Jiyong's favorite spot hehe

Sunlight streamed through the single high window of the austere room where Jiyong had once learned his lessons under the harsh threat of a cane. Smoothing a wisp of hair back into her neat chignon, Dara studied the titles of the books which filled the low bookcases that ran the full length of one long wall, searching for primers she could use to teach elementary reading skills to the children who would soon be assembling in the gamekeeper's cottage.

Awe and admiration filled her as she gazed at the titles and began fully to realize the scope and depth of the knowledge Jiyong must possess. There were thick leather-bound volumes containing the words of Plato, Socrates, Plutarch, as well as dozens of lesser-known philosophers, whose names Dara scarcely recognized. There were entire sections on architecture, on every period of Korean history and the lives and accomplishments of every Korean ruler.  Mathematics must have been a special interest of Jiyong's, for there was a mind-boggling array of books on that specific subject, many of them with titles so complicated that Dara could only guess what they referred to. Geography books, books by explorers, books on ancient cultures; every subject her grandfather had ever mentioned seemed to be represented here and in great depth.

Smiling slightly, Dara came to the end of the last case, and there on the bottom shelf were the reading primers she sought. Bending down, she selected two that would do for a start. With the books and a slate cradled in one arm, she walked slowly across the wooden floor, sensing the same peculiar combination of sentimentality and depression she'd felt the first time she entered this unwelcoming room more than a year ago.

How could he have spent years up here in this lonely place, she wondered. Her own lessons had been learned in a sunny room, or outdoors in the sunshine, she remembered fondly taught by her grandfather who found peace and delight in knowledge and who had instilled in her that same joy while he taught her.

Pausing at the desk that faced the tutor's larger one, Dara gazed down at the initials carved on the top and lovingly traced each one with a fingertip: j.k. The first time she had seen those initials she had believed Jiyong was dead, and she remembered the desolation she had felt that day and during the months that followed. But now, this very moment, he was downstairs, working in his study alive and vital and handsome. Instead of lying in a watery grave, Jiyong was seated at his desk, wearing a snowy-white shirt that set off his tanned face and clung to his broad shoulders and buff-colored riding breeches that emphasized his long, muscular legs and thighs.

He was alive and healthy and here with her, exactly as she had once prayed and dreamed he would be. God had truly answered her prayers, she realized, and the knowledge suddenly filled her with a piercing sweetness and profound gratitude. He had sent Jiyong back to her and even helped her begin to understand the gentle, autocratic, tender, brilliant, sometimes cynical man she loved.

Her mind absorbed with her thoughts, Dara walked slowly to the door, but as she pulled it closed, there was a loud clatter and the sound of something roiling across the wooden floor. Realizing that she had dislodged something that had been leaning against the doorframe, Dara turned around. Her puzzled gaze scanned the floor, then riveted in horror and hatred upon the stout, polished wooden cane that some faceless tutor had been instructed to use on Jiyong.

Her eyes blazed as she stared at the evil thing, while she actually longed to do bodily injury to the nameless tutor who had used it. Then she her heel and slammed the door to the schoolroom behind her. As she passed a servant in the hall, she the cane at him and said, "Burn this."

Standing at the study window, Jiyong watched Dara walking toward the stables with what appeared to be several books cradled in her arm. An almost overpowering urge to call and offer to spend the day with her swept over him, surprising him with its intensity. He missed her already.

Two hours later, Jiyong's bewildered secretary, Adams, who had been summoned for the usual afternoon of dictation, sat with his quill poised in readiness to take down the rest of a letter to George Bently, which his employer had been in the process of dictating. In the midst of dictating, Jiyong's rapid-fire composition had slowed and he had fallen silent, gazing absently out the window.

Bewildered by Jiyong's unprecedented gaps in concentration which had persisted all afternoon Adams hesitantly cleared his throat, wondering if perhaps the Jiyong's silence was a dismissal. Jiyong jerked his wandering attention from rapt contemplation of the fluffy cloud formations in the bright blue sky and straightened self-consciously, glancing at the secretary. "Where was I?"

"Sir George's letter," Adams said. "You had just begun to issue instructions for the investment of the profits from the last voyage of The Citadel.

"Yes, of course," Jiyong said, his eyes wandering back to the windows. A cloud shaped like a chariot was rearranging itself and becoming a giant sea gull. "Tell him to outfit The Sea Gull. The Valkyrie," Jiyong amended, "for sailing at once."

"The Valkyrie, sir?" Adams asked, bewildered. The Jiyong's gaze shifted reluctantly from the windows to Adams' confused face. "Isn't that what I just said?"

"Well, yes, it is. But a paragraph earlier, you'd desired Sir George to outfit The Four Winds." Adams watched in amazement as an expression that could only be described as acute embarrassment crossed his employer's aristocratic face before the Jiyong tossed the documents in his hand aside and curtly said, "That will be all for today, Adams. We'll continue tomorrow afternoon as usual."

While Adams was secretly wondering what momentous, dire event had caused his employer to cancel his afternoon work for the second time in five years the first time occurring on the day of Jiyong's uncle's interment his employer added blandly, "No, not tomorrow afternoon, either."

Already partway across the room, Adams turned round and looked at his employer in startled inquiry, more amazed than ever by this additional postponement of a stack of rather urgent correspondence. "I'm engaged for the afternoon," Jiyong explained blandly. "A picnic." Struggling valiantly to maintain an impassive visage, Adams nodded and bowed. Then he turned and tripped over a chair. Telling himself that he was merely restless and too long cooped up indoors, Jiyong walked out of the house and headed for the stables. But when Smarth rushed out of the stables to ask if he wanted a mount, Jiyong changed his mind and instead strolled along the path that led to one of the gamekeeper's cottages at the edge of the woods beyond the stables, where Dara had said she gave her lessons.

A few minutes later, the sound of singing reached him, and as he ascended the two wooden steps of the cottage, he smiled to himself as he realized that, instead of "wasting time" with song as he'd first supposed, Dara was teaching her pupils the alphabet, using a cheerful little song that named each letter. Shoving his hands into his pockets, he stood unseen in the doorway, listening to the sound of her lilting voice and looking about him with inner amazement.

Seated upon the floor, singing with rapt attention, were not only children of all ages, but several adults as well. After some thought, he was able to identify two of the women as wives of his tenants, and an elderly man as the grandfather of his head bailiff. Beyond that, he had no idea who the other adults were or to which families the children belonged.

They recognized him, however, and the singing began to grind down to an awkward unmelodious halt as older children stopped singing and silenced their younger siblings. A few yards to his right, Dara tipped her head to the side, smiling at her pupils. "Had enough for today?" she asked sympathetically, misunderstanding the reason for their sudden lack of attention. "In that case, here's your thought to remember' until we meet again on Friday: 'All men are equal,' " she quoted as she moved toward the doorway where Jiyong was standing, obviously intending to bid her students goodbye as they left. "It is not birth that makes the difference, it is virtue." Her left shoulder collided with Jiyong's and she whirled around.

"What a thing to tell them," Jiyong said in a soft, teasing voice, ignoring the occupants of the cabin, who had hastily leapt to their feet and were gaping at him in awe. "You'll incite anarchy with quotations like that."

He stepped out of the doorway and the cottagers, correctly interpreting his movement as a dismissal, hastily lined up and filed awkwardly outdoors.

"They didn't say a word to you," Dara said, watching in bewilderment as the cheerful, friendly students she liked so well, scooted guiltily past and then fled into the woods beside the cottage.

"Because I didn't say a word to them," Jiyong explained with utter unconcern.

"Why didn't you?" Dara asked uncertainly, her pleasure at his unexpected arrival almost blotting out her confusion.

"Unlike many landholders, my forebears have never been on personal terms with their cottagers," Jiyong replied indifferently. Unbidden, a vision of a lonely little boy, forbidden to fraternize with anyone on this vast, populated estate, came to mind, and Dara's eyes filled with tenderness as she gazed up at him. Longing to lavish him with all the love in her heart, she linked her arm through his and said, "I'm surprised to see you this afternoon. "What brought you out here?"

I missed you , he thought. "I finished my work early," he lied. Covering her hand with his, Jiyong strolled with her across the front lawns to the pavilion at the far edge of the lake.

"This is my favorite spot at Hawthorne," he explained, propping a shoulder against one of the white columns that supported the pavilion's roof. Shoving his hands into his pockets, he swept the woods and lake with an absent glance, oblivious to the flowers she'd added to the clearing beside them. "I imagine that, if you combined all the hours I spent in this pavilion as a boy and young man, they'd amount to years."

Thrilled that the handsome, enigmatic man she had married was finally beginning to open himself to her, Dara smiled at him. "It was my favorite place while I was at Hawthorne before. What did you do when you were here?" she asked, remembering the vivid, hopeless daydreams she'd invented about Jiyong, while sitting upon the brightly colored cushions of the pavilion.

"Studied," he answered flatly. "I didn't like the schoolroom much. Or my tutor, for that matter." Dara's smile wobbled as she envisioned a handsome, solitary boy, driven by his father to excel in everything.

Jiyong saw tenderness glowing in her eyes and grinned at her, completely unaware of why her attitude had warmed. "What did you do, when you came here?" he teased. Dara shrugged uneasily. "Daydreamed, mostly."

"About what?"

"The usual things." She was spared the need to answer that, because Jordan was suddenly staring at a clearing in the woods with a puzzled frown.

"What is that?" he asked, straightening from his lounging position and walking into the circular clearing. Strolling directly over to the wedge-shaped marble marker, he read the simple words upon it with an indescribable expression of disbelief on his face:

KWON JIYONG  BORN AUGUST 18, 1985, DIED APRIL 16, 2011

Turning to Dara with a look of almost comical disgust, he demanded, "Youngbae stuck me out here in the woods? Didn't I merit the family cemetery in his estimation?"

Dara chuckled at his unexpectedly droll reaction to seeing his own passing engraved in marble. "There's a monument to you there, too. But I thought this was such a pretty spot for a, well, little marker in your memory." She waited for him to remark upon the fact that the clearing had been widened and flowers added, and when he didn't notice, she prompted lightly, "Do you notice anything different about this place?" ( Guys remember in Chapter 14 when Dara request a marble plaque and put it near at the pavilion in honor of Jiyong's death whom they thought is dead, Dara spend most of her days there to remind her of Jiyong hehe.. and she even planted flowers there hehe..)

Jiyong glanced around, oblivious to the serenity and beauty she'd created. "No. Is something different?"

She rolled her eyes in laughing disgust. "How can you possibly overlook a veritable garden of flowers?"

"Flowers," he repeated without interest. "Yes, I see them," he added, turning away from the clearing.

"Did you really?" Dara teased, but she was serious too. "Without turning back to look, tell me what colors they were."

Jiyong shot her a quizzical look and took her arm, starting toward the house. "Yellow?" he ventured after a moment. "Pink and white." "I was close," he joked.

But on the way back to the house, he noticed for the first time that the roses blooming lavishly in the manicured beds beside the house were divided by color, rather than mixed together, and that the pink ones reminded him of her lips. Slightly embarrassed by the heretofore untapped sentimentality she was awakening in him, Jiyong glanced at her bent head, but the next thought he had was even more shockingly sentimental than the last: His birthday was only five days away, and he wondered if she'd noted that when they'd looked at the dates carved into the marble marker.

A vision of Dara awakening him with a kiss and a wish for his happy birthday floated delightfully through his mind, and suddenly he very much wanted her to remember the date, to do some small thing to show him he was important to her. "I'm getting old," he remarked with careful nonchalance.

"Mmmm," Dara mused absently, toying with an idea so intriguing, so perfect, she was fairly bursting to think it through and begin to execute it.

Obviously, Jiyong realized with disappointed chagrin, she neither knew nor cared that his birthday was near, and by hinting to her about it, he was behaving like a lovestruck boy who yearned for some special token of affection from his ladylove. As soon as they entered the front hall, Jiyong started to leave her and summon his bailiff, but Dara's voice stopped him. "Kwon ," she said.

"Jiyong!" he said shortly. "Jiyong," she repeated, smiling into his eyes in a way that made him long to pull her into his arms, "are we still to have our picnic tomorrow at the stream?" When Jiyong nodded, she explained, "I have some calls to make in the morning Mrs. Little, the gamekeeper's wife, has just given birth to a baby boy, and I must bring her a gift. There are other calls, as well. May I meet you at the stream?"

"Fine." Alarmed and annoyed by his ever-increasing desire to have her near him all the time, Jiyong deliberately did not join her for supper nor did he take her to his bed that night. Instead, he lay awake in his huge bed atop its dais, his hands linked behind his head, staring at the ceiling and forcing himself not to go to her room. At dawn, he was still awake mentally redesigning Dara's bedroom suite. She ought to have a spacious marble bathing room like his own, he had charitably concluded, and a much larger dressing area as well. Of course, if that were done, there would be no room in her own bedchamber for a bed. A faint, thoroughly satisfied smile touched his lips and he closed his eyes at last. He would let her sleep with him in his bed, he generously decided.

In the interest of modernization, no sacrifice was too great.