Hi! This is Minah. Welcome to my blog.

(LOL I know though that I have no followers yet so…Arghh. Screw it)

Okay. Well, it’s better if no one reads this…

Here’s the story.

Kai’s my boyfriend. We’ve together for three years. We’ve had the same relationship as most of you would have had.

We’ve been through a lot of ups and downs. Most of the “downs” there are just childish stuff.

So what’s the big deal?

Well, my boyfriend has actually been training for a year now. At first it was very tough for the both of us since his company (SMEnt) doesn’t allow him to get into a relationship for various reasons. You know… “celebrity” stuff.

But yeah. We’ve lasted through a year and though we’ve had a lot of fights… we’re still good.

But he’s debuting soon. Actually, teasers for his group will start coming by the next two weeks.

I know it’s gonna get tougher now. Kai… he’s so sweet. He always asks me for my opinions… but I’m the one who lies.

I say I’m okay… but to be honest, I feel a lot of insecurities.

I’ve cried a lot about this just last night.

It’s not just about the crazy future fan girls.

To be honest, I think, he’s cheating on me.

Am I a bad girlfriend for thinking so harshly of my boyfriend? Is it just natural?

Well, I saw him once with Sulli last time.

Argh! Of course, it’s normal because they’re labelmates!

Oh. Maybe I’m just so insecure of her because I know deep inside that she’s a lot prettier than me.

I took a deep sigh after typing those words. To be honest, I’m a thousand, no, a million times hurt than I’ve expressed in that post. Whatever. No one’s gonna be able to read it anyway. Hahaha even if one person is gonna be able to read this, he’ll just consider me a delusional fangirl. Well.

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Dongwoon’s POV

“Arggh! So tiring! I’ll go to bed now.” Kikwang said.

“Okay.” I said. I’m so tired but I don’t want to sleep yet.

Such a boring life. What could be a more boring life than this? Practice all day then sleep for 5 hours max.

I got myself a glass of ice cold water and sat on the sofa. I reached for my laptop, the only “other” life I have. My hyungs don’t get why I use it a lot. Nothing. I just like the randomness my laptop has. Ahh. It keeps me from boredom. Okay. So… what do I type in today?

I’m done with crazy and erted fanfics. I don’t like them anymore. Same with 9GAG. Uhmm. I don’t wanna tweet right now. Yeah? Why not tweet my fans right now?

Nevermind. Girls? What about girls? Okay… Let’s type in “girls”.

Safe search is off! Hahaha. No. I don’t like. I erased it even before I was able to hit “enter”.

Uhmm. “Bad girls”

Haha. I’m so mean.

Whatever.

I hit enter.

“Woonie!” someone suddenly shouted so I closed the laptop instantly. I’m certain that the shock on my face looks so funny that I’d even want to laugh now.

“We’re gonna be up so early today so you better go to sleep early too.” That’s doojoon hyung.

“Yes. Hyung!”

Whew. What the hell. So I’ve waited for around a minute before I got back to my computer again.

Aish. I don’t like these anymore.

Instead, I typed in: “Heartbreaking stories”

I hit enter. Opened the links one by one, not reading anyone of them.

Long reads. I hate.

I typed a lot of words on and on… until.

I typed in “insecure girlfriend”

I don’t know why I typed it…