jjong... I love and trust you, with everything"
It felt so reliving to know that now, his earned all of it; deserved nothing but the whole of it, worked so hard gaining them and it made it easier for my to see how it should have happened earlier than this, for me to be able to completely trust him.
My heart can't help but beat so unhealthily, at the sight of fully content puppy eyes, he cupped my face in both his hands, "B-baby... I-I don't know w-what to say, you've- finally Key; I've been waiting for so long and- oh god I love you" he stuttered not knowing which words to say or how to say them before kissing me full in the lips which I quickly allowed.
The kiss was sweet, yet you can tell its was one of those that cried for that need; missing and now finally being found.
"I can't believe it, everything, is like a make believe, a dream that I hope I'll never wake up from" I said to him in complete amazement; never in my life time, have I felt so wanted and loved.
"It's no dream, baby its reality..." and with that he pulled me in for another kiss; soft and haste, "...and I can't wait to spend the rest of it, with you"
That day night, we made love, passionate and full of affection and desire. We made love because it meant that we were finally both mentally and physically one with each other.
In relationships, it can't always be full of rainbows and unicorns, because we're still living in the real world.
Even if Jonghyun was an heir to a successful business it didn't mean that we were always going to be living in luxury; bills were piling up, needing to be paid and so Jjong, worked harder; so hard that he even comes home late at night. I would wait for him, without no question asked because I know what he was doing and that the reason was because of us; wanted me to live like royalty.
But that one day, could have been the end of our relationship; misunderstanding and the lack of something so simple like communication. It petrified me to even remember it but because of it my love for Jonghyun, could only get stronger; he loved me and only me.
2:30am
The clock read. And there I was still anxiously waiting for him to come back, the past 2 months it's been like this- 'Key, I'll be coming home late today, so sleep tight baby and don't wait for me' every morning before leaving a soft kiss in my temples and a hug goodbye.
I didn't mind the first week,because I knew we needed the money; bills were piling up and nothing seemed to get done since I was still at my last year in college, I told you that I'd get a job and help out but Jonghyun strictly forbid it- "No baby, I want you to focus on your studies and graduate without stress, it's fine I'll work harder; we can get through this because we have each other" and I find myself thinking, 'Aren't I lucky'.
But two months, I couldn't help but doubt things; 'Are you cheating?', 'Did you grow tired of me', like what other reason is there, to stay up so late. The hidden doubts that I tried so hard to lock away, started to leak through every night, that he weren't home.
I sat down in the kitchen with a hot mug of coffee, all the bills were paid and done, everything was going smoothly yet there he was still working so late, I couldn't help myself but be suspicious of him, can't help but think negatively.
Then suddenly a clang of keys were heard from the door, and there he was with his suit, exactly the same as when he had left this morning- 'Key maybe your over thinking things, Jonghyun loves you; more than you could ever imagine'.
"Key, baby didn't I say not to wait for me, you have a class tomorrow" Jonghyun said before putting his things down on the floor, quickly walking to me towards me with open arms, "Did you miss me?" He asked gently and before I could even answer, my fragile heart began to crack and tear, the scent that enveloped my senses wasn't him; musky yet still fruity and sweet, and I wasn't born yesterday to not know that the scent lingering on him was one of a women; so sickeningly sweet.
How could you... after everything, I trusted you yet you deceived me, I loved you yet you throw it all away, why? I thought to myself, heart crying out in pain.
I pushed him away as hard as I could because I couldn't even stand to be around him,let alone breath the same air as him; someone so pathetic and untrustworthy, and the same tears I never wanted to see was pooling around my eyes like a river.
Aloud thud echoed in the silence of the room, he look at me with wide eyes and gaped mouth as he reached for the arm of the sofa to hold on to, "K-key...baby w-what's wrong, why did you p-"
"You, liar you ing bastard, I told you to never hurt me yet you go behind my back to cheat, J-jonghyun...wh-y, tell m-me why! What did I do?" I yeld in pure anger and rage.
Was everything he told me a lie, I trusted him and left my dad because I wanted to be happy not betrayed.
"Key... Stop this, what are you saying?" He questioned in confusion, while he made his way towards me.
"Don't you dare, touch me. I-I told you to never ever h-hurt me, you promised, that you'd never hurt me and yet...yet you do this to me, w-why, why me?" I shouted as I held myself in my own warmth, walking away from him.
His eyes began to water at the sight of me being so cold and distant, "I don't understand...why are you acting this way, Key... what are you saying, talk to me for god sake and stop yelling" He pleaded with sincerity in his eyes.
Jonghyun's eyes always held his true intentions, yet I can't bring myself to believe a word he says; heart so broken and in distraught.
All I wanted to know is why?
Was I, so bad and unloveable that cheating on me was something he thought was okay?
Or could it be, because he had grown tired of me and wanted someone new.
It would hurt less to know what could have pushed him to do what he did.
"All I want to know, is why Jjong? Why?" I muttered through endless tears as I slid down the wall in physical agony hugging my knees close, blocking out anything that could harm me; including him.
I could feel him crouched down beside me, "Key, what do you mean why? If its because of me coming home late, I thought you knew why, all I want is the best for you, for us?" He said softly, caressing my arms making me visibly flinch and shiver.
I looked up to see red puffed watery eyes reflecting my own, "Jjong, don't lie and make this harder than it needs to be...just tell me the reason and I'll go ahead and move out" I said rather calmly, I was both mentally and physically exhausted, that all I needed was to know why, I've always known that trusting someone was a huge risk; a risk I chose to take and so there's no one else to blame but myself.
I really thought that we could work and last but then again it had always been just a thought (a sillt thought I'v come to erase), I'm felt numb, like I was ready for anything to come at me, because what else could be worst than finding out that the one and only person you thought you could trust turns out to be the person which made you feel the most pain.
"Move out? Kibum, what on earth are you on about and lie, I'm not lying about anything, stop cutting ing damn corners and tell me what's wrong!" He shouted as he stood back up taking a fistful of hair, I flinched at the tone used, as well as the fact that it was my first name that he used, he has no right to be angry.
You had no right, to be angry at me, Kim Jonghyun.
"You want me to tell you what's wrong?... Okay, it's your damn fault, you hear me, we were doing so well Jonghyun. The thought that I've actually finally trusted you and yet, you cheat on me Jjong, why did you cheat?!" I bursted out into tears pushing picture frames and figurines straight to the ground, not caring whose it is or how much it was and all I can hear was the sound of glass smashing. Like the broken pieces of my heart, that's crying.
"I tell you everyday how much I love you and you think I'm cheating just because I come home late, Kibum grow up and open your eyes, I'm coming home late because I want the best for you, I want to show you that it was worth the risk to trust and love me" he said sitting down on the sofa, head hung low while he calmed himself by rubbing his neck.
"You really think that low of me; that I could be someone who could cheat" He said again more hurt than angry and it frightened me, I felt like I was the one in the wrong when it was me who was the victim.
"Don't you dare, turn this on me Kim Jonghyun, I never asked for anything, having you here with me was enough. I never asked you to go and work so much...up until today, I did think that this was worth it that you were worth it but then you go ahead proving me wrong... I'm not stupid I know how a women's perfume smell like, so please... just stop" I said controlling my breathing as I got up from the floor, I knew it would always come to this, I've seen my dad go through this so many times; pleading and crying and if there's one promise I can keep to myself it would be to lose everything but my pride; don't want to plead or cry, its worthless.
Jonghyun looked at me with shocked eyes and a gaped mouth, why so shocked Jjong, you thought that I'd never find out about what you're doing. And that look was everything that I need to confirm that indeed there was a women and it broke my heart to know being replace was so easy.
"Your reaction just said it all, it's obvious that there is someone, if you didn't love me anymore you could of told me and I would of understood" I said picking up the broken pieces of glass shards, dark laugh escaping my mouth as a thought evaded my chaotic state of mind, 'kinda resembles what my hearts looked like right now, how ironic'.
"Kibum, let me explain... It's not like what you think it is, trust me... I-" He tried to say but I couldn't help but feel even more hurt, "What else can you possibly say, huh Jjong, what else!" I shouted at the top of my lungs, so tired of everything.
Jonghyun, hugged me from behind telling me how much he love me, but it's gone now the feeling of knowing the truth. I couldn't feel it anymore, "It's all a misunderstanding Key, trust me okay, all you need to do is trust me" He said through broken tears, I turned around to face him, I couldn't do it, I can't stay here, "Just tell me, 'goodbye' and let me move on" I said through sobs and tears, I hate crying.
"Key...stop, what goodby?" He asked in confusion.
I couldn't do it, I couldn't just stand there.
I bolted out of the apartment, with nothing but jogging bottoms and a t-shirt, how melo-dramatic Kibum, but I really couldn't bring myself to stay there any longer; enough is enough.
"Kibum, come back here..." I heard him scream but I was already gone, i better that he'd ran after me as the echo of the door slammed shut, made me shiver.
Don't do this to me, Jonghyun.
I tried to run further, faster but I was physically exhausted and I collapsed near a tree just outside if the apartment, in agony and I hear him come nearer huffing and puffing.
He kneeled before me cradling my exhausted body in his arms.
After a few minutes I regained my strengthen and stood up I was aiming to quickly run away to get away, though he knew that it was an option that I would consider and so he held my wrist tightly, his free hand tucked itself under my chin making me face towards him.
'Why are you still crying?'
"I know your scared and afraid, but don't shut my out Key; No, I'm not saying goodbye okay, because to be honest it's going to take far more than you shouting at me to get me to let go of you. I'll never leave you alone. I'm not like your mum okay, I'm not like her, I'm not going to grow tired of you....just give me a chance" Jonghyun said as he pulled me into his warm embrace.
"You're the best thing that's ever been mine and I'm not willing to let you go anytime soon"
'My mind was so chaotic...so lost; your not going to leave me, not ever?'
"Wanna know why, I haven't been home so often?" he asked me with soft cooing tone while patting my back, drawing calming circles in between my dying sobs; I nodded to his question.
I felt, how one of his hands remove it's secure grip around my waist, slowly making his clothes, crease and move as he dip his hands into his pockets; searching.
I kept my iron like grip around him, still in the stage of disbelief; "I'm so sorry, I'm such a handful" I muttered croakily but instantly getting hushed by him; sigh of relief left his lips as he found what ever it was that he was searching for.
Slowly caressing my hand that surrounds his neck, bringing them to his lips so that a kiss can be planted in the palm of my shaking hand before puppy, tear pooled eyes locked right at my own equally watery ones.
"The reason why I smelt like I did, was because I was in a shop full of females... wanting to buy this..."
Jonghyun began to lower himself into one knee, my breath hitches; clearing his throat, my heart starts to pound twice, thrice as fast; he brings a closed fist in to view, my eyes widen and then finally he open them, to reveal a little velvet black box and it was cue for salty tears to pool my eyes once again.
"This probably could have waited a few more years, but then again I'm not impulsive for nothing, a little to early but seeing the situation now; fights and doubts isn't something we can run and hide from. So... I was thinking maybe if you had some type of leash around me then you won't be so scared about me ever running away, cause then you'd be satisfied to know that I'll always come running back to you." He said with a chuckle while he looked me in the eyes, It's not the first time I've had to ask myself, why someone like you, found interest in a some one who suffers from trust issues; someone so distant, like me. Then a film of memories, beautiful unforgettable ones, start to replay in my head...
"I want to be a rebel... and take the risk of getting hurt... I want to give us a chance, a-a chance to be t-together"
That was the first time, my feet set foot deep into the warm sand, like a kermit finally making its way out of it shell after protecting itself from its predators.
If I was able to step out of my shell, my place of comfort because of the fact that it was him and his hands that were reaching out, patiently waiting to take mine, then maybe; the thought of wanting to spend the rest of my life in this roller coaster of emotions called love, won't be so bad.
"So,with every courage that I've somehow gathered, I ask this to you, Kim Kibum..."
"Will you marry me?"
Too speechless, and shocked; no words was able to fill the long torturous silence which decided to claim the atmosphere.
'Yes, I want to marry you. I'd be honoured'
That was everything I wanted to say yet the words seemed to be so difficult to form and so I nodded, nodded so frantically, just to let you know that I'd be glad to have that ring around my finger.
Jonghyun pulled me close for embrace once again, trying to calm down the cries and the shaking form that he held tight with in the confines of his warm safe hands, "I promise that, I'll never leave you alone; stick with you through thick and thin, love you more than I can ever love myself and show you just how easy it is to be happy"
"I love you, Kibum-ah"
"I-I.... I l-love...you too, Jjong"
3:25; sparks and fireworks starts to fly, as the celebration of a near by beach party finally draws into a conclusion.
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Yay, people JONGKEY surprise wedding proposal, didn't I tell you all that your gonna end up feeling what ever it is that you've felt while reading this, /evil laugh/.
I hope I got the suspence that I wanted from the fight, I surely hope you, all started to shiz On your pants when Jongkey started fighting lol, ahh i feel so evil.
BUT, aren't I just the nicest authour ever, making your feels go all over the place, well I hope the you like the way our puppy proposed to our kitty <3 :D
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The final chapter, I'm sad to say will be updated maybe by the next 3-4 days, please wait for it patiently, because im telling you the surprise OC is gonna be the cutes thing, and i think youll really like it.
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