It has been two week after that incidence and I still keep sighing in relief and pride of how I saved myself from being embarrassed in front of her. I just don’t get it. How long have I been into her? It started even before we both debuted yet I still haven’t really had a proper conversation with her except for that Starry Night Radio show. Wait, it was not even proper, we only talked about 2 or 3 things. Foods, foods and foods. I mean how? Every time I see her, I have this desire to appear in front of her and do something very unique, very suave, and very impressive. That is why I take so long to think about what I should say but then, I end up losing the chance. Maybe timing and I are not friends. Maybe it hates me. Not maybe. I am sure about that. I just don’t know what got in me that time that I even came to her and acted so stupid. It is like there was something that rush me that I don’t know of. I have never felt this way before. I was always calm because I know she is not going to fly anywhere, and it is too early in her career to be in love with anyone else before me. Right? No?

Anyway, we have been very busy with our summer concerts, our own variety show and Japan promotion. I also have Immortal Song to work for. Everything has been good. Sungjong opens up to everyone more, Dongwoo becomes less of a coward now, Hoya also trolls me less (at least in front of me) and Sungyeol mans up a bit. AND FINALLY  Woohyun stops trying aeygo. FINALLY.  Only Myungsoo has not really changed. He has always been mysterious even to us. When we have day off, we usually spend it together but Myunghoon always goes out to do his things and no one knows what he does. However, I am very satisfied. Things will go my way finally. Right now, I am lying on my bed and smiling to myself. We have two days off. Those kids are watching TV downstair. Probably a mushy and stupid drama. So it is quiet. I have no doubt that Dongwoo is going to sob later if someone in the drama dies anyway. That kid.

Ah right, I have to find the CD box that I brought to the dorm two years ago because last week, dad called and said he could not find his forever favorite CD in the house when he needs it, the one he played in the first night with mom in their university dorm so he wants me to check the box to see it the CD is there. Unfortunately, I just cleaned my room last month and I forgot where I put that box. Because of the busy schedule, I totally forgot about it, so I should take a look at the store room on first floor to see whether the box is there. When I go down stair, it is so quiet, it seems like everyone is really into the drama. Of course, as thoughtful leader as I am, I don’t want to destroy the mood so I try to be as quiet as possible. I get into the dark small room like a cat and am about to turn the light on to search for the box then I hear someone steps in the kitchen. I decide to peak through the small rack of the door.

“Sunggyu hyung has been weird recently.”  This girly voice… must be Sungjong kid. Wow I did not know that he acts all scared in front of me but he talks bad about me behind my back.

“Weird like what weird? He has always been.” That is Dongwoo.

“He constantly ed me and Hyosung noona!” Sungjoong said with frustration.

SAY WHAT? I just did one time. He must have thanked me for doing that. If he keeps sticking to a girl like that, there is no one chance she is going to like him.

“I KNEW IT” Hoya jumps out from nowhere. “Last time when I borrowed his laptop to watch the new movie, I saw his Firefox tab of Hyosung’s heart selca.”

“SAY WHAT?” Dongwoo, Sunjong…and Woohyun shout in surprise together. Wait, where the heck Woohyun jumps out from?

OMG I almost choke. OMG OMG. THEY ARE SO GOING TO DIE. HOYA, YOU WAIT FOR ME YOUR LOSE MOUTH.

“OH MY ING GOD WHY?” Sungjong shrieks like a cat.

“It is easy to understand. Sunggyu is a body man you know. You saw photos of his past girlfriends? WOAAAAAA” Woohyun jumps in excitement.

WHAT THE HECK? This kid says it like I am a ert. I don’t like her for her body. Ah maybe yes. But NOT JUST THAT.

“Right, he is not going to miss Hyosung out. Last time, we all agreed on choosing her as the best bagel girl, he even pretended he did not care but just follow us, that hyung tsk tsk” Hoya said in an understanding voice.

The storeroom is hot and dark but I don’t even care. LIKE OMG THOSE KIDS. You betrayers, gossipers, I am not going to let you go easy.

“Yah, he always does that you know. He always said we should not watch too much but everytime we do he always joins us” Dongwoo said in agreement.

“But he is totally not Hyosung noona’s type.” Sungjong is in denial. “I swear he is not.”

I am. I AM.

“You just don’t know him, he looks all decent and ignorance to girls but actually he is a beast inside. All his past girlfriends don’t look like they would consider him as their ideal too, but he got all. Like woaaaa” Woohyun exclaims excitedly.

“No Hyosung noona is different. Hyosung noona only likes tall, manly, caring and smart man. Sunggyu hyung is a babo, short and scary”

SAY WHAT? I am not SHORT. I AM TALL ENOUGH. AND I AM NOT A BABO. Sungjong ah, don’t hate this hyung later. I will make you go to hell.

“Woa Sungjong, he may hear this coming from your mouth” Hoya whispers.

YES HOYA, you are right. I am here. And I am out to get you. ALL OF YOU.

All in sudden, everything goes dead silent that I can even hear the sound of mosquitoes’ wings clapping. They must be having some party of blood from me.

“He is not going to… to … know this right? I mean… he is upstair” Sungjong talks softly in fear.

Hoya shrugs and looks around.

“We don’t know. He is everywhere. What if he hides in the store room? If he is there now he can hear everything”

“HYUNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG please don’t scare me.” Sungjong yells like crying.

NO he doesn’t. I am here Sungjongie, I am here.

“Gezzz you are such a coward.” Yes I just hear the word coward from a coward whose name Dongwoo. “If he hears everything, he must be here by now and stare at us like he is going to eat us alive”

Dongwoo, you understand me so well, bud. But I won’t fall into your trap.

“I did not say a thing, I only praise those girls’ bodies.” Woohyun defends himself.

Then Hoya breaks into laughter.

“These people are so funny.  Stop worrying and start living please.  Yah, I just found a free download link of a new R+ movie, you guys wanna watch? Sungyeol is downloading it in the living room.”

So all of them agree and move to the living room, with some drinks and snacks.

I sneak out of the storeroom finally. It was so freaking hot and dark inside. I bet I look like I just come back from Sahara desert.

I absolutely don’t plan to skin them now because I don’t want to remind them about that topic. If they are sure I am into Hyosung, with this noisy and stupid crowd,  every of my plans will be spoiled. I absolutely don’t want that to happen. So I step upstair again as quiet as possible when they are absorbed into the movie.

When I am half way to the second stair, I heard Hoya exclaiming.

“OH MY GOD. THAT IS HOT.”

“Damn. THE BODY.” Woohyun is spazzing.

I can even hear Sungjong gasping loudly.

“She cut her hair. It looks freaking good on her. She should have cut it sooner.” Now that is Dongwoo.

Wait a minute, what the heck is that? It sounds so weird. Being curious, I step down again.

“What are you guys watching without me?” I ask them when I am getting closer. Some classy saxophone music is playing.

“AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA”

All four of them freak out because of my sudden appearance.

“Hyung you scare us, we are just watching some teaser”

What kind of teaser that makes those kids react like that?

I step close and I see a girl in red. She has short hair and her body is amazing. She is walking confidently to a man who is sitting near a table in a old style room.

WAIT. THAT BODY LOOKS FAMILIAR.

Then the camera gives her a close up shot.

OMG WAIT A MINUTE

JUN FREAKING HYOSUNG.

OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD.

“EVERYONE GOES TO SLEEP NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW”

I yell at them as loud as I can.

NO THEY CAN'T WATCH THIS...

...BEFORE ME..