I'm so sorry for the long delay.

Enjoy.

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"P'Kit Kat, you are going to lose your fingers in this rate, na. Stop biting your nails and cracking your knuckles concurrently," I said as I held P'Kit's palm in my left hand.

He was damn nervous since last night, or should I say since last week. Upon returning from my family mansion, I experienced the calm and serenity that comes with the closure we get from the family. I want my P'Kit to get that closure from his family and have a peaceful life as well.

P'Kit once told me about his family briefly. I know that he didn't have a perfect childhood or an understanding family. He also informed me about the phone call from his elder sister, P'Fei, and she wanted him to return home to settle stuff with their parents.

He asked for time in the excuse of final exams, and I didn't force him on that. But that was a week ago. Even if he has to return home, P'Kit is reluctant to go back. More like he is scared to go back.

 

I don't know what he worries about the most?

Is he worried about not getting the closure he always wanted?

or

Is he worried about being criticized and scolded for not going back in the past five months?

 

If he worries about his parent's not accepting our relationship, then he is not alone. I'm terrified to meet his family. Unlike my parents, P'Kit's parents didn't know that P'Kit is biual.

Will my P'Kit go through trouble because of my love for him?

Putting my worries aside, I have to console my kitten from getting anxious.

"What happened, P'Kit Kat? Why are you so nervous? We are just going back to your home, na," I said to calm him, which did the opposite.

"Stop worrying about me and focus on the road. Have some coffee. You are driving for three hours without a break now, and you don't even let me exchange with you," P'Kit said grumpily, avoiding my question.

"It's because you're already nervous, and I don't want to make you tired na, Phi. And look at the road. It's still too early for a morning traffic jam," I replied with my signature smile.

"Exactly! Why are we going back to my home at seven in the morning? We could have left the dorm late in the afternoon, or better cancel this plan. Come on, Ming. Let's return to the dorm. Take the next U-turn," encouraged P'Kit like a child with puppy eyes. But it didn't work on me.

"P'Kit Kat, we can't do that. You promised P'Fei to return this weekend. Your family will wait for you, Phi. And, we left early in the morning because I don't want you to back out at the last minute," I explained gently.

"You don't know about my parents, Ming. Upon meeting them in person, you might even think that I lied to you about them," he said sadly.

"Why do you say that, P'Kit? Are they manipulative parents?"

"Even worst, they are narcissists parents," he commented with a sad smile.

"In public, my parents get noticed as perfect and loving. But behind closed doors - they rage, scream, and criticize me. They challenged my reality through confusion. Imagine being told that the beach trip you had with your friends, which you enjoyed genuinely, didn't happen. You remember playing in the sea with your friends, or at least you think you do. This cause you to not trust your memories or anybody," P'Kit explained.

"They did that to you, phi?"

"Hmmm. My focus was on pleasing my parent to stay in their good graces. I started to distance myself from them once I apprehended what kind of parents they were. The love they showed me was never actually loving, and the sorry they said was not an apology. It was a manipulation and guilt trip," P'Kit elaborated dejectedly.

 

'Oh, my P'Kit Kat, what have you gone through?'

 

"My sister said that my parents regret their deeds to me and all of their children, and they want to apologize correctly.

The settlement she talked about was this. And I am not sure if this is another sympathy trap they created.

Even if my parents were not the ideal parents, I loved them. I don't want to introduce you to a manipulative and toxic family. What if you think that you don't deserve this and leave me?" he asked with tears collected in his eyes.

Upon hearing about his worries, I pulled the car by the side of the road and embraced him. He started to cry silently in my arms. I have been driving non-stop for the past three hours.

We have another two hours to reach P'Kit's family house. In this journey, the first thing that I realize is that how far and how tiring it is to drive this distance.

Even after plenty of rest, this drive makes me tired. Imagine driving back and toward this far every week after a hectic schedule. This one point is enough to tell how selfish was P'Kit's parents to demand him to return home every weekend.

 

"P'Kit Kat, remember what I promised you when I confessed to you and gave you my bracelet?" I asked him softly. P'Kit only nods as an answer.

"No matter what happens and what others say, my love for you never change. I know low self-esteem, trust issues are common in a child with narcissistic parents. But, you can trust and love me, P'Kit Kat. Because I'll only trust your words and only love you till my last breath," I addressed my sincere confession.

"Since the moment that I have you, my world is much more beautiful than that time which I stand all alone. I want to let you know and listen, Phi. I don't have anything much thankful words for you who walked into my life. I love you, my P'Kit Kat."

"I love you, Nong," he replied as he hugged me tighter than before as he snuggled into my neck.

"Will you think I'm weird if I ask you something?" he asked with a now hoarse voice as he moved a bit further from my neckline.

"What is it, my P'Kit Kat?" I questioned him as I smiled at him.

"Can we stop by the mall? I didn't get the kids any gifts and didn't buy anything for my parents yet. Can we get that on the way?" he asked hesitantly.

"Ma(come), let's have breakfast at the nearby mall and go shopping for gifts," I assured him as I started to drive again.

'This is my P'Kit Kat. No matter how bad you treated him, he will always treat you well. My P'Kit is a pure soul. Now he is even cuter with a red nose. I'll protect him no matter what happens today.'



 

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After half an hour of gift hunting and another two hours of driving, we reached my family house. Ming parked the car in the garage while I got out of the car awkwardly. Only my elder sister knew about me bringing my faen. I didn't even let her know about the gender.

Ming gets our luggage out of the car as I stand there stiffly. P'Fei walked out of the house with m