"par alam mo ba na nakita ko ‘rin yan si rina?' mahinhin sabi nito.

"san?'' 

"oo, par dun sa-" bago pa man nya matuloy ang sasabihin nya  ay agad 'kong  sinabi 

"san pake ko?" umirap naman sya.

"ang ewan mo talaga! basta mukhang hindi nya naman ako namukhaan." paliwanag nito.

"good. panget mo na kasi eh."

 pinakyuhan nya lang ako.

"wala ka bang class? hindi naman ako magtatagal dito."

"meron par mga 10:30 pa, pero gusto mo skip ako? di naman yun importante, luto luto lang kami."

"gago ka ba? punta rin naman ako alibi room may shift pa ako mga 1:00 pm, b-byahe pa ako" paliwanag ko sa kanya.

"ay hindi par, hatid na lang kita? traffic eh.." paalala nya sakin. 

"tsaka okay lang ma-late ako " 'di naman mababawasan cooking skills ko nyan." proud niyang sabi.

"sure ka ah?"

"oo naman, basta rant ka ah?" 

"sus, sige na nga.."  tinawanan ko lang sya at nilis na ang ang pinggan. 

*time skip*

Habang na-byahe ay kwento lang ng kwento si ryujin sa ex-fling nyang si yeji... hindi ko siya kilala pero mukhang interesado ako sa pag babanggit nito ni akling.

Si yeji ay isang multi arts student sa DLSU. Hindi ko alam kung sa paanong paraan nakilala toh ni ryujin pero, sana mag-ingat sya sa tropa ko. Pano naman kasi pinagtatalunan nila kung yung pineapples daw ay belong ba sa pizza o hindi. Heto naman ryuj ay 'di makapaniwala na ayaw nung ate girl talaga nun...

Base sa mga kwento nito mukhang redflag si ryujin. Dapat talaga dito ay pinagbabawalan mag-selpon. Risk taker naman 'tong si ate mo yeji, ready to settle for more ang peg pero ayaw naman ni akling. Hayst sayangg..

tamo si akling sabi ako raw mag rant pero ang ending sya hay.. nako ryujibelyn.. 

"pre alam mo siguro mag-settle kana jan kay yeji mukhang seryoso na sayo"

"bilis naman par kasi tsaka always kaming hindi nagkakasundo.. nakakairita yung pagiging conyo nya" 

"Oh can we go sea side na lang? its very crowded na sa loob ng sm moa eh.." with matching mocking voice.

"ang ending mas crowded pa sa sea side" 

Tinawanan ko lang sya 

"bagay kayo" 

"naalala mo sya, noh? sabi ni ryuj na may halong lungkot

"may choice pa ba ako?"  

"hirap mawalan ng pake sa kanya"

"minahal mo eh...."

"dati yun" 

"iba na ngayon"

If people ask what happened to us? i would simply say we fell apart. Ayoko naman sya sisihin sa pag break up nya agad. I'll be so cruel for that, i don't to continue to live—knowing na iniwan nya ako ng walang pasabi..

I was like that before.

I always blame her in my head kasi ang sakit sakit ng ginawa nya.. Big deal yun sakin kisi minahal ko sya…But now? if i look back again?  i won't 'cause i know that for sure i can't say to people na "tangina sya yung nakipag ng walang pasabi kung bakit? tapos kasalanan ko? if people start questioning my actions towards her or what really happened, why we break up. 

People don't give a what we really do feel together before... It's always what we do. They think we are some kind of drama on campus. But, when we break up? akala mong sobrang alalang alala sa nararamdaman ko at sya... Ganyan ang situation namin. Sa tingin ng iba na mala fantasy yung situation ko kasi si karina yu ang gf ko, well at first it was like that. But she is more than that, I know it god damn well. She is the standard that people wanted. But do you understand her? And, do you know that she is more than a public figure or a role model? She is a person with a great personality, a funny and unfunny person at the same time. Who likes cats more than anything. And more importantly she has feelings that people must care about. 

But as time went by all felt for her was pain. I need a reason why she does that. I always wonder, and these thoughts in my head are killing me thinking that did i make her mad that day? have i been to people that i didn't tell her about? Did i make her sad? or did i miss an event, happenings, what she cared about that we like to celebrate together? As I always analyze stuff like that, it seems I didn't  do anything like that. I always put her first, or maybe that's the problem? I always put Karina first. I don't know, I can't read her mind... I hated it. I hate that I couldn't read her mind that day.

It's been almost 2 years.. and i can't live like this. Living a life that is always wondering why she left. And now that she is here. Tangina na lang...

"Sobrang traffic naman par!" reklamo nito.

"Hoy gaga ka kasi may klase ka pa, i-ditch mo"

"rant kana" 

'kwento mo na sakin par, dito lang ako "

"okay lang ako par, ako na toh"

"eh pano yan mag-kasama na kayo? i mean may mga times na mag kakasaluong kayo? 

"edi mag kukulong ako."

"maawa ka sa mga halaman mo mamatay yun sa baho mo"

"tangina mo ba? basta bahala na." 

"miss mo na?'

"bat ko sya ma miss kung wala na akong pake?"

"na ka move on na ako par, hindi na ako ang dating ako na tanga. I am tanga 2.0"

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