farewell ; (myungsoo/naeun)

Ten Thousand Feels

 

 

For every chapter, there is a beginning. For every beginning, there’s a story, and for every story, the ending is at all cost, inescapable.

 

Myungsoo stares at his black watch, sometimes forgetting that his watch is ten minutes faster than the large, digital clock he sees on the wall. He sees faceless strangers pass by him, but doesn't bother. Restless, but he doesn’t exactly understand what he feels, albeit today is the day that he’ll bid farewell to his best friend. One, that he grew up with, one that enjoys basking in silence with him, one that shares the same indescribable obsession for the colour black, one that (always) looks the prettiest from all of the girls that he knew (though he barely knows any), and one that he silently falls in love with, ever since the fifth grade.

 

She’s leaving Seoul for good; chasing after her dash of rainbows, and Myungsoo thinks, he shouldn’t be selfish, albeit a part of him desperately wants her to stay. Because she is his white star, his pocket of sunshine, and his Son Naeun.

 

So, he stands there in front of her with a smile (barely) plasters on his face, and a fragile heart that is almost sinking, he thinks. Just a few more steps from the boarding hall and off, she’d be gone with the wind – away with his heart.

 

“Son Naeun,” He calls up her name, just because.

 

“Kim Myungsoo,” She replies him back,

 

For the first time ever, the silence between them is awkward, as both could barely look at each others’ eyes without darting away. Perhaps it’s the harsh thing called reality, of last goodbye, of wants and needs, of white dreams and red love, or of just the innocent two, of him and her, thinking of what and how to part without inviting pain.

 

“Would you miss me?” She finally says, tip-toeing a little, with both hands shoved into the pocket of her black trench coat.

 

“Of course,” He smiles for a short while, and pats her head for one last time, “You — never skips breakfast, and remember to eat on time,”

 

She chuckles, and shakes her head lightly, “Don’t worry, I heard that the school feed their students six times a day,”

 

He scoffs, knowing exactly what food means to her.

 

“Can you promise me a few more things?” He resumes,

 

“Sure,”

 

“Promise me, that you’ll talk more, and make more friends when you reach there so you won’t get stuck with just one best friend throughout your school years like you did with me?”

 

She nods.

 

“Promise me, to not be too kind to people because kindness is overrated, and because the last time you were being you, people took advantage of you, and I had to always be there to take a stand for you just because you couldn’t say no. It’s tiring, you know,”

 

She nods again.

 

“Promise me – you’ll study hard and never, ever give up even when you think you should. Because your dream of saving animals is too noble, and because it’s your dream, and you have to chase after it. Don’t do it for anyone, but do it because of you, yourself,”

 

She nods, unknowingly blinks away her tears.

 

“And promise me, that one day you’ll find your Augustus Waters, one that you could read a book with because he wants to, one that would cherish you and one that you'll say "I do" at the end of the day,”

 

She smiles because she knows what he means, and he smiles, to cover the pain. 

 

For every chapter, there is a beginning. For every beginning, there’s a story, and for every story, the ending is at all cost, inescapable.

 

There’s an unbearable pain in his chest as he watches how she slowly walks away, and leaves. He’ll miss her for sure, but he’ll learn to let her go, perhaps not now, but maybe one day. Maybe one day when the universe turns upside down, when the skies aren’t cloudy again, he’ll meet her again someday, somewhere. Somewhere where dreams and destiny collide, and their paths would cross again. 

 

 

 


myungsoo/naeun :)

to L. because she ships them

my little gift for my lovely dongsaeng,

take a good care of yourself there :)

 

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eternalspring
#1
Chapter 13: Omo~ this is so sad T.T I've bit tears while read it :(
that sihyung guy just can see her for afar and just record his mixtapes... is sihyung have a dissease ??
and the sad part his mixtape can't reach her T.T
-eternal- #2
Chapter 13: i am crying - tears are literally running down my face right now T_____T how could you...how could you ruin me like this :'(

I keep reading the mixtapes in his voice (where he starts off Dreamer - in that deep talking voice of his) and it just makes it even more surreal ;; It's so heartbreaking, how he's only able to admire her from afar, yet that is enough love for him and it's even more heart-wrenching that these (beautiful) mixtapes never reached her ;_____;

your last line stabbed me.

p.s sobs it's so nice to have you on this ship ♥
ethereals #3
Chapter 3: That. Kaistal. Oh my god, my feels lie on the floor and I don't know how to fix it.
kirakira-
#4
Chapter 12: /ugly tears because you picked mine ;-;

Funnily I just continued watching this movie where I left off the last time, and one of the characters has a crush on his teacher. Jongin is such a sweet darling. Bias aside, I really can see him as this shy kid who, when he secretly has a crush on someone, he'd keep it hidden as long as he could. He'd wait and keep waiting even after he loses the opportunity :(

Thank you for writing this sobs all the feels I have for them
-eternal- #5
Chapter 12: daww ~ a crush on a teacher is adorable yet heartbreaking in a way. sobss I've missed your writing so much and it's still as good as ever!
eternalspring
#6
Chapter 11: OMG !! This is so beautiful~~~ myungeun !!
aaaaaahhh I love all of the part on this story... the best part when myungsoo tell her to make a lot friend, chasing her dream etc etc...
really really beautifull / cries T.T
baelee
#7
Chapter 11: It must be really hard to say the final goodbye to someone that you really cherish throughout your life. And the thought of not having them with you for the rest of the time, wow it's really heartbreaking. My heart breaks for the part where Myungsoo tells Naeun to make new friends, to not be too kind and to not stop chasing after her dreams. (Somehow, I feel that you're directing that part for me. If so, wow Abby :'((() Tears in my eyes, everytime.

Thank you so much for this, Abby! Even though we have just got to know each other, I really love you as my friend. I'll miss you (and M & S) so much <333
miimoov
#8
Chapter 11: "one that shares the same indescribable of the colour black"
I directly know she's Naeun!!
I ship MyungEun too much :'D
this is beautiful <333333
kirakira-
#9
Chapter 10: Eww what's with you and your cheesiness lol. Crying because this is so them and I have vivid images of them while reading this - how shy Minhyuk is and how Joohee was shy at first but grew to be more outgoing (read: crazy) later. And crying at her hula hula imitation because it's forever facepalmable.

Thank you for this <33 And happy cheesy month to you!
eternalspring
#10
Chapter 10: "And lastly, because you're Song Joohee and because you are you."
aaaaaaaaccccckkk cries~~~~
I love the ways his describe why alice being his sunshine >.<
haaaaaa I'm getting loved this pairing :D