Baekhyun's pov

10th grade

Teacher-I will give you 30 minutes to finish your essay and hand in

I put down my pen and lied my head on the table. Eunji who was sitting next to me chuckled

Eunji-Mwoya, we have to finish an essay
Baekhyun-I'm done
Eunji-Are you serious? Let me see

Eunji tried to steal my paper but I ran it away and hid it under my table

Baekhyun-I don't write 4 pages essay like you, Miss Jung
Eunji-Pfft! What ever

I chuckled and kept staring at Eunji next to me. She was my so called 'best friend'. That was why we sat next to each other without feeling awkward at all

I stared at her long, silky hair. How I wished she was mine

But of course, she would never notice me like that. And I knew it

Finally our English class ended. Eunji offered to hand in my essay with wide smile on her face. I couldn't help but to smile back at her, passing my half-completed essay

I just spent the 30 minutes given staring at her beautiful face. And I won't get tired of it

We packed our bags and ready to leave school for home

Eunji-Baekie wait!

Eunji held my hand before I could leave

Baekhyun-Why?
Eunji-Can I have the notes from yesterday's class?
Baekhyun-Oh sure

I took my file and handed the papers to Eunji. She sighed in relief

Eunji-Thank you so much!

Chup!

She kissed me on the cheek

Eunji-If it wasn't because of you, I will be screwed for next week test. Hee. Thanks Baekhyun ahh. I will return these notes to you as soon as possible. Bye!

Eunji waved at me and left through the back door. I was still stunned at my place. I touched my cheek that Eunji just kissed

Baekhyun-Bb.. Bye

I watched Eunji left and sighed

I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I didn't want to be just friends

I loved her. But I was just too shy, and I didn't know why

***

11th grade

Ring! Ring!

I ran up to my bed and picked up the call before I could see who was the caller

Baekhyun-Hello, Baekhyun speaking

"Uhuk! Baekkie..."

Someone cried on the other end

Baekhyun-Eunji? Hey, what's wrong? Why are you crying?

"I just found out Inguk cheated on me. Huwa! I'm so broken right now"

I sighed deeply and shook my head. I'd always known that bastard wasn't a good match for Eunji. But I never told her because I knew how much Eunji loved Inguk. Only if she loved me the same way as well

"Can you come to my house? I am all alone and I don't have anyone to tell stories. I'm so hurt right now"

Baekhyun-Okay, I'll be there shortly. Just stay put okay? Hang in there

I cut the line and went to take my sweater before leaving to Eunji's house. We only lived a few doors away from each other

Eunji's house

Eunji-Sit down

I sat next to Eunji on the sofa. I saw her puffy face and red eyes. I truly hated to see her like that

Baekhyun-Come, I will hug you
Eunji-Uhuk!

Eunji burst out crying on my shoulder immediately. I her back and comforted her

Eunji-I love him so much Baekhyun. I tried to fix this with him but he'd rather be with that girl
Baekhyun-Hey, it's fine. There are a lot of guys better than him. Don't feel bad about it
Eunji-I thought he was the one. Oh God, this is so terrible

Baekhyun-It's okay, I'm here. All you need is here
Eunji-Thank you. You are the best friend ever

I smiled sadly. Yes, I knew. She would never think of me another way. We were friends and that would be all

After 2 hour long movie, Eunji yawned. She decided to go to sleep since it was already so late

Eunji-Aigoo I was only crying two hours ago. But now I could laugh again. Thanks for coming Baekie
Baekhyun-*smiled* Always

Eunji pulled my arm and kissed my cheek

Eunji-Thank you again

I nodded before I left her house. I turned around one more time and Eunji was still at her door, waving at me

I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I didn't want to be just friends

I loved her. But I was just too shy, and I didn't know why

***

Senior year

I banged my locker close and got startle instead when I saw Eunji grinning beside me

Baekhyun-Aish, you startle me
Eunji-Hee. Baek, do you have a date for prom night?
Baekhyun-Prom? No, not yet
Eunji-Good! Can you be my partner?
Baekhyun-Aren't you going with Jisoo?

Eunji-*pouted* Yeah, I was so excited to go with him. Unfortunately he is sick and cannot go tomorrow

I hid my devilish smile. I nodded

Baekhyun-Okay. We will go together
Eunji-Yeay! You are the best

Like always, she would give me a kiss on the cheek. I stared at her with love. But I knew she couldn't see it

Eunji-See you tomorrow night

Prom night

I waited for Eunji at the entrance to the hall. I tapped my foot furiously, wondering if Eunji would actually come or not. But if she wouldn't, she might have told me beforehand

"Byun Baekhyun!"

I lifted up my head as soon I heard that familiar voice of Eunji. Our eyes met

She looked so gorgeous that I forgot to breathe. Was she an Angel or something?

Eunji-Why do you look at me like that?

She said shyly, playing with her hair. I wanted to tell her that I loved her. But she didn't see me like that

Baekhyun-Let's go

I stretched out my hand to her and she took it, smiling brightly as we walked down the red carpet into the hall

Skip!

Taehyung-Tonight, one of our batchmate has prepared a special performance for his crush
Everyone-Wuuu
Taehyung-Now, I will invite Byun Baekhyun to perform the song by Shane Filan, Beautiful in White

I was so embarrassed when Taehyung introduced me like that. I glanced at Eunji who was sitting next to me. She was smiling while clapping her hands for me just like everyone else. I hope she knew this song was for her

I walked up to the stage at the piano. I breathed in nervously and secretly glanced at Eunji before started pressing on the keys

Not sure if you know this
But when we first met
I got so nervous I couldn't speak
In that very moment
I found the one and
My life had found its missing piece

So as long as I live I love you
Will have and hold you
You look so beautiful in white
And from now 'til my very last breath
This day I'll cherish
You look so beautiful in white
Tonight

Clap! Clap! Clap!

Taehyung-What a lovely song from our Baekhyun. Thank you so much

I breathed in relief as I took my seat beside Eunji again. She grinned at me

Eunji-Your voice is so melodious
Baekhyun-*chuckled* Thanks
Eunji-I want you to sing that song again. But only for me
Baekhyun-Anytime you want

Chup!

Eunji kissed me on the cheek. I turned to her, staring at her face for the longest time

I wanted her to know my feelings. I didn't want to be just friends. But I was too shy, and I didn't know why

Eunji-Why are you looking at me like that?
Baekhyun-*shook* Nothing

2300 p.m. I sent Eunji home first to make sure she was safe

Eunji-Thank you so much for tonight. I had a lot of fun. You are seriously my best buddy

She kissed my cheek and hugged me. I wanted her to he mine. But she didn't see me like that. And I knew it

***

Graduation day

Days, weeks, months and years had passed before I could blink. Today was our graduation day

I watched Eunji floated up on the stage like and angel to receive her scroll. She was smiling so widely

I wanted her to be mine. I wanted her to know my feelings. But I was just too shy

Before we went home, Eunji came to see me with her smock and hat. Before anything else, she gave me a warm, friendly hug and cried on my shoulder. Then she lifted her face to look at me

Eunji-My school years were fantastic because you are my best friend Baekhyun. Thank you so much

She kissed my cheek and smiled at me. I smiled back, nodding my head at her

I wanted to tell her I didn't want to be just friends. But I was just too shy, and I didn't know why

***

A few years later

Now I stood in front of bride's door. My hand was holding a bouquet of flower

Baekhyun-Should I go in? Should I go in?

Pak!

Someone opened the door and it happened to be Mrs Jung

Mrs Jung-Oh Baekhyun! Why didn't you knock? Come, Eunji has been waiting
Baekhyun-Yy.. Yeah. Thank you

I walked into the room. I saw Eunji in her white, pastry-like gown in front of the mirror. She turned around when she saw me in the reflection

Eunji-Baekhyun!

She ran up to me and hugged me tightly

Eunji-You come! Thanks
Baekhyun-Of course. It's your special day Eunji ya. Uhm, here. Flower
Eunji-Lovely. Thanks again

Then she kissed my cheek, smiling

Eunji-Will you walk me down the aisle?
Baekhyun-Of course

Eunji held my hand and we walked out heading to the main hall. Eunji squeezed my arm as she felt nervous

Baekhyun-Hey, it's okay
Eunji-*smiled* Thanks

We walked down the aisle to the altar. Eunji's bridegroom had bren waiting for her with the sweetest smile

I glanced at Eunjj and saw she was grinning from ear to ear. She released her hands from me and went with her future husband

I sat at the first pew of the church. I watched Eunji said 'I do' and drove off to her new life, married to another man

I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I didn't want to be just friends. I loved her but I was just too shy, and I didn't know why

***

2020

I sat down and flipped through the diary page by page. Tears didn't stop running down my face

I read one of Eunji's entry which said

I stare at him wishing he is mine. But he doesn't see me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him. I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why

I cupped my face and cried. Then I felt a hand touching my shoulder. I looked up and saw Eunji's ex-husband, Kibum

Kibum-She still loves you. Go and see her before it's too late

I nodded my head. I took Eunji's diary with me and walked into the ward room. I saw Eunji lying on the bed in her white gown. She had ventilator on, and supported with many more machines that I couldn't even pronounce

Eunji-Baek...

I heard Eunji called me softly. My heart wrenched but I tried to smile. I wanted to be the source of strength for her like I always did. Even though I was the one who was falling to earth at the moment

Baekhyun-Hi

Eunji-You come. Thanks
Baekhyun-Of course I come. Always

This time, I gave Eunji a kiss on her cheek. She closed her eyes and smiled as if she enjoyed it

Baekhyun-How do you feel?
Eunji-I'm dying Baekhyun

I held her hand and kissed it. It was stiff and cold

Eunji-Baekhyun...
Baekhyun-I love you, Jung Eunji

Eunji smiled under her ventilator. She told me to hug her and I did

Baekhyun-I'm sorry
Eunji-It's no one's fault, Baekhyun. I love you too

We spent a night together in Eunji's bed. She didn't feel like sleeping so I stayed up with her. We talked about our old memories which made us did nothing but laugh

Eunji-Baekhyun?
Baekhyun-Yes beautiful?
Eunji-Remember when you sang Beautiful in White during prom night?
Baekhyun-Of course

Eunji-I didn't lie when I told your voice was good
Baekhyun-Tsk, I know. Did you know that... My crush was actually you?
Eunji-At that time I didn't know. I was such a fool

I kissed Eunji's forehead and shook

Baekhyun-No dear
Eunji-Can you sing it for me again? As a lullaby
Baekhyun-Anytime

Eunji snuggled closer to me. She lied her head on my arm and I hugged her. Then I began to sing

What we have is timeless
My love is endless
And with this ring I
Say to the world
You're my every reason
You're all that I believe in
With all my heart I mean every word

So as long as I live I love you
Will haven and hold you
You look so beautiful in white
And from now 'til my very last breath
This day I'll cherish
You look so beautiful in white
Tonight

I looked down at Eunji who was already drifted away to dream land. I kissed her forehead dearly

Eunji-My lips too

Suddenly she mumbled and opened her eyes again. I chuckled before kissing her lips tenderly

Baekhyun-I thought you already slept
Eunji-Now I will
Baekhyun-Good night
Eunji-Hmm

And we fell asleep in each other's arms

Morning

Bip! Bip! Bip!

Baekhyun-Doctor! Doctor!

I yelled out calling for doctor to Eunji's room. A doctor and nurses rushed into the ward to check on Eunji

Doctor-Defibrillator. Power 250 joule. Shoot!

Eunji's chest jolted up then down. The ECG still showed flat curve

Doctor-Power up to 300 joule. Shoot!

Beeeeeep.....

The longest beep sound filled the room. The doctor took one step back and sighed. The nurses looked down to their feet

Doctor-Jung Eunji, date of death June 16 2020. Please call her guardians
Nurse-Yes doctor

The doctor turned to me and bowed before he left with the others

Baekhyun-Eunji?

I watched the nurse removed the ventilator mask from Eunji and covered her face with the white cloth

Baekhyun-No. No!!!

I wailed hysterically. I removed the cloth and held Eunji's face, calling her name so she would wake up but no

Baekhyun-Eunji ya, open your eyes. Please open your eyes Jung Eunji. Argh!!!

I fell on my knees. My hand snuck to find Eunji's. I kissed her cold fingers and cried

Baekhyun-I am so sorry...

I felt apologetic for not noticing her feelings earlier. If I did, at least we would spend more time loving each other rather than experiencing this pain of losing

This untold feeling was a poison

The End