"Are you freaking insane?" I don't think Rosie is capable of being angry pero halata sa kanya ang disappointment, she didn't react kanina but after the meeting with Giselle and we're already on our way home sa car ay syaka naman siya nag salita. She doesn't want me na mapahiya in front of Giselle, and that's what I like about Rosie, kahit ano pa yan, my well-being will be her first priority

"Bakit mo naman in-accept yung offer for free? What if malaman ng iba yun? It'll backfire on you, hindi mo man lang ako sinabihan, do you even respect my job as your manager?"

" Ate naman, you know I appreciate you" Now, I feel guilty, hindi ko naisip ang nararamdaman niya. I was too inspired and hungry to do a revolutionary film about this industry that I forgot to tell her my plans

" I understand na matagal ka na and I just took over my Tita's career to handle you but all this time I thought it's going well between us" Kumirot yung puso ko literally, para kasing iiyak na siya, between us, siya talaga mababa ang luha but I can't believe na ako pala ang mag papaiyak sa kanya

I signalled my driver to stop the car and asked my makeup artist Joy to changed seats, she was just silent but I saw her caressing Rosie's back, trying to comfort Rosie na umiyak na nga

Umupo ako sa backseat at niyakap siya "I'm sorry ate, I should've tell you my plans first, nawala talaga sa sarili ko sabihin yon, I got really carried away with my emotions"

I think i'm being petty but I can't help but to blame Yi Zhuo a little in my mind, she's been telling me on how the indie film is my lifelong dream and it'll tackle the issues I want to be dealt with and I can't help myself, her words just ignited my passion for this craft and offered something na I never offered before and have no plans to offer to anyone at the very first place

Now, I have to work and mag puyat for free for a few months, bakit ko nga ba sinabing tatanggapin ko yung offer for free? I think this is what they said "Nadala sa bugso ng damdamin" which I called bull before kase never naman nangyari sakin

"Don't worry na Ate, hindi naman yon mag ba-backfire sakin because I have you, you asked for a contract na, you will always make sure na walang masama na mangyayare sakin" 

Siniko naman niya ako lightly, hindi naman masakit and I didn't even budge, I'm still hugging her tightly " Binibola mo pa ako, kala mo 'di ko napansin na pinapasa mo sakin ang responsibility ng decision mo? " Nakita ko naman na napapangiti na siya pero lumuluha pa din

Pinunasan ko naman ng tissue ang mukha niya "It's not like that, I just know na you're very capable of your job kaya I know I'm in good hands"

" Anong it's not like that? That's what you're doing right now, basta please lang before you decide on things, make sure na sabihin mo sakin first. I honestly thought you'll reject the offer kase napangitan ka sa scripts. Of course, I should've known better when sinabi niyang the film aims to make the industry to be better"

" Yes po Ate, I'll tell you po palagi, this is a one time thing lang po, it just really slipped on my mind to tell you, so bati na tayo?" I asked, hindi naman sa nag pa-pacute ako but I can't helped but to pout when asking, I just can't help to act like this with Ate Rosie

"Naku, oo na, napaka cute mo talagang bata ka! Ako naman si uto-uto, nag papadala sa pout mo na yan" she said while squeezing my cheeks, I normally tinatanggal kaagad yung kamay niya kapag ginagawa niya yon since it hurts a bit but since may kasalanan ako, I let her indulge with my cheeks, palagi niya na lang pinanggigilan yon

"I love you Ate Rosie!"

"Love you too Minjeong!'

"Alam mo, napakalandi mo talagang bata ka" masungit na sabi sakin ni Ate Jennie pero may ngiting nang aasar naman, inismiran ko na lang siya.

Pag katapos ng meeting namin with Giselle ay dumiretso kame sa Starbucks, lagi kami nakatambay dito dahil tago ang pwesto na 'to at malapit lang sa building ng management.

"Talagang nag offer ka pa ng free payment e nag iipon ka nga para matapos na yung dream house niyo, is that the power of kalandian ba?" sinu-sundot sundot pa niya ang tagiliran ko dahil hindi ko siya pinapansin

Oo na, hindi na nga napagisipan yung pag sabi ko ng wala ng bayad sa fee ko, sobrang nasayahan lang naman ako na malaman kong makakatrabaho ko ulit si Minjeong, leading lady ko pa.

For real, pag naiisip ko ulit parang no regrets talaga na mag wo-work ako for free, sulit na sulit ang benefits na natatanggap ko, ang pera, kikitain ko pa sa ibang project, pero baka si Minjeong sa project lang na 'to ko makikita. I cannot let this opportunity go to waste

Narinig ko na lang ang screech ng upuan at naramdaman kong lumapit si Ate Jennie sakin, maya-maya pa ay inakbayan niya na ako

"Kaibigan mo si Giselle and she's professional so I know na hindi ka naman niya ilaglag regardless of the contract to be discreet about the no payment, and I've been handling you for years and you're always been masunurin naman and never been masakit sa ulo since nag iisa lang ang crush mo, so sige lang, landi well" sabi niya pa habang nakaakbay pa rin sakin at pangiti-ngiti pa at tinaas baba pa ang kilay niya pag ka tapos

Siniko ko naman siya para makalayo sakin dahil mas matangkad ako sa kanya halos mayakap niya na ako sa kakaakbay niya, hindi naman siya nag patinag at pinisil pa ang pisngi ko habang nakaakbay

"Ang alaga ko nag da-dalaga na, ang bebe ko, mag jojowa na, I'm so proud of my bebe, galingan mong akitin si loml mo ha" Namula naman ang pisngi ko, may isang beses kaseng natawag ko nang kung anu-anong corny endearments si Minjeong while I'm drunk and telling my stupid crush with Ate Jennie.

"Dapat ma-inform ko na agad si Jisoo para sa mga mapangakit mong susuotin off cam, dapat mga pang y para mainlove na sayo ang bebeloves mo" 

Ate Jennie used to be so weirded out na I'm not interested with anyone, sa lahat daw ng talents niya, I'm the easiest one to handle dahil sobrang focus ko lang daw sa work and all my colleagues (artista and staffs) have nothing to say but good things about me

When she learned about my hidden crush with Minjeong, when I got drunk one time (that's when I've also learned that I have no filter when I get drunk), wala na siyang ibang ginawa kundi asarin ako kapag nakikita namin si Minjeong in commercials or films or whatsoever

She said she even tried to make us work together again but unfortunately, wala daw talagang projects na ino-offer sa amin both so hindi niya daw ako matulungan sa aking feelings

She said na I deserve to be in a relationship daw after all my hardwo