this wonho was scary.

 

I didn't dare to get closer to him after those words.

 

I prayed that changkyun comes back sooner.

 

my nightmares started again.

 

I was waking up with my own screams.

 

I was tired..

 

I was sick of everything.

 

I didn't want to sleep anymore.

 

I was drinking coffee more not to fall asleep.

 

I was scared.

I was just..scared..

 

***

 

I put my blanket on my feet to cover my frozen feet.

 

I took some pills for my flu.

 

I was getting cold soon but this time was worse.

 

when I was sick changkyun was here with me..by my side..

 

I needed him.

 

wonho didn't care about my anyway.

 

I couldn't anymore..

 

I stood up to go to the hospital but my feet didn't even help me and I fell on the floor.

 

I cursed myself and stood up again.

 

my feet were shaking.

 

should I ask wonho to help me?

 

does he care?

 

does he help me?

 

I won't ask him.

 

I called changkyun even if I knew he was sleep.

 

"who is it?"he asked sleepy.

 

"changkyun-ah.where are you?"I asked and put the key to unlock the door.

 

"oh hyung..why did you call at the midnight??"he asked again.

 

"I-I..I need your help."I hummed.

 

"is there something wrong??"he asked anxiously.

 

"I'm dying..can you co-"

 

before I finish my sentence I hit the floor by someone.

 

I looked at wonho shocked in the darkness.

 

he was taking my wrists and pressed them on the floor.

 

"what are you doing?"he asked.

 

I hated him being this cold..

 

"n-nothing."I said scared.

 

he didn't say anything more and stared at me.

 

"your body is warm."he whispered.

 

"I wanted to go out but-"

 

"why now?"he asked.

 

"I needed..some pills.."I said.

 

I felt his eyes shone.

 

did I make a mistake or his eyes really shone??

 

"Y-Your eyes.."I said shocked.

 

he put his hand on his eye.

 

"you saw it.huh?"he asked.

 

"lets finish your nightmares or..start it again."he smirked.

 

I was going to ask him what but he put his hand on my cheek.

 

I felt warmth and..

 

something passed from my eyes.

 

was that..my memory?

 

why do I see everything that happened to me in the past?

 

I was drowning..

 

someone helped me..

 

it didn't finish like my dreams..

 

it continued..

 

someone grabbed my hand..

 

that warmth..

 

and I saw his face..

 

wonho?

 

why was he there?

 

why should he be there?

 

I saw him with a smirk in front of me.was he a monster?

 

why do I feel broken?

 

why do I feel pain?

 

"You finally remembered.I was sick of playing with a kid."he said coldly.

 

I couldn't handle.

 

I slapped him as hard as I could.

 

"you.."he looked at me shocked.

 

I know he was so mad but what about me?wasn't I important?

 

"was I too simple for you to play with?"I asked.

 

I could feel like burning in fire.

 

I couldn't handle this limit of the heat.

 

my tears were falling without any hesitation and marking my cheeks as a red line.

 

"Why did I even trust you?"I asked.

 

I wanted to yell..

 

I still had many things to tell him but..

 

I lost my consciousness and everything disappeared around me..