("Sure Seulgi let's go together, it would be better like that. And I heard Seungwan's friends would come too?")

I kept making myself occupied, just to get rid of those disgusting thoughts that non stop lingering my mind since some times ago.

("If I end it now, would you happy?")

I know, I should not have thoughts like that. I should not do that. So as I said earlier, making myself busy helps relieve the strain and ease up my mind. It kind of works, but,

("It keeps coming, Wan. What is wrong with me?")

There is always be something that triggers it back as like the wall I built with hard work collapsed with something small. Like when the time I feel all alone, those feelings would creep slowly all over me again, those empty feelings scattered on our-- this place makes those things came back.