People might saw me as Happy Virus, but they have no idea at all.

It's all just outside appearance of myself, nobody know what I hide deep inside. I'm not being fake, I just trying to protect myself from another chance to get hurt again.

All the despair and pain I've been through I store it inside a little circle inside my heart. I won't let anyone pass through to my little circle, because it means I would get hurt again.

But somehow, I want someone in my little circle too..

Sounds selfish, isn't?

I won't let them know about that  dark side of mine for sure!

I don't want my crying face shown by everyone, not because I don't want they worry about me, but because it was embarrassment for me.  Crying is a weakness in my point of view. I don't like saw other people cry either.

That why, no matter how hard it is, I always smile like an idiot.