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Sehun phone kept ringing. By the fifth call, Sehun mute his phone but the vibration won’t go off.
After Sehun could no longer keep up with the number, it stopped.

But Sehun phone flashes with incoming texts.

“Come down.”
“Please.”
“I know you’re there. The lights are still on.”
“I love you.”
“I love you. I can’t break up with you.”

Those texts came in one after one. Sehun did not pick up his phone to read them because his phone is right between Chanyeol and him and both of them can see clearly.

“Are you not going?”
“Where?”

“It’s not Sehun I know.”
“What do you mean?”
“The Sehun I know would be downstairs by now. He won’t leave his friend in the rain alone.”
“Kim Junmyun is not my friend.”
“While you were with him, did he not treat you well?”
“How could you be on his side? Did you not remember how you came home that day he dumb you?”
“He wasn’t heartless to me, Sehun. He was kind to me. It was the kindest he could do in that situation.”

“I should never have watched you do this. I should have made you listen no matter what.” Chanyeol said to himself while peeking through the window. The streetlight laminating on Junmyun is making Sehun dizzy.
Sehun wants to blame the rain. Why does it has to pour so hard?
Sehun blamed Junmyun. Why is he so stupid, not carry an umbrella with him in rainy season?

“I’m going.”
“What do you think you are doing?”
“I’m ending this. I’m ending this for me and for him. I need to do this. This is the last truth I could give.”

Just like that, Chanyeol slammed the door shut behind him to rush to Junmyun. Sehun with a black heart, he stared down towards the figure that was looking up to his room.

~
Junmyun can wait. He can wait if Sehun will comeback. Junmyun couldn’t think of things to text Sehun. He doesn’t know what he did.
It’s so sudden. But he still believed that Sehun loves him. Even if people call him stupid for believing such, he rather be a stupid.

When the door opened, Junmyun felt his heart came to alive. He wished to see Sehun running towards him with a pair of open arms. But, it wasn’t Sehun but it was someone he knew, once.

“Are you crazy?”
“Chanyeol?”
“It’s 10 degree. The rain is pouring down this hard, why are you standing here like crazy?”
“How did you come here? Did you live here?”
“I live with Sehun.”

It’s like a flash that enlightened Junmyun of everything. Suddenly, every single thing Sehun did coldly made sense. The excuses, the absent, and this…
“Where is Sehun?”
“Don’t you hear me? Don’t you understand this meaning? I live with Sehun since young. Sehun knew you are here, in the rain, alone. He won’t come down. You should go home.”

Every word coming out of Chanyeol is a torture. Harsh, colder than the rain and they stabbed him right in the heart.
“You’re trying to separate us, right? Sehun doesn’t know you. Sehun…”
Junmyun is soaked in rain. Chanyeol couldn’t see clearly if Junmyun is crying. He never wanted to hurt Junmyun, not like this.

“Sehun knew me, from the start. He knew about you and me. And he approached me. He didn’t love me. He played me, like a toy. He used my feelings to… revenge for you.” Junmyun looked at Chanyeol for confirmation but he already knew he is right.
“I never asked for this.” Chanyeol tried to take a hold of Junmyun’s lifeless body.
Junmyun pushed himself out of Chanyeol’s grip. He can’t believe this.
“What should I have done back then? What could I have? Should I just continue the lie?”
“I know. You did the right thing.” Chanyeol tried to pull Junmyun into the building. The rain just kept pouring heavier.
“I didn’t love you. Not like the way I love Sehun.” Chanyeol didn’t expect the hurt. A part of him still loves Junmyun.
“So you really did love Sehun.” Chanyeol decided he should also end his feelings for Junmyun. He is waiting for the time that those feelings will go away on itself.
“I still love him.” Junmyun looked up the building and he didn’t see anything. His eyes blurred with the rain. He smiled at himself. He hated rain. Here’s more to the reason to hate the rain.

Chanyeol was so stunned by the smile on Junmyun’s face. It looked like ‘acceptance’. He didn’t know Junmyun was capable of loving someone like this. Why Junmyun didn’t love him like this? It was a bitter thought.
“I called taxi for you, it’s here.” Chanyeol needed to take Junmyun home. But he knows Junmyun might want to be alone.
“Thank you. Is this for the umbrella?”

Chanyeol couldn’t answer. He wanted to say ‘no’. He wanted to declare his ‘feelings’ but what is the point? Junmyun is clearly in love with Sehun. He does not want to force his feelings on Junmyun again.
So Chanyeol nodded.
“I’m sorry.” Junmyun said the last time as he close the car door.
Chanyeol stood in the rain watching the car getting smaller in his sight. He went up when it’s no longer can be seen.

~
As soon as Chanyeol stepped in, Sehun asked.

“What did he say?” Sehun watched Chanyeol who is completely soak in rain.

“Why would you care?” Chanyeol says without looking at Sehun and he went straight to his room, slamming it shut.

Sehun could not understand why he was treated that way when all he did is for Chanyeol. He went to Chanyeol’s door, hitting with his fist.

“I get the revenge for you! You want this or not, I did this for you!”

“You don’t like this? Fine! GO GET BACK WITH HIM OR WHATEVER”

Sehun knew he don’t mean this. With the thought of Chanyeol getting back with Junmyun makes his stomach upset.

After that, the door opens. Chanyeol seemed to be drying himself cox he is shirtless.

“Really? I can get back with Junmyun?”

“No!”

“You don’t care about him, why does it matter?” Chanyeol smirked at the annoyed expression on Sehun. Chanyeol doubted before but now he knows. Sehun is not that emotionless.

“I care about you, not him. I don’t want you to fall for him again so that he can break your heart.”

“Whatever. I will take care of it. Get out!” Once again, the door was shutted in Sehun’s face. Sehun couldn’t say anything back. He doesn’t like the idea of Chanyeol getting back with Junmyun. He just doesn’t like it.

~

Sehun is not satisfied with anything. Every little thing annoyed him. He doesn’t get A at the latest quiz in class. He can’t focus. All he think about is that night. He wanted to ask Chanyeol if he meant what he said about getting back to Junmyun. But Sehun knew what will happen if he asked.

It’s like he admit that he cared.

Actually, he did care about Junmyun. But he can’t. After what Chanyeol suffered back then, he couldn’t be happy with Junmyun. He would call himself betrayer if he did that.

The coffee shop is not on the way but Sehun always go round about to pass by the shop. He passed quickly so that no one would recognize him. But he always peek inside from far. It’s been 5 days since that night and the shop has been closed.

Sehun couldn’t help but wonder what happened. Isn’t it normal reaction? People do wonder because people have a brilliant thing called ‘mind’. He has it.

Sehun doesn’t know why he is making a justification to think about Junmyun but that’s exactly what he is doing.

Sehun knows that he shouldn’t be here, peeking into the window with ‘close’ sign on. He just doesn’t feel good about this dark place. Sehun accidentally pushed the door as he was peeking. Sehun felt the terror as the door wasn’t locked. How could Junmyun be so careless? What if he’s robbed? What if he’s hurt? A lot of what-ifs came to Sehun’s mind as he pushed the door and went insides.

The place is dark but it’s familiar to Sehun. He just went straight to his office. But Sehun stopped. His heart dropped as he saw the small figure lying on the floor with no sign of movement.

“Jun”

Sehun quickly turn the body and saw Suho’s face. It was so white that it scared Sehun.

“Jun… Kim Junmyun!!! Open your eyes!!!” Sehun is now in panic. He yelled at Junmyun’s body. He only wants to know one thing. He put his ears on Junmyun’s chest and listen. He felt so relieved when he heard the small sound of heart beats. He quickly picked Junmyun in his hands.

“I’m taking you to hospital. Just, hang on.” Sehun murmured to Junmyun even though he can’t hear Sehun.

It was a torture trip to hospital. Junmyun is out. Every time Junmyun’s lips moved to say something, Sehun’s anxiety gets worse. He hates how pale Junmyun looks right now. He hates he didn’t check on him earlier. Sehun felt his hands and feet frozen when he thought what if he never checked on him. Sehun couldn’t help but blame himself.

There’s a big chance that he could be the reason behind this.

Sehun couldn’t shake the guilt off his chest when he reached the hospital and when they are shouting medical gibberish. The guilt stabbed him like a sharp knife when one of the doctors said his breathing is getting poor.

He never felt this useless before standing in front of Junmyun’s bed not being able to do anything for him.

But everyone clears out. One of the doctor approached him for patient information but he knows nothing.

“I’m just a passerby. I don’t know him. I’m sorry.”

Sehun left the hospital. He gave Chanyeol a call because he doesn’t know what to do.

“What’s wrong? Are you running?”

Sehun was running out of breath. He doesn’t even realize he has been crying till he try to speaks. He can’t speak.

“Hyung…”

“Sehun? What happened?”

“I am… Junmyun is hospitalized.”

“What? Where are you right now?” Sehun knows Chanyeol is already sitting up. He quickly told him the hospital. He tried to stop crying but he can’t. He doesn’t know what he said on the phone and or what he said when Chanyeol arrived.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. All my fault. All my fault.”

Sehun remembered apologizing to Chanyeol. He was sent home. He is not in his right mind. His head is filled with memories of Junmyun. How Junmyun used to smile at him and his jokes. How they used to cuddle after . All those sweet memories are haunting him. Sehun can’t get up from wherever he is.

It is dark.

It doesn’t matter if it were day because all he see is darkness around him.

He looked up when the door opened.

“Junmyun is okay.” Chanyeol speaks as soon as he met eyes with Junmyun.

“The doctor says he was dehydrated and malnourishment but they are giving him a lot of injections.” Chanyeol sit just next to Sehun.

“How did you find him?”

Sehun shook his head. He couldn’t answer. Not because he’s afraid to let Chanyeol knows of his feelings for Junmyun. But because he is afraid to go back to that moment. It was the most terrified moment of his life. The image of Junmyun lying on the floor, white and lifeless is… the one thing he never want to see again.

“Doctors said, you found him late two more days and he’s goner. Don’t be hard on yourself. You did good.”

Sehun shook his head