I woke up to dry eyes and a hurt heart. I guess I cried myself to sleep. Rubbing my eyes, I glanced over my shoulder. I jumped, surprised not to see YiXing but Sehun beside me. Luckily, he was still asleep. I moved away, trying my best not to wake him up.

“Ugh!” I felt someone pull me back down. Sehun was smiling back at me. I blushed but instead of going back in bed, I got up and went to the living room. He already has a girlfriend... I can't do this... I saw YiXing with Joonmyun, discussing about something secretive.

“I know but...”

“Hey, what's for breakfast?” I asked them, yawning and stretching. Joonmyun smiled at me.

“Kyungsoo will take care of it. It's only 6am, why are you awake?” I looked at my watch, 6.05am... Then, I went to the bathroom to wash up. What was Sehun doing there? And what was YiXing and Joonmyun talking about? I couldn't really blame Sehun though, even when we were trainees, sleeping beside each other was just what we were expected to do, to cut down on cost. It doesn't really symbolise anything...

“Luhan, are you in there? You took a very long time to get ready...” Sehun's voice pierced the air. 7.00am... Was I really in there that long? I then opened the door, letting Sehun in. He smiled at me and wandered into the toilet. Oops... I guess he left his phone here... I grabbed his phone but just then, he got a text from Jongin.

From: Jongin

To: Sehun

You think he's really going to be okay?

I ignored the text, it didn't really mean a lot to me. “YAH!!” Sehun then grabbed his phone from me, as if hiding something. Then he glared at me, locking himself in his room. Soon, the door bell rang.

“Hi, is Sehun here?” I opened the door. Ye Rin... She glared at me, smirking. I really hated the sight of her. She seemed so nice and sweet in front of Sehun but turned into a devil in front of me. Sehun then appeared from behind and welcomed her in. I didn't really like the thought of her exploring our dorm that much... It made me feel uneasy. Especially because she was the one who stole Sehun away from me...

“Aren't you going to eat?” Sehun asked me. I shook my head and went back to my room. I always had an emergency supply of bread and chocolates hidden in my bag, just in case. I'd rather eat those for breakfast than eat sandwiches while staring at her annoying face. Normally, Sehun would join me in my room while we talked about the different members but today, he stayed outside just to accompany Ye Rin. It really broke my heart. He just took it, played with it and when he was bored, smashed it. Everything reminded me of him. The keychain he bought from London for me on my bag, our matching rings and shirts...

“You still in here?” A voice sounded from behind. I turned around, looking at Min Seok in the eye. I offered him some chocolates and he reached out for it. I knew he would never resist the temptation of food. I smiled at him, pinching his cheeks.

“Sehun is really worried for you. I know you guys were kinda... More than friends in the beginning and now, he still cares a lot about you. Don't let Ye Rin tear you guys apart okay?” He patted my back and went off. When he was out of sight, I let out a sigh and started crying. Min Seok's words just kept echoing in my head. I'd rather he didn't care about me at all than care about me even a little bit. Sehun told me he would wait for me... That he didn't care what people said... But now, it seems like those words turned to dust in a second. Tears just wouldn't stop flowing. I knew I had to be strong but I couldn't... I just couldn't...

“Yah!! Are you crying?” I looked up, glaring at Ye Rin. She snickered, “I can't believe Sehun liked you before me. I mean look at you, you aren't even fit to be in EXO.”

I had enough... It was just too much. I clenched my fist and got up. It was infuriating, knowing that Sehun actually liked a girl like her. I tried to control my anger, but my blood just kept on boiling.

“What are you doing in my room?”

“Me? I can go wherever I want, you can't control me. And by the way, the only reason why Sehun liked you was because of fanservice”

I swung my fist at her, making her fall to the ground hard. She screamed in pain, shouting for Sehun. I didn't really care anymore, what Sehun thought of me.

“XI LUHAN!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!” Sehun yelled at me, picking Ye Rin up. I flashed him a sly smile and pushed him out of my way, exitting my room.