II: Her Journey Entry 

  Many had sent their condolences, and she knew all of them had meant well. Especially her dearest sister, Krystal was very worried her, about the well-being of her and her child. Her group mates, Sooyoung, Tiffany, Taeyeon, Hyoyeon, Seohyun, Sunny and Yuri had visited her to make sure she was fine, to make sure she wouldn't do anything silly, and to make sure she was safe and sound. She had told them she was fine, and she wanted to be alone by herself. She needed time for herself, to calm down and to accept the fact that her husband was dead. She needed to be alone. 

 As she stepped into his music studio in their home, she found the room more spacious and much colder than usual. And, she realized everything was really over. That rainy night, her husband had met with a fatal car accident, taking his life away in an instant. That rainy night, he had left their family, left the world and most importantly, he had left her and their child.

  That room which seemed so empty now, used to be his place of inspiration, his favourite place.

  She had seldom step into his workplace, maybe twice or once, for she respected her husband's privacy and did not want to disturb him nor become his burden. But, as soon as she stepped into the music studio, everything seemed to remind her of Yoona. The way the room was painted in her favourite color, the portrait of Yoona he had hidden form her, the songs he had composed, and the musical instruments he had played on, everything seemed to remind her of Yoona. It was then did she realized that, G-Dragon had never got over his first love, his past, and he had never moved on.  

  As his wife, she loved him, she truly did. Even if he wouldn't take a photo of her, even if he wouldn't compose any love song for her, even if he wouldn't tell her 'I love you', she loved him whole-heartedly. She truly did. She loved the way he would have dinner with her every night, she loved the way he would tolerate her mood swings, she loved the way he would massage her legs when she had legs cramps and she loved everything about him.

  Throughout the times they had spent together, there were many things she was bothered and troubled, and she could never understand. If he had no intentions of telling her, she would never bother him.

  For, she loved him.

 As her hand brushed across his table, she noticed an old familiar yellow journal book lying lifelessly at the corner. She had seen that book before, it was the very same one Yoona had used when she was filming her drama, Love Rain. She flipped the book open, only to find Yoona's hand-written entries.   

Entry 001

Mood: Happy, Excited, Sad, Angry

Hello, Im Yoona here!

Maknae gave me this journal for my birthday. 

I guess I should make full use of this, so I'm going to start writing a journal. 

But I hope, I wouldn't become a boring inflexible person like her.

Entry 024

Mood: Happy, Excited, Sad, Angry

Hello, Im Yoona here! 

I went to a bowling session with Tiffany, Hyoyeon and Sooyoung. Guess what? We met Big Bang's charismatic leader, GD! But somehow, he was acting weird in front of us. He was doing some comical dance in front of us. Even though it was embarrassing, but he really cracked us up with his dance.

And, it was the first time, I thought he was quite cool, awesome, comical, cute.

Kya, I can't believe I actually wrote it down!! 

Entry 047

Mood: Happy, Excited, Sad, Angry

Hello, Im Yoona here! 

Today, Girls Generation went for a awards ceremony in Japan. And, we met G-Dragon again! Unnies and I were giggling by ourselves as we recalled his comical dance. He looked slightly embarrassed as he saw us. Maybe his friend had told him about his previous acts when he was drunk.

Anyway I'm really happy that we're attending the same event, it's quite rare for us to see each other.

He's really cute. Keke ^^

Entry 063

Mood: Happy, Excited, Sad, Angry

Hello, Im Yoona here! 

It has been quite some time since I tuned in to Strong Heart, and I was surprized to find out that G-Dragon was featured. 

His outfit is really, the kind that only he could carry it off? Even Seung Gi Oppa disses his outfit. 

I've just get to find out the other side of him, a sentimental man. The way he sent a touching video clip to his mother really teared me up. One day, I wish I could express my feelings towards my family too. 

And he addresses the Bowling Incident. Also, the Ideal Type World Cup really caught me off-guard. He'd bring me to a deserted island? Even though it was out of the four members, I'm really surprised that he'd choose me. Gobawo, I've seen the video you've sent to me!  

Entry 074

Mood: Happy, Excited, Sad, Angry

Hello, Im Yoona here!

Yuri is attending university classes with Sooyoung, and it happened that Big Bang's maknae, Seungri is attending the same university too.

She said that Big Bang members are pretty friendly and nice, but Seungri was too friendly and high-profiled.

And she's enjoying her university life, I'm glad for her.   

Entry 082

Mood: Happy, Excited, Sad, Angry

Hello, Im Yoona here! 

Yesterday night, Yuri told me a secret. She said she had gone for a match-making session, and Big Bang's Taeyang was there.

She told me that she had always find YG members a little colder, because we're from a different company and there's competition between us. There's why she'd feel very distant from them, but that day, she had got a little closer with him. And she realized, he's a rather warm person.

I'm envious. I want to It would be nice, if I get to meet G-Dragon too.  

Entry 096

Mood: Happy, Excited, Sad, Angry

Hello, Im Yoona here!

Yuri told me she was invited to Big Bang concert, and she has the tickets. But, I weren't feee.

I would like to watch their concert too. 

But Yuri told me, she'd update me when she's home. 

I really wanted to go and catch it live, though. 

Entry 125

Mood: Happy, Excited, Sad, Angry

Mood: Happy, Excited, Sad, Angry