A/N: this is a double update so, please read the previous chapter first :)

For my best friend and lovely son, Sunghyun,

Please forgive your appa.

He loves you so much,

I know that!

And he never did anything wrong

He didn’t have an affair

He only love that girl

When you saw him with that girl,

He was saying good bye to her

They never did a physic contact or having a skinship

Trust me!

Your appa is so faithful

He never betrayed me and will never betray me

He is a good man

The only thing that is wrong with him is marrying me

He should marry the one he loves

Not me

He married me because we were already too old and had to get a family

My parents always forced me to get married with a man they choose

So, your appa help me to solve my problem

Please forgive your eomma. . .

I know I’m not a good eomma,

But I always try my best to be a good enough eomma for you

Jeongmal saranghaeyo...

Your guardian angel,

Eomma

I can see Sunghyun's tears falling down his face. Sunghyun face the only one which is similar with Sungmin . because my twin children's faces are similar with mine. Now, I feel like watching Sungmin crying. And it makes my tears falling faster.

For my treasure and only daughter, Minkyu,

Don’t make your appa feel worry, dear!

I know you always cry

Now, it’s the time for you to learn how to be a strong woman

Don’t be as weak as your eomma

My sugarpie, please help eomma to take care your appa

I know you are the only one whom I can depend on

Your appa needs you

And you have to take a good care of your brothers too

Actually i wanna see you and your brothers grown up

I don't wanna go and stay with you all

I wanna see your graduation,

I wanna see yor wedding day,

I wanna see my first grandchild,

And I wanna see more smiles,

But God wants me to go

I'm so sorry that I can't pick out clothes for your first date

I love you with all of my heart

Your guardian angel,

Eomma

Minkyu hugs me and pour her tears on my chest. I feel so warm. I can feel Sungmin's arms holding us.

For my shining star and dearest son, Minhyun,

Eomma really proud of you

You are so dependable, wise, and mature enough

Although your age is still so young

I'm sure you will be a good man

I wish you get a good wife too

Dear, now I need your help

You are the only one who can make a peace in our house

Please make your hyung understand

Please make your appa talks

As we know, your appa is a quite person

He will never defend or vindicate himself

Please be a peace maker

Eomma wanna see our family intact

Can you do that for eomma?

Eomma can no longer stand by your side

So eomma really needs your hand

But, eomma always stay with you

And pray for your happiness

Sorry for making you suffer and giving you a burden

I know you can face this hardship

Jeongmal gomawoyo,

Saranghae...

Your guardian angel,

Eomma

Minhyun palmed his face and cry silently, Sunghyun who sit next to him embrace him. Then, we open the last page.

For my beloved husband,

This is will be the last message I write

You are my only one and always be my only one

I loved you from the start, and still loving you ‘till forever

Sweetheart, I know you don’t love me back

If I could give you a happiness, I would do anything for that

but your happiness is only being free from me

And I can’t do that since I have to keep  our three angels’ smile

Sorry, for making you lose your true love

Every morning I always search my silhouette in your eyes

But I never find myself reflected there

I really wanna see my shadow in there,

And today I found myself in your eyes

Your eyes full of tears and blurry

But I could see it clearly that…

I am in your eyes

And I’m so happy to hear you said you love me

I never feel so loved before

I think I can die peacefully in a happy condition

But, my Kyu... don’t cry! Don’t worry!

I will never leave you,

I’m in your heart and always watching you.

Your wife,

Sungmin

we close that book and cry together.

Baby, did you know?
She can be my first love, but you are my last and true love!
I feel so lucky to have loved you
I feel so blessed for having you in my life
 

Sungmin, my true love...
I will take care of our angels
I promise you
They are the most precious legacy you left for me
My Sungmin, I do love you and will always love you 'till forever
I still have business here
Our kids need me,
But I will come after finishing it
So please wait and leave me a place by your side in heaven
 

I feel honored to have been given life to love you

Your only lover,
Kyuhyun