Luhan finally introduced you to all of his cousins, even to his mom and dad. Once he brought you to come to his grandfather’s birthday party. At that time, there were many people come, and now seemed like every Luhan’s family members knew you. You felt bit shy and awkward, but all his family members were nice and friendly. They welcomed you very well and they treated you like their own family. Oh, that kid also did the same.

Oh Sehun.

He didn’t treat you bad anymore. And now he did the weirdest thing ever to you. He smiled at you, very very often. He smiled at you a lot. He became the real good kid. He never said bad words to you, and now he became more polite when he was around you. He was like treating you like his own Noona. You two now were friends.

Yes, Oh Sehun had changed a lot. He was more friendly and nice.

That was a relief, right? You now felt more comfortable to talk with him. You was grateful that everything turned out well. At least, at this time.

There was always something filled Sehun’s mind. He remembered his grandfather party which was held two weeks ago. He was remembering one scene actually.

It was when you were joking around happily with him and some other cousins. Your smiles were so lovely.

Sehun couldn’t help but smiled by himself. He didn’t know why he was so happy to have you with him. You were close to him now, and Sehun was so grateful about it. Yes, he was so grateful. Once again he didn’t know why he was so happy to meet you like this. He never grumbled nor complained anymore if Luhan brought you to see other cousins and family, because Sehun could come along and he could see you. It was obvious much, isn’t it?

He liked you, a lot.

But he didn’t know what to do with his feelings. His feelings grew day by day. You became somehow important to him. He also felt guilty to his Hyung. How could he fall in love with his cousin’s girlfriend? And it was not just cousin, but it was his favorite cousin. Didn’t it look like a betrayal? Even though he never meant that, he didn’t want it to happen. He couldn’t hold himself not to like you. Probably that was what we called a karma. He hated you in the beginning, and now he ended up liking you. Life was so confusing sometimes. And we couldn’t even predict what would happen to us next.

As for Sehun, he couldn’t imagine what if he ended up confessing to you. What kind of reaction would he get from you? How would his Hyung react after that? Would his Hyung get mad at him? His Hyung must be mad at him for that. Sehun could predict that one. But, he himself couldn’t avoid these feelings for you. He was deeply in love with you.

And he wanted you to know.

Sehun and you were so close that he always asked for a help from you about many things. Like this one.

He wanted you to accompany him buying some books for his task given by his lecturer. You always knew good book stores, that was why he called you out. Actually, he just wanted to meet you.

He waited for you in a bus shelter not bit far from the book store you’ve recommended to him. Five minutes later, you get off from a bus. He got his heart beating faster as he saw you. You smiled at him brightly, making him forget how to breathe properly for some seconds. He tried to breathe normally when you had approached him.

“Hello!” you greeted him in very casual way. “I hope you not waiting for me too long.” You giggled.

Sehun just smiled slightly. “Not really.” Actually he didn’t mind to wait you for bit longer. At least he would see you, that’s all that made him feel better.

“Come on. I will show you where you could get the books.” You smiled back at him, too beautiful and it did make him speechless.

The book store was kind of big. It had complete editions for all kinds and genres of books. It was famous in this region. There were many people coming today, not because today was Sunday, but just because it just had many visitors everyday. Sehun didn’t know that you knew this store way too well. You were like know every section and place of the book store. You even didn’t need the employees to show you where you could get those books Sehun wanted. You just needed the genre and in a quick pace, you had arrived in the book shelf. You smiled happily to Sehun as you found the right shelf. Sehun felt his heart beating faster in his chest. Oh, as long as he always had you smiling to him like this, he would always have that nervousness.

“This is the right shelf.” You told him as you had him near. “You can find those books here.”

Sehun smiled. “You know much about this book store, don’t you?”

“I just have been here many times.” You laughed slightly. That just brought butterflies in Sehun’s stomach. Day by day he just liked you more and more, and this was no good sign.

“Where do we go after this?” you asked him as you two headed out the book store. Sehun had bought the books he needed.

“Bubble tea?” he said uncertainly. He glanced at you. He could see your excitement as you mentioned bubble tea. Bubble tea had been your favorite drink, as him and his Hyung.

“You will buy it for me?” you joked around. You laughed.

“Okay, I’ll treat you today.” He said.

You looked at him. “Wow, you never been so kind like this.” you commented.

“Oh, really?” Sehun just laughed to hear your comment.

You nodded. “You remember when the first time I met you? You were so rude to me. You ate my popcorn, you stepped on my foot, pushed me aside so I couldn’t hold hands with Lu, you even pushed my face when we had photo box.” It was all your memories with him. He realized that he was that rude to you before. He remembered that he was so childish that he didn’t want anyone beside his Hyung. He also ruined his Hyung’s date with you which almost led you and his Hyung to a broke-up. After all he was rude to you, and he wasn’t a good kid.

“I don’t remember that one.” he told you.

You snorted. “You’re lying then.”

Sehun laughed. “Maybe I am.”

“Now I understand why Lu always said that you’re a good kid. Maybe that’s why he always treats you like a little kid and gives everything you want.” You said as you two entered the bubble tea shop.

“So, you just know it now?” he asked you. He looked at you intently.

“Yeah.” You replied.

“Of course I’m always a good kid.” He said, cocky.

“I shouldn’t tell you that then.” You two laughed.

You two had ordered your bubble tea and now you two reached the nearest bus shelter. It was so cloudy now and it was like the rain could fall anytime. Sehun enjoyed every single moment he spent with you. And he was so happy to have you here beside him. He secretly glanced at you who were busy humming some songs and looked at the sky worriedly. He smiled to himself.

“So what do you think about me?” he randomly asked. You turned your head and looked at him.

You laughed. “You still want me to say you’re a good kid, don’t you?”

“That’s the truth, right?” he laughed.

“That’s not.” you said, stuck out your tongue at him.

“Oh, come on.” He giggled.

Rain started to fall as you replied him. “I think you’ve changed into a good kid.”

“From the very beginning, I’m already a good kid.” He said proudly.

“A good kid who annoys me so much? No, sir.” You laughed. Sehun felt the warm feeling every time he talked to you like this, to see your smile like this. He wanted to keep this feeling forever in his heart.

“Okay, I admit you’re a good kid now.” He heard you said. “You changed so much, don’t you notice? You’re nice to me now, and friendly.”

“So, that’s what you think of me?” he asked.

“You’re a good friend, and good dongsaeng.”

Sehun’s smile was gone.

Dongsaeng?

You thought of him as a dongsaeng? Sehun felt sad to hear it from you. He didn’t expect that answer, but it was probably the truth. You never saw him as a guy, like you saw Luhan. You just saw Sehun as a dongsaeng. That hurt him. He turned expressionless as ever.

“And do you know how I think of you?” he asked you bitterly.

“As a good Noona?” you giggled. “Of course I’m your Noona, Sehun.”

No. No. No. No.

“I never think of it.” he said with a soft voice.

This time, your smiles were gone. “What are you saying?”

“I never think of you as my Noona.” He answered.

You blinked many times. You looked confused. “What you’re telling me now is that you still don’t like me to be together with your Hyung?” you asked.

Sehun shook his head slowly. “That’s not it.”

You raised an eyebrow. “So?”

“Can you see me not as your Dongsaeng?”

“What?”

“See me as a man, like you see my Hyung.”

“Sehun, what are you talking about?” you got puzzled.

Sehun looked straight into your eyes. “I like you.”

He saw you widened your eyes in shock. It was just like he had predicted. He knew you would be this shocked. He knew you would never get ready to hear him confessing. He knew you would never imagine that he liked you so much.

“You‘re kidding me, right?”

He couldn’t hold his feelings any longer. He pulled you closer by your waist. He was not sure for some seconds as your faces were close to each other. But he couldn’t get back.

“You’re kidding me, right?”

Sehun was so weird. What was he telling you right now? You thought it was just a joke but then he pulled you closer to him by your waist. You were too shocked.

He didn’t say anything to you. He looked at you expressionless. He didn’t have that bright face anymore. He didn’t look like he was joking. He was dead serious. So, what was he saying was true?

You wanted to say something but it was too late. You felt his soft lips on yours. He was freaking kissing you, in front of all the people who were waiting for the bus.

Oh my, what is he doing!?

You wanted to push him but his grip on your waist was too tight. You were hopeless. Some seconds later, he broke the kiss and hugged you tightly.

“Let go off me.” you hissed.

You felt Sehun shaking his head beside you. “No.” he hugged you even tightly.

“Sehun!” you yelled. “Let go off me!”

“I don’t want to.” He told you coldly.

You tried your best to release from his embrace. And at last he let you. You stared at him in anger. “Who do you think am I? For God’s sake I’m your Hyung’s girlfriend! I’m your Noona! You are not supposed to tell me you like me.”

Sehun still had that expressionless face. “I just tell you the truth.”

“You know that’s not right. You know it is!”

“But, I can’t hold it.”

You looked away. “This is not right. This is not right….” you mumbled to yourself as you massaged your temple.

“But, why?”

You glanced at him. “You know the answer, Oh Sehun.” You said in angry tone. This was just even confusing and you couldn’t get this way too easily. Why should he say he liked you? You knew you hated each other, but it was in the beginning. Now you two were good friends. But you didn’t ever think that he could confess to you that he liked you. You never expected to be loved by him. You never expected that he wanted you to see him as a man.

Oh my.

This was even complicated.

“I’m leaving.” You turned around. Sehun held your hand.

“It’s raining hard. We should take the bus. It will arrive in five minutes.” He reminded you.

You released his grip on your hand. “I have to go home.”

“Noona…” he called you out.

“We shouldn’t meet each other anymore.”

He looked disappointed. You hurt that kid, of course. But, you couldn’t help but did it. He was not supposed to feel all those feelings. He shouldn’t like you. He couldn’t like you. This was so wrong. And you didn’t want to keep this misunderstanding even longer. That kid had to think again, that he must not love you. And he had to rethink about his desire that he wanted you to see him not as a little brother.

You were all drenched as you reached your flat. For your surprise you found Luhan in your door step. You were shocked. You then felt guilty as you started to remember what Sehun did and say to you. Your heart beat faster. You gulped. You hoped he didn’t know anything.

“When did you arrive?” you asked him.

Luhan didn’t answer your question and he just smiled at you with his warm smile. He looked worried when he realized that you’re all drenched. “You don’t take the bus?” he asked you worriedly.

“I just.. missed it.” you lied.

“You’re freezing.” He commented as he touched your face. “You should change your clothes very soon or you will get sick.”

You prepared dinner for both of you. It was like another Sunday night you spent together. You always had dinner together like this. It was so nice to have Luhan with you. You felt so happy, and you forgot your problem with Sehun for a while. Yes, you forgot about that problem. You didn’t think that problem existed. That’s all because of Luhan. You were glad about it.

You had done making a small cake for Luhan. You headed to the living room as you saw him busy looking out the glass door. It was still raining outside.

“Lu, what are you doing?”

Luhan turned around and saw you. He smiled. “Just looking at the rain.” He replied.

You put the cake on the table. “Ah, are you thinking about something?” in some minutes, he was so quiet. He was just like thinking about something. It must be related to his work.

“Actually I do.” he replied some seconds later.

“What is it?”

There were some lightning on the sky, that was what you were always afraid of. Maybe there was one thing which made you afraid as well.

Luhan stared at you intently.

“I want us to break up.”

August 25^th 2013