By the time Taehyung even realized what the hell he had said, his whole body felt numb all over. He is kinda used to it nowadays, the numb feelings of his own body. Sometimes Taehyung just can't seem to understand what is it but he couldn't say much either. 

"Kooks, I--"

Taehyung tried to get back to his old self, he did say some spiteful things towards the one he tried so hard to protect. But when the younger had slapped his hands away from him, Taehyung knows what has been done can never be undone. Not now.

Not ever.

"Just do whatever you want, Tae.."

Taehyung felt that his whole existence just got lost along with everything. His heart had been broken before but hearing those words said to his face is much much more hurting than just seeing. 

For the first time in Kim Taehyung's life, the guy that he loves the moat had left him. 

Taehyung tried to walk, trying to make it okay but Jungkook running into the rain and his heavy body wouldn't let him chase the kid.

Taehyung could feel his tears coming out, the last time he had stand underneath the rain it had been Jungkook who calls him back to underneath the roof. 

This time no one is gonna call him back.

"What have I done?"

Screams Taehyung underneath the rain, the pain so agonizing for anyone who hears it. The tears had mixed with the rain, all falling down to his cheeks. Not wanting to stop. 

He wants it to stop. So badly.