of promises & feelings

Description

Choi Yena doesn't like Kim Chaewon. And she's definitely not in love with her.

 

Or,

 

Wherein, Yena starts to realize that she's absolutely just making a fool of herself after sorting out her feelings.

 

Foreword

this 'one-shot' will be divided into two because it reached 38k. and actually, set in the same universe as my JinJoo OS, of songs & tattoos. but not in the same timeline, this fic is more on the past while the jinjoo one is the present. no need to read the jinjoo one as this one can stand on its own and ssamyen is rarely mentioned there, and there's a big spoiler there so... for the ppl who read the jinjoo one first then good for yall~

 

but all in all, there might be some errors and stuff so please bear with me. without further ado, enjoy reading.

 

 

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Viola_Ella #1
Chapter 2: first time reading I miss ssamyen...
minjupocket #2
Chapter 2: EVEN THO IT’S HURT SOOOO MUCH TYSM AUTHOR-NIMBUT STILL THIS IS INCREDIBLE I LOVE THIS
minjupocket #3
Chapter 1: I *SPEECHLESS* LOVE THIS OMG AUTHOR-NIM I THINK IM FALLIN IN LOVE WITH THIS MASTERPIECE UWU SSAMYEN 4EVER🥺
acceiil #4
Chapter 2: comeback to read this again. i really like this story. please make another ssamyen. dont care if its angst again i just miss them so much😭
hepehupapu #5
Chapter 2: I’ll never get tired of reading this. 🥲
Kkubijinjoolovers
#6
Chapter 2: Aaa.. love it.. the angst.. really.. you broke my heart ㅠㅠ

And there is me. Hoping for a sequel. I'm rooting for you to write a sequel ^^
bananabee #7
Chapter 2: jealous chaewon is really.... something 😳 stay strong kissing besties ✊😭 this is soooo good author-nim 🙈
hepehupapu #8
Chapter 2: 🥺🥺
Wisone1005 #9
Chapter 2: Chaewon broke Yena Authornim broke me. The angst is too much for my heart . I absolutely love it . Hope yena and chaewon will find their happiness
Cheeeeeee
#10
Chapter 2: I'm done reading the chismis on wiztwitter and crying over how painful (but good) so painfully good this fic is.

First of, I'm kinda in denial stage but I love push and pull themes skskkssk I love how one would confess, the other would pull back, and when the other starts trying to move on, the other one shows subtle hints that they like them??? It's so freaking complicated but I like it because it mirrors reality more sksksksks

I'll just expound on the tweets I already had posted ksskks. First off, with Yena. Her love for Chaewon was... woah, it's unconditional, it's selfless, almost to the point of becoming a fool. But is it really love if it's not foolishness? I could understand her, once you fall and you fell hard, you'll not be able to escape that chain easily. Not that she's trying to, that ducky skksksks

I just feel like... she should try to know herself more. And now that Chaewon's not there, maybe she should start doing things for herself? Find a new hobby or something. Because I remember reading a part that says, nonverbatim "her time as an independent graphic designer is flexible and all her free time goes to Chaewon". Must have been why she's so invested in her. I mean, that's not bad per se, but maybe try to look out for herself more, this time?

I love how tension-filled the confession scene is, btw hahahaha (what?? I live for drama! Hahaha)

I love the actions indicating love. There weren't frequent declarations through words but I love how they were described, through actions instead that really, they both have that mutual yearning for each other. Makes the story-telling more effective in my opinion.

I won't glorify what Chaewon did. First and foremost, she should've been transparent. Reject her or accept her, there shouldn't be anything in between. She placed Yena in between and Yena doesn't deserve that. Being in the middle warrants a lottttt of questions. A lot of what ifs, a whole lot of wishful thinkings and most especially, she's giving her hope.

But ngl, the scenarios during their label less relationship were pure comedy hahahahaha bwict na supportive bestie yan 😂

I won't glorify what she did, but somehow, I get her. If it were me, I would've done the same. I would've also chased after my dreams. Selfish may it sound but who are they to question my decisions when it weren't really them who'd be directly affected by it? Would they take responsibility? No, right? And I think Chaewon is aware of that and what I love about her is that she's determined. Nothing amazes me more than a pair of eyes hungry to chase after their dreams--that's just so effin y.

And like I said in my tweet, Yena knows that. She knows she'll get hurt but she still pushed through because she knows Chaewon is worth it. Yena isn't selfish like the story said and so is Chaewon, in my opinion.

Should she had accepted Yena's offer at the airport? If I'll let my hopeless romantic to do the talking, I'd say yes, in a heartbeat. Because duh, she said she'll wait and true love conquers them all, no distance is too far for hearts tied with each other and all those cheesy quotations to convince myself that this'll end with rainbows and butterflies. However, if I let my realist self to take over, I'd say she had chosen the best for the two of them.

Distance isn't an easy opponent and so are doubts, longing and crazy amounts of being paranoid. You couldn't just believe on dramas just because they said "everything will work out, trust me". No, reality is much harsher than that. It'll bite you and burry you completely, especially those who are too idealistic.

The scene that I love the most is here is the anklet scene. It's painful and yet it opens us to the possibility that they could still happen. That they could still find themselves back in each other's arms. Because yep, I'm still a hopeless romantic through and through, duh hahahha

I just hope if there's a sequel *ehem* that it would feature more of Chaewon's pov since we had followed this story through Yena's eyes?

Anyway, this again is a long blabber but this story deserves all the praises so I won't really hesitate to put my thoughts into words sksksk.

Again, thank you for writing this! Uhm see you on the sequel or another ssamyen *ehem* chour, again no pressure. I really enjoyed the ride. So much love for this, I'm not sure if I've managed to word all my thoughts after reading but that's what I managed to salvage from my brain after being wrecked chour hshshs

Stay safe, zero-nim! 💚💛 ssamyen and ssamyen nation loves you 🤧