I make it with all of my heart. Hope Y'all feel touching kkkk

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*Kris POV*

“Yeobo, Guess what I bring for you today?” Vic surprised me and gives a small box. ”Fruit cake?” I guess. “You are wrong.” She shows her tongue and opens the small box for me. I just can pinch her cheeks and damn she looks cuter than ever. “This is chocolate waffle; I made it by my self.” She feels little proud. “Are you sure?” I make my face closer to her. “Err.. My Mom helps me a little.” She bows her head now. “Little?” I just made her show his unpleasant face. But I love it. “Yes, my mom made it and I help her a little.” She nags and talks with little higher pitch. “Don’t be angry. I’m happy you make an effort for me.” I laugh and pinch her cheeks once more. She grins and smiles. “I hope you like it.” Her smile makes me can’t see her circle eyes. Suddenly Chanyeol and Amber come.” Whoaa, Vic, Why you didn’t tell me that you bring this delicious waffle?” Amber takes the waffle without permit. “OMO, Amber sshi , I make it for my Yeobo, haishh!!” Vic muttered. It makes me laugh. “Oh I’m sorry, Kris. I shouldn’t be so greedy like this. But my stomach can’t hold on anymore.” Amber makes an innocent face. “What the heck are you doing, Amber. You just made this princess going to cry.” Chanyeol add the situation get so much funny. He mess Amber hair. “Ya, don’t mess my hair, chan! I need so much time to make this amaze hair style.” ”But, this waffle look so delicious huh?”Chanyeol take one of the waffles, but Vic’s Hand stops him. “I won’t let you to take one. Ya!!” Victoria surprised Chanyeol and He just can make “O” Expression with a stupid way ever. “No problem, Chanyeol. Just take it if you want. I can’t eat up all of this waffles” I say. Chanyeol shows his smile of celebration. More stupid than “O” expressions. Vic just can grumble and makes a sulky expression. I just can smile to her to explain that I’m Okay.

I have been with Victoria since one moth ago. I try to open my heart to someone else. She is cute and so good heart. I know she has done many things to win my heart. Gave a little surprise, made a cake, and called me everyday to check that I’m okay. Day by day I melt with all she has done for me. I hope she will not break my trust. Since she was so lovely and took care of me. I hope it so much.Although, in another side I still try to find her. Yes, her. Although it seems hard to find her, but someday, I will. I will find her. And yes, I must find her. Someone who made me spend my time to get a night mare about her. I don’t know how or why. Why I must hold on to love and didn’t try to move and continue with my life. And how can I still remember her. Maybe she has been happy now with someone else. But, this is a love. Blinded me and drive me insane. My little naughty princess, wait me. I will find you as soon as possible.

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*Amber POV*

I see my watch. Eight o’clock. I button my jacket and walk faster. I get this night cooler than usual. I am craving my pocket with my hand to make it warm. I arrive and ring the bell. I can see his face in the small monitor. He run and opens the door. “Sorry, I’m late.” “Okay no problem.” He smile and my heart suddenly beat faster and make my body sculpting. I find some dejavu and feels like someone drives me back to the time that don’t know where and when it is. And my body gets frozen I can’t move or maybe breath. “Amber, are you alright?” His husky voice disenchanted me to reality. “Oh yes, I’m fine.” I take off my shoes and scratch my hair. I know my head isn’t itchy for real. I can find chanyeol there. He is perfect charming when plays a guitar. His play is so damn makes me safe and sound. If they let me I want to wave my hand. Seems anyone did in a concert. Or maybe take a sleep for a while. “Hey ya! Liu Amber! Why you so late. Do you ride a snail, huh?!” Chanyeol words just make my bad temper boiled. “Shut up.” “Amber, sshi. Don’t be angry. I just too bored to wait you here.” He mess my hair again and act thinks that he is cute enough. “Stop that kind of expression, do you think I will interesting with that, huh.” He is draping his arm to my shoulder. “You look more beautiful when you angry, trust it.” He mess and then pinch my cheeks. Kris changes his expression so fast. I don’t know what’s going on with him. I can hear him clear his throat. “Can we start now?” His baritone voices break the silence. “Okay let’s start.” I say. He gives me a paper. I read it slow but sure. I realize who makes this kind of lyric. I’m too curious. And ask him. “Do you make this lyric by your own?” He nods without see my face. He is too busy maybe. “Yeah, I guess He has a good talent to make a lyric." Chanyeol gives his comments. As Kris and Chanyeol too busy, I try to memorize the lyric. Yeah, all of us did it as a task from our art music teacher. He asks me to make some stage. We decide to show our rapping talent since all of us loves to do it. Kris made a lyric, chanyeol composed the music and I try to rapping later with Kris and Chanyeol too. Our Vic didn’t join with us. Since she had a good voice. She tries to show her solo vocal. We start do a rapping. And Chanyeol play his guitar. Sure it will be a great composition. I hear Kris part when he is rapping. I can realize that His rapping is so much better than me. I can’t take my eyes on him. He did his part perfectly. I take a deep breath. Yeah, He is breath taking day after day. Right now, I can figure out what Vic feels and tell me about him. About his smile about his cool side about dazzling eyes about… ah I just let my self fall deeper and I don’t want. “Amber. Are you sick?” Suddenly Kris touches my forehead to make sure that I’m alright. “Ah, you get fever.” “Oh, I just feel tired. Sure.” I make sure to Kris. Chanyeol put his guitar and get up from the couch. “I must buy you a medicine.” “Ah. No need. I have one. Wait. I will take it for you then.” “No need.” I grab Kris hand. And the situation becomes awkward for a moment.  Thanks God, his phone ringing suddenly. I can hear some suspicious and worried voice there. One hundred percent, she is Victoria. She talks with her curios whether Kris has arrived home or not. And Kris only can take his breath to answer too much questions from Vic. And he ends the call with his expressionless smile. He looks at me once, I just looked down. And one more time, we make Chanyeol get his “no idea” face. “Can two of you end this awkward situation, guys? We must finish it this night.” And now Chanyeol tries to break the ice. The exercise just passed by the coolest situation ever. All of us just did our own part. Without laugh, without a tease, without … ahh. How I could trap in this situation with these two screwy guys. We have finished it. So thankful I can go out from the vacuum and cold place like that. I have my way to home. The night is getting cooler. I can’t count how many time I sneeze. I speed up my step. Suddenly I feel someone pursue me. I make my move faster. But, I can feel she or he walks faster too. Someone catches my arm suddenly. I pull my hand forcedly. But I know his strength won’t let me. I only give up. “Let me accompany you.” I can guess who has that baritone and husky voice. “You shouldn’t walk alone since you are girl.” He weakened his hand from my arm. “I’m totally alright, no need to accompany me. I try to walk faster and leave him. He catches my hand now. And now his hand hold tighter than before. “Don’t be stubborn. I just too worried to leave you alone.” Kris low his voice. I stuck my brain in “worried” word. ”You try to make a joke huh? Do you think I am fragile like girls you use to meet? Go back home. I will arrive to home saf…” I didn’t finish my word and I almost die because of the freaking car almost crush me. “You say you will be home safely huh? You almost die in front off me just know. How can I trust on you?” He nags and walks full of celebration but some sounds like a worrying. I just can give up. And let him accompany me. If only he knows he only make this night cooler than ever. I don’t know should I care with his worrying for me. But I’m just too fragile to hope too much on him. I can’t stand with my self and with him too. I still let him hold my hand. In another side, I feel so worse. I shouldn’t there in this position. I think about vic. But he tries to hold my hand tighter. Now he makes his self so close to me. “Don’t try to harm your own self. You just made me feel so worried. Okay?” Now he whispered me. He low his voice. And I know he say it sincerely. He ends his voice with the best curve he made on his lips. And I realize he treats me different. I nod. He smiles and now wider than before. “Good girl.” He messed my hair. I can feel my vacuum heart breath full of joys and happiness that I have looked for a long time. All the sweet things are too fast to happen. He treated my longing. Longing to a smile, an eagerness, a smell, a love, a waiting. I can’t explain my self now. Fall for love and feel guilty to enter between his love stories with Vic. I shouldn’t but I can’t. But in this intricacy, thanks God to let me with him for a while.

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“Hey ya! I will let you to catch me, stupid boys. You won’t because I run faster than you!” I run faster and still splutter and mocking all of the boys who try to catch me. “Hey stupid, you are too slow like a snail. You can’t catch me, pabo!” I try to make them angrier to me. I hold their toy car with my arms. Now they try to catch me and run faster. I laugh full of joy. But suddenly a small rock tripped and makes I lost my control. I fall to the ground. The small rock makes my bloody knees. I try to get up. Someone’s hands try to help me. I just hit and ignored his hand. But all of the boys so near now. “Hey stubborn five years old girl, get up now! You are in a big trouble. He tries once again to hold my hand and helps me get up. I stand beside him with the bloody knees. “Give their toy car!’ the weird boy who help me ask to give the toy car back to them. I scowl and give it back to them. “Okay, go now and don’t disturb this girl anymore.” “But, Hyung, she takes our toys forcedly.” And now the weird boy steals a glance to me. I just made a grin. “Okay, forgive her, for me.” His cool voices make them leave us without any complaint. I smirk full of celebration now.He helps me to walk to my home. Yes, He is my neighborhood. Maybe He has a same age or older than me. He splutters on our way to my home. He is a good, weird and cool boy. “I have told you so many times. You shouldn’t play with the boys and make a prank to them. Don’t play a toy that use to play by boys. You know you-are-girl. Try to be sweet girl. You can play a doll. Wash your body and help your mom or play with your friends. Not with boys. You understand? You only hurt yourself like this. And then your mom will angry to you.” I close my ears with my hands. “Can you stop to talk, weird boy? You just like my mom. You can’t understand, my friends didn’t understand me. All of them are too bored. They don’t want to play a robot or run or something like you use to play with your friends. They are so lame.” “Ya.. You should be like that. Try to be cute and sweet.” Then he pinches me and laugh. Every word that he says is hypnotizes me. I know he has a good motive, why he always talks to me like that. He only teaches and asks me to be a real girl I use to be. My mom always goes to work. And she asks the weird boy to take care of me. But I don’t know why he didn’t tell her name. He just says I can call him oppa or “cool boy”. But I decide to call him as a weird boy. I have a reason why I called him weird. His clothes and his attitude isn’t like a children that I know. He is use a formal and talks like a father. His hair always braided neatly. So I call him, weird boy. Everyday passed like the day. We talk and then fight or make a stupid argument about something. Until one day, I can’t find him. I look for him. And also I can’t see auntie, his mom. I can’t find anyone or anything in his house. They are looked empty. I try to ask my mom. And she tells me that they are move to another place and said they did not get to excused to me because they are in a hurry. I fall with my disappointment. Why are they? What happen with them? Will he be back? When he will be back? Whether they will be find or not? Questions fly in my empty head. I’m too curious and really didn’t have a clue. And even I still don’t know his name. I only know he live with his mom who use to cry and talks to my mom about the things called husband and money. I still don’t have a clue. And I find everything is different when he leaves. I feel so empty. I don’t know what to do. I miss his fussy voice. And his request still resonated till now. Till years, what I become now. I still can’t be what he asked me at the time that he may have forgotten.

*Amber POV*

I drew my face into the pillow. My tears fall. I memorized the things happen in my past. More than ten years ago. And he still is here, in my heart. The reason for what I waiting for till the time I don’t know. I believe and my intuitions too. He will be back. Don’t know where and when. The one who can leave a deep longing and let me live in an uncertainty. And now, when someone has come and knocked my empty, I feel doubt should I dispense all of your hopefulness and try to open my heart, so I can totally forget you. Dear, please come. I don’t have so much time to wait and fall for someone else then. The weird boy, can you hear it?

*Kris POV*

I am on my walk to back home. This night my head full of happiness and some burden and some of dizziness. But I’m too happy now. Hold her hand and imagine her smile. I can feel butterfly fly in my stomach and I can’t hold on to burst when I can hold her tighter. I think and think to know when exactly I feel the same. And I realize that is so long time ago. In place and time I will never forget. The stubborn and careless girl. I stop my steps; I can see exactly Chanyeol stands up in front off me. I guess his head full of question and suspiciousness gaze explained it. “You take her home, right?” I nod without a word and mood. I continue my steps. But Chanyeol changes his expression and make a grin. “Let’s talk for a while.” He asks me to enter his home. He can’t be an anger man. He uses to be like that. He opens his room. “Take a seat, wherever you want.” “Are you okay, is it something happen to you.” I start tell my curiosity. “I never take anything seriously, you know it right?” Chanyeol answered it. “So why you bring me here?” “You start to like amber, right? You try to make affair with Vic?” Damn, so Amber is the reason for this. “I don’t think so. Or maybe you ask that to hide you fall for her, huh?” I give back his question. ”Oh no! how can I …? Why you ask me back?” Chanyeol try to trick me. “Your eyes are enough to explain that.” Chanyeol’s cheeks turn into red and he can’t say anything. “You can’t lie to your feel, chan.” I try to calm him. “Don’t you like her too? Tell me!” I just lie my feels once again. I shook my head. And suddenly he comes with his smile.”How?” I try to investigate him. ’What?” ”Amber.”  “Aishh … No , I .. I don’t like ..” “Don’t lie, chan.. I can see that through your eyes.” Chanyeol messed his own hair and his cheeks turn to be red suddenly. He clears his voice and smile. I really appreciate him and wait what he will say. “I know her since 4 years ago. When I was in junior high school. She transferred from America. She must live here. Because her Father duty. But, actually she ever live in Korea before. In Incheon. When she was child.” He stops talk and at the same time, he stops my heart to beat. “Liu Amber?” I whisper to my self. “Yes her full name is Liu Amber. She is absolutely Korean. But she moved to America when she was six years old.” And now I feel so guilty for her. I bow my head. I feel … really. “Kris, what happen?” Chanyeol asks me. “Nothing, and then, you fall for her?” Haha. I still can talk in this damn distracted feel. “Emm.. seems like what you say, maybe. She attracts me so much. She didn’t like a girl use to be, she is different. I don’t know but She really makes me fall for her. I use to talk about anything with her. And I feel totally comfort with her. Do you think that I am crazy to be like this?” I stuck on his question, actually he is not crazy. Because she did a same thing to me, makes me crazy. “No.” I shook my head and still drown in his statement about who Liu Amber is. I don’t know I should be happy or sad. “By the way, shall we continue to look for your mom next week?” I turn my head. I take  really deep breath, another target. I close my eyes and let my hand covering my face. I tired for real. I nod, “Yes, of course. There is no class next week, right?” Chanyeol nods too. He embraces me. He really kind of good boy, that’s why I tell him about my Mom. “You must be finding her, trust me.” I forgot Amber for a while. Why these two of girls and actually three of them drive me to this condition.