Message sent on November 13 2018.

I should probably start with an apology and trust me I am sorry but I think you owe us an apology too, you always helped us in dark times, why didn't you come to us for help? I could've helped, all you had to do was ask, am I that untrustworthy that you couldn't come to me? Was I a bad friend? The only thing I can think of is it's my fault, I'm a murderer and I started to believe that, I should have noticed sooner, you could be still alive now if I did, in a way it is my fault. I keep thinking that maybe the only way to be forgiven is to do the same thing, next time I too will go take a shower I won't come back. I need to see you, I need to apologize properly, I need to hear that you forgive me cause you always do, no matter how bad I was acting. I love you hyung, see you on the other side.