Dearest Chaewonie,

When you ran away, never looking back after accidentally seeing me on my hospital bed after I lied and told you I was just visiting my brother abroad, I told myself, "You deserve that. You betrayed her and yet you expect she'll still stay? Jokes on you." I knew Hyewon told you about it. And I'm not mad at her, I know she just wanna help the both of us in this mess.

When I watch your image slowly disappearing in my sight, I cried harder. I don't exactly know why but maybe because realization had finally hit me.

I am dying. I am dying and yet I will not be able to spend my time with you.

When was the last time I told you I love you?

I got so lost in my countless lies that I didn't realize, I was already hurting you, more than protecting you in the process.

Chaewon, I wanna live. I swear I wanted to. I'm doing my best to live through each day even if it was physically painful.

Because I know, parting with you hurts more than all the physical pain I am suffering from right now.

Yours,

Yenaring.

xoxoxoxoxox

Dearest Yenaring,

I was so shocked seeing you that way. I never imagined that the bubbly, full of energy ball of sunshine could actually lost her light. And I'm sorry, love. I'm