To Recall the past
Seaside
I sat at the edge of the hospital bed where Sungmin lies. He looked so peaceful even when there was a lot of machines connected to his body to keep him alive. I felt guilty for leaving him alone. I should have accompanied him to his house. This would not had happened if I had been a bit more responsible as his boyfriend! We were just spending the day together, having fun and this happened?
"Minnie-ah, wake up." I whispered faintly.
"Sungmin, open your eyes." I pleaded, my voice rising.
"Lee Sungmin! Please..." My voice faided as I realized that it was useless and all I could do is wait.
"Minnie-ah, take your time to rest. Rest all you want as long as you promise to come back. Minnie-ah, even if it hurts I will wait for you. Please come back to me." I sobbed silently as I held his hand. I didn't realize that someone opened the door and came in.
"Jongwoon-ah, you should go home and rest." it was Heechul hyung. He put his hands on my shoulder, trying to give me assurance that everything would be all right.
"I don't want to, hyung. I want to stay here with Sungmin. I want to be here when he wake up." i told him stubbornly.
"Jongwoon..."
I could feel my hyung's pitying gaze and I hate it. I don't need it. I know that Sungmin will wake up so I don't need it.
Heechul gave up and sighed "If that's what you want. I'll bring your clothes tomorrow morning. Be sure to sleep."
I nodded and he left. As he closed the door I heard Han Geng hyung's worried voice,
"How is he taking it?"
"Not that good. He doesn't want to leave his side."
"I can understand how he feels. If this ever happen to you, I don't think I can take it."
Sigh. "Let's just hope for the best. I hate seeing my brother like this."
Their voices faded and guilt builds up. I'm making my brother worried and that's something I promised I will never do.
I took a deep breath and decided to sleep as my brother adviced. I looked at Sungmin's face before heading to the couch. I let my thoughts wander as I looked around the room. I closed my eyes and let the darkness took me.
But what I dreamt is something I did not expect.
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