Jessica Pov. 

After Sooyoung eat a lot of food today she decided to eat ice cream now, i mean she is a shikshin but the amount of food she's consuming is unbelievable and Yoona was here too I cannot stand her aegyo. When we are eating our dessert Sooyoung and Yoona start to talk about Love, like how would their first date will be or how would they feel if someone courting them and it is fun to see their reactions and their innocents squels and such. Months ago i deciced to confess my feelings for Taeyeon and it did'th turn out well and since then she's been avoiding me in all types of senario like when we are having breakfast for example 

Flashback 

"Sooyoung! I told you to not eat all the food! " Sunny said while holding the spatula in her hands, she is in charge for today's breakfast and without a minute or so the shikshin already finished her breakfast and want more

"B-but sunny I'am hungry so please can i have that toast " she said while pouting and whinning, sunny shakes her head but before she grab the toast to take away from sooyoung, sooyoung already snatch it and shoved that bread right to and the hell break loose 

"OH MY FREAKING SOOYOUNG I TOLD YOU NOT TO EAT THAT! YOU HAVE ALREADY FINISHED YOUR BREAKFAST! " Sunny said with intense high voice and I'm just watching them fight, the spatula sunny was holding became a flying spatula and hit sooyoung's head. 

" What's with the early commotion? " i heard hyoyeon's voice at my back and i casually said 

" Well, Sooyoungs eating habits made sunny insane " she laugh and sit beside me while eating her breakfast peacefully not caring about sooyoung's and sunny kitchen war. I was going to eat mine when suddenly Taeyeon walk behind 

"What are you doing Soo Sunny?" i can sense her leader voice unleashed and the other two stop whatever they doing

"Tae this creature finished the last toast! "

"Wha- you dont even said to me that was the last! "

"Becasue you shoved it to your mouth! " taeyeon just sighed to them, i gave her my toast because taeyeon loved toast bread in the morning, she just stare my hand and turn away from me 

"I will just skip breakfast now" she said coldly and return to her room, is she mad at me? this is the 5th time she avoid me it is because of my confession? 

" Sica, dont mind her maybe she's not hungry " hyoyeon said with a concerned voice, i just nod and continue my breakfast but deep inside it hurts. It hurts so much that the person you loved the most began to fade away. 

End of Flashback 

" Sica i been noticing you and tae became distance are you two okay? " i snap back to the reality and i noticed sooyoung worried expression 

" Unnie you okay? you've been spacing out lately " 

" I'am sorry you two is just many things happend but dont worry I'am alright " i said and continue to eat my ice cream that is melting 

"You can talk to us Sica, you are acting strange this couple months and "

" Soo I'am alright just...... give me time and me and taeyeon are okay dont worry " I feel a poision running through my throat when i say that are we okay? I'am sure not but i want us to be okay.

It is weekend and I dont have any schedule for the next two days so i decided to come home and just relax my mind, the other members are worrying about my actions these days because i messed up the dance practice and it is really rare that i messed up in dacing they all knew that i really loved dancing and it is easy for me to memorized the choreo and not making mistakes, manager oppa also worried so i need to take a break from her i hope that everything will be fine. As i stepped in to our house i saw my dad heading towards the kitchen 

" Dad " 

" Oh Jess you're here, what brings you to come home? is there any problem? " I shook my head signaling no but he did not fall for that, my dad and i has the same personality eventhough Krystal looked like dad and i looked like my mom but my personality comes from my dad we bottled up our feelings and wearing mask to other people 

" Dad it just, I've done something that i should not do and it slowly breaking me i-i dont know what to do " i said with teary eye, my dad rushed and hug me tightly and that makes me feel secured 

" Is it taeyeon again sweetie? is she been avoiding you again? " I nod 

"Jess maybe you should give her a break "

" A-a break? what do you mean dad? " 

" I mean you give her space, maybe she need that both of you need that space jess dont give yourself a hard time running towards someone that dont see your worth now sweetie. if you continue to sulk and keep pushing her buttons she will pushed you away. You need a rest Jess " 

" So i need to avoid her? "

" Avoiding someone cannot solve the problem, you need to learn from your mistakes "

" I cannot understand you dad "  

" Have limitations, learn to not be on her side anytime if she doesnt want you to be around the make a distance from her, maybe she need time to realize that you cared for her. " My tears are already falling and dad just held me tight in his arms, maybe he is right that i should have distance from her maybe she will hate me less if i do that.