2.0 

  セレブ愛 / hush, it's a secret — story started.
EPISODE 2.0
+ KI NOTES
i hope that by saying i'll update this once every 2-3 days and putting that out into the universe will really make me do this. anyway idk if i should add a character's page since i have a small brain so let me know if i should i guess! this chapter is too long for it's own good and with the deadline for my proposals coming soon iwtd but at least i'm having fun writing this and coming up with ideas so thank you all for coming up with such fun characters to write about!! nobody asked but the way i arranged your ocs in the forward is based on age with woobin being the oldest and won being the youngest! i'm also trying my best to follow your love interest's real life schedule as close as possible so if i get anything wrong do let me know and i'll see what ... i can do (thank you svt for coming back in january)!! if there are any typos or grammar errors in this please forgive me but anyway yes i hope this chapter was alright!!
+ Jan 21, 2019
jian had a feeling this the next 3 months would be extremely challenging. the last film she was assigned to as the assistant cinematographer was I can speak and at least that was set in south korea. the production company she was under, little big pictures, attached her to a film that would be set in otaru, japan. and as much as she loved going to japan (to visit her brother and for the beautiful scenery), going there for work was a different story. the filming for moonlit winter began yesterday and jian was half dreading to fly to japan so soon. she knew the rationale behind why the head cinematographer wanted her on the team. jian was relatively fluent in japan and was well known in her company for always going to japan.  it'd be nice to have her boyfriend send her off but unfortunately, her boyfriend was also probably waiting for his flight from santagio to los angeles. 
the thing about filming winter-setting films was that global warming was a and jian wasn't sure if it would even snow in otaru (spoiler alert: it did). her role for the film was mainly to ensure that the environment in japan would cooperate with her as well as to scout venues and ensure that the setting in japan would be good. as she waited for her flight, jian began sketching what seemed to be her millionth sketch of her boyfriend.
"you're an exo-l?" she heard one of the staff member ask from beside her. it was one of the younger girls  kwon soobin  jian remembers. jian knew soobin was going to be one of the hair and makeup artist for the actresses and judging from her appearance, jian figured that soobin was probably 20.
"oh, uhm..." jian stutters. she doesn't normally stutter so she doesn't understand why that question evoked this response. "i guess i am."
soobin, obviously excited that amidst all the middle-aged men and women going on the flight with them, there was jian. "who's your bias!"
the question sounded more like a demand but jian figured the girl probably just really loved exo. now the problem was: does she say baekhyun's her bias. does she even have a 'bias' in exo?
"i think all of them are pretty cool and their voices blend in together really well."
"oh my bias is chanyeol! do you think you could draw him for me after you're done with baekhyun's one?"
jian looks down to her drawing of baekhyun. she's only sketched out his face and soobin already seemed to know who she was drawing. she didn't want to toot her own horn but she was a good drawer. 
"i could actually start right now if you'd like." jian offers the younger girl a smile. she's never drawn chanyeol before despite the latter's continuous request. it wasn't that jian didn't want to draw chanyeol. it was that she lacked inspiration (both sentences were a lie but she wasn't going to tell chanyeol that). wanting to draw her boyfriend's pictures should only be normal. but since her colleague was requesting a chanyeol photo, jian figured she could do just that. 
just she opened her photo gallery on her phone to find a picture of chanyeol, jian felt soobin's eyes on her phone screen and reacted by immediately panicked and clicking onto the lock bottom. 
"what's wrong?" soobin asked, her eyes looking at jian's now-locked phonescreen.
there was no way jian could say that if you look at my photo albums closely, there's a whole album titled my sunshine that's filled with baekhyun and i. so instead, jian opted for: "i realised i don't have any photos of chanyeol in my phone." she also added a sheepish and apologetic smile in hopes that it would cover up her earlier panicked reaction.
"eyy, so baekhyun's your bias, right?" soobin chuckled before taking out her own phone and showing jian a photo of chanyeol during the tempo era. "this photo, please?" interally, jian made a mental note to text chanyeol that silver hair made him look old. jian was also thankful that soobin didn't press further on the issue. 
shrugging, jian turned to a fresh page on her sketchbook, "i guess you could say baekhyun's my favourite." 
 
meanwhile, won had forced his best friend, seulbi, to watch seventeen's latest music video. their class at the korean academy of film arts (kafa) would end the same time home would be released but won needed to watch it the moment it was released. so, using the excuse "i have urgent matters to attend to", won packed his things and asked seulbi to be there for moral support. seulbi remembers when oh my came out and won had violently (won says it was more passionate than it was violent) screamed in her face saying that the whole song was a masterpiece. still, seulbi wanted to give him the benefit of doubt: maybe this time round he wouldn't scream and exaggerate every time minghao came on screen. maybe seulbi was a little wrong: instead of just screaming when minghao appeared, won continued to squeal about his boyfriend even when he wasn't on the screen.
"bro did you ing hear that?? pledis is finally giving my boy lines can you ing believe this", "he looks so good in orange please remind me to get him to wear orange more oh dear." 
won rated the whole song and video a solid ten out of ten. it wasn't just because his boyfriend was inside (won swears he isn't that biased) but the film student inside of him allowed him to appreciate the cinematographer and the setting of the film. 
"if seventeen doesn't win a daesang for this im suing," won declares before hitting the replay button once again.
"suing who? you have 1,200 won in your bank account right now," seulbi retorts as she rolls her eyes.
"rude. you're just jealous that the xu minghao is my boyfriend and you're sad, single and alone," won huffs but he can't stay mad for long when he sees minghao's face on the screen.
"for someone who isn't out yet, you sure are confident saying that you're dating an idol." in response, won pauses the video and stars point blank into seulbi's eyes. 
"i came here to support him," won says as he gestures to the screen, "and i'm honestly feeling so attacked right now."
"aw, is won angry?" seulbi nudges his arms, "you know i'm just kidding bubs."
"if you don't tell me this is the best thing you've ever seen in your life im blocking you from line, kkt and everything that exists. ever." his nose scrunches before he presses the play button again. the irritation dissipates when the song resumes. 
"this is the best thing i've ever seen in my life. now when can you get me seventeen's fanmeet tickets."
"maybe never since i have 1,200 won in my bank account." won replies pettily.
seulbi shakes her head at her best friend. she's happy for him, really. won's ex-boyfriend treated him like trash and she knows won deserves so much better. but was minghao so much better? truth was: she hasn't met minghao in person yet. her friend's boyfriend was always too busy to do anything. she just hoped that won was happy and that minghao would keep him happy.
 
another person supporting the comeback was elaine moon. unlike won who watched the video at 6pm korean time, elaine was watching the video at 1am in los angeles. she started drowning herself in pointless youtube videos at 9pm in an attempt to keep herself awake. it didn't work very well given that it was her routine to be watching videos on her phone at 9pm but she tried it out anyway. maybe if pledis had decided to release the music video at 12am kst then elaine wouldn't find it so difficult to watch joshua's music video.
there was something about watching joshua through her tiny phone screen that stirred up a strange feeling in her. she's known joshua all throughout her childhood. he was quiet, shy, wholesome and in general just a good christian boy. slightly awkward, definitely not as good looking as he was in the video she just watched.
she never thought joshua would ever end up as an idol. but she was definitely proud of him for finally doing something for himself. her parents always thought joshua would end up as a teacher or a doctor or something just super generic. he never really talked to her about his big dreams while they were friends. the news came when they were just friends and when joshua told her about it, it wasn't a i-need-your-opinion. it was just joshua informing her.
if you'd ask elaine in her high school years if she ever imagined being joshua hong's girlfriend, she'd probably have laughed and said 'joshua? he's just a bro.' but things have changed and she would proudly say that she was dating hong jisoo (saying that she was dating seventeen's joshua was slightly nerve-wrecking). 
when the video ended, elaine found a huge smile plastered on her face. joshua sure has grown up, elaine thought to herself. she remembers the nights when joshua would strum his guitar and sing sunday morning rain is falling just for the two of them. but now, joshua sings for millions of fans to hear his voice. a pang of jealousy set in. 130am really wasn't a good time to be feeling this way. 
in the back of her mind, she can hear joshua telling her that if there's anything wrong, she has to let him know asap. and she did.
hey good job on your music video!
you did really well
i'm so proud of you
haha thanks! i'm surprised you've watched it at this hour
isn't it almost 140am in la?
of course i'll watch the video!
i'm literally your number one fan
and you're my favourite fan 💕
oh god you're so cheesy
as your number one fan could i ask you for a favour?
anything for you
send me an audio of you singing sunday morning, maybe?
what elaine wasn't expecting was joshua's name on her screen, asking her to accept a call. 
"why can't i see your face?" elaine could see joshua frowning slightly through the screen. bless the lord for facetime.
"my lights are off, you wouldn't be able to see me even if i my front camera."
"fair enough." the two stayed in silence for a while and elaine took in joshua's surroundings from whatever the phone screen was willing to show.
she noticed the mirrors and the grey walls and, while she's never seen the pledis practice room before, she was pretty sure he was in the said practice room. he was wearing a sleeveless black shirt and sweatpants and elaine figured he was busy at practice. 
"you're practicing right now?"
"yeah, our comeback stage is in two days and i can't wait. the boys and i have been practicing real hard."
"i'll be sure to watch that too."
"but you need to sleep."
"i'll manage."
elaine had also noticed that the room was completely empty. 
"you wanted me to sing sunday morning?" joshua knew something was wrong. though they were miles apart, he just had this intuition that elaine wasn't feeling okay. he's known her for forever (since 2004 to be exact) and also knew that elaine wasn't to wear her heart on her sleeve. she often kept things to herself so joshua was glad she was willing to text him.
without waiting for elaine's response, joshua began singing. s went to eat dinner together to celebrate and just as he was about to leave, he received elaine's text. coming up with a shady response of 'uh yall go ahead, i'd practice a bit more', joshua took the chance to talk to his girlfriend.
he missed her. he really did. and all he could hope for was that she knew how much he couldn't wait to see her again. 
 
sujin really wasn't having it. it was 9am in the morning she was minding her own business, sketching on her notepad while the professor was droning on about colour palettes or something when she received a phone call from minju. sujin really didn't mind minju calling her but she did find it odd that minju was calling her when sujin was in class. so, when minju began the call with, "i need you to bail me out", sujin wanted to stab her best friend in the eye and leave her to die in the prison cell. sujin apologetically stood up and explained to the professor that she had something urgent to attend to before rushing out. 
when sujin reached the police station, the officer at the counter directed her to a room on the second floor while she waited. sujin felt like 5 hours had passed by and she was sure she could've used that time to do something better (read: 10 minutes passed) when she heard the door click open. she was ready to shout, "you ing i was in class" but her sentence was cut short to only shouting the first three words because she realised it wasn't minju that entered. it was a really tall and young officer that stepped in. sujin reminded herself to shame seongwu for being so tiny later on when she left the place.
"good morning, miss sujin."
her high school freshman vibes kicked in and sujin swore this officer could be an idol. if he was in produce 101 season 2, sujin would have voted for the officer instead.
"i'm officer son hakjoon and i just have a few questions for you."
no matter how good looking hakjoon was, the reminder that her best friend had found a way to up and end up in a police office made her scowl.
"look, minju is really dumb. she's dumber than me. whatever she did wrong was probably an accident and she didn't mean it."
"so you're admitting that miss. kim minju carried these with her in her bag?" hakjoon continued and threw a small bag of white powder on the table.
"she doesn't want to give us her source because she said she didn't do it. but you're telling me otherwise."
it took a while for sujin to realise that the bag of power wasn't flour and that it was a bag of for sujin to utter a "what the " under her breath.
"oh god uhm..." sujin was never at a lost of words and liked to take charge of situations. so this feeling was unsettling. it didn't help that the officer in front of her seemed to know everything that he was saying. her approximately 5 years of trying to be an adult didn't help her for this situation.
meanwhile, hakjoon thought he was this close to cracking a case of a drug dealer here in seoul. so, when he received a call at 4 in the morning saying that a lady was high in the club, hakjoon immediately went down. and when he searched her bag, the feeling of hitting jackpot and accomplishing this made him feel extremely proud. he missed so much chances to spend time with eunji and if the case closed, hakjoon would definitely treat her to some beef.
still, hakjoon couldn't help but feel like something was odd. the drug test didn't test positive for and when minju half-sobered up, she seemed very adament that she didn't do it. all hakjoon needed was the lady sitting in front of him to affirm that minju did to become closer to closing the case.
but the lady in front of him didn't seem to know what minju was up to either.
"if i know anything about my friend.. is that she doesn't do drugs. was she drunk when you found her?" sujin asked, trying her absolute best to save her friend from ending up behind bars. she was starting to regain her sense of 'i need to have the last say' and wasn't going to lose to the intimidating officer.
"yes, she was. i got a call saying she was high and causing a disturbance."
"yeah and it's probably because she downed more tequila than her pathetic body could handle. maybe someone had put that in her bag? have you thought of that officer son." sujin deadpanned. she really just wanted to leave the room and go back to class. it wasn't that she loved attending school: she just hated being in the police station more.
running his hand through his black hair, hakjoon couldn't help but sigh in frustration. he knew he shouldn't let his emotions show in front of the person he interrogates but he couldn't help it. all he wanted to close the case but that seemed to be impossible.
"hey relax buddy. i'm sure you'll find the guy one day." sujin contemplated between saying nothing and reassuring the officer and decided on the latter. the officer seemed like he was just doing his best and her stupid friend was ing things up (for both herself and the officer). sujin also didn't know if using the word 'buddy' was the correct term for an officer but she wouldn't mind being his friend.
"let my friend go, alright? how much is the bail?" sujin asked, ready to leave the hell-hole.
"actually, could i ask your friend for a favour?" the gears in his head were churning and hakjoon didn't process whatever sujin just told him.
"sure, i guess. do you want her number or something. she's single and looking for a boyfriend." sujin responded. she knew the officer would let minju go and if her friend could finally get a boyfriend like hakjoon, maybe she'd stop killing her liver.
"sorry but i already have a girlfriend," hakjoon didn't know why he just said that. it just came out naturally. sujin raised an eyebrow at the officer (of course he's taken. just look at him, sujin thought) and the latter responded by clearing his throat and continuing with what the favour was. 
"i need your friend to help with the case."
 
it felt unreal for seokjin to be sitting right in front of him. his boyfriend had just came back from the love yourself tour in Singapore and was back in seoul again.
"you're zoning out again," seokjin commented, a look of concern flashing across seokin's face.
"it's nothing much, work was kinda tiring i guess." woobin shrugged as he shoved another slice of chicken into his mouth. woobin would never tell seokjin but he was an amazing cook. it was nice having seokjin around to cook dinner because woobin often drowned himself in work that eating only came when he remembered.
it also felt weird being busier than his boyfriend. normally, seokjin was always away for months on tour or hiding in the bighit practice or recording rooms. this time round, it was woobin who found himself in the office drawing the decorations for sets for the countless of commercials he was currently working on. it would be nice to think of production designs for movies but right now, woobin figured this was good enough for him.
"look at you, being so hardworking. i think you deserve a kiss." 
woobin remembers the first time they kissed and how his reaction was uncalled for. if maybe woobin had punched his boyfriend in the face, then seokjin definitely wouldn't use a kiss as a prize every chance he got (not that woobin minded, it was just slightly embarrassing every time he thought of it). but no. instead woobin had responded to their first kiss so passionately that if he could turn back time he would have hid his tongue back into his mouth.
"kiss my . can you just eat your dinner in peace, please." woobin sighed and took another bite of his food.
"sure, i wouldn't mind kissing your ," seokjin replied nonchalantly which resulted in woobin choking on his food. he couldn't believe seokjin just said that.
"if you didn't cook such good food for me i probably wouldn't have fallen for you," woobin mumbles, knowing clearly that it was a lie. the cooking was a bonus. in part, woobin fell for how persistant seokjin was while the latter pursued him. he was scared and still hurt from his previous relationship and if kim ing seokjin wasn't the cause of the breakup, things might have been different. 
but for an idol and for how packed seokjin's schedule was, woobin appreciated how he was always on his boyfriend's mind. 
"hmm, if you say so." seokjin replied with a smile. he didn't want to be cocky but he was pretty sure he knew woobin inside out. and he knew how much woobin loved him even if woobin rarely said it. 
in the few moments where woobin has uttered an 'i love you', seokjin makes it a point to remember those moments and to cherish it. seokjin would do anything to make sure woobin remained smiling. he hated seeing woobin cry and was glad that aside from the times woobin was extremely jealous of any interaction he had with a female idol, he has kept his promise of making woobin the happiest boy in the world.
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yoonoh
#1
Chapter 14: all the free stuff won is snatching left and right....... HELLO? I AM JUST TRYING TO DATE A KPOP IDOL HERE? n the way he emphatized with intl fans like? UHM ALLY? won is our COMRADE. also their dynamics as friends!!!!! always love a good push/pull *__* seulbi acting all cynical with the entire kpop system but would equally her pants once seventeen comes out on stage [clinks glass] it’s all about the in denial. ALSO...... IS THAT............. ELAINE???????????????????? ELAINE??????? (op has, yet again, chosen to cry) we want non celebrity partner solidarity...... we want NON CELEBRITY PARTNER SOLIDARITY NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BRING IN CHENS FIANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (and also by now i mean take ur time <3 its all about the slowburn)

also help..... TAEHYUNG AND JIN KISSJWKWKKFLFFFLFFFFLLLFLFJFJWFHJD This is 2019. Taehyung Is Accused Of Potentially Home Wrecking A Member’s Relationship. He Just Wants To Snuggle In Peace. also woobin is unexpectedly soooo endearing like he’s all tough n chic but then u remember he’s passive aggressive n gets unnerved by v and jin kiss?! articles like it all makes sense........ jin bagged a charmer and we respect him for it. but also appease ur boyfriend HARDER JIN! TRY HARDER! "platonic" is the new "it’s not you, it’s me" :-/

n here they are.... the purest, sweetest, Most Wholesome n Unadulterated Even Tho The Circumstances They Started With Weren’t The Most Ideal Or Were Ideal At all. i think my favourite thing about these two is how both are ironically unselfish esp when it comes to each other like given the chance hakjoon wouldn’t be the most happy about eunji coming over at o’ clock amidst draining preparations but he would probably do the same thing (& vice versa) and neither could really complain bc they missed (and LOVE!????) each other that much!!! (also hakjoon always make it a point to enumerate The Best Things About Eunji in every of his narration like hes just so filled w love and love and appreciation and his entire purpose is to extol her very existence and UGHHHHHHH NOT ALLLLL MENNNNNNNN) but also.... who de feck is trying to harm eunji again you in DONKEYS

thank u for updating (again)!!!! *____* it’s always such a ~beyond pleasant surprise seeing the Newly Updated Fic! notif pop out and seeing ur fic on top the list like FFFFFFFFFFFFFFF....... THIS IS WHAT LOVE FEELS LIKE. WHIPLASH AND A LIMITLESS SUPPLY OF SATISFACTION. thank you soooo much again! also regarding re-opening the fic for dynamic’s sake, it’s up to you as long as u know it’s possible n won’t demand as much and will also benefit outside the dynamic criteria!!!!! whichever, know that we’ll always be supporting!
tadhana-
#2
Chapter 14: aaaaa i love this chapter!! you portrayed woobin's jealousy perfectly and his thoughts about taehyung :--) i'm happy with this and i also enjoyed reading the snippets of hakjoon and won !! tbh won's and seulbi's friendship are goals HHAHAHA
seungjjang
#3
Chapter 14: it's the boys squad chapter!!
won is so cute :( i can't imagine how much cuter he'll get when he's with minghao uwu
the struggle of overseas fans tho asdghjkl--ALSO maybe it's just me but i feel like we might know the girl with joshua hong banner :))) a big maybe tho hehe
woobin and seokjin is the definition of fluff!! i love how their endings are always fluffy after the little tug-of-war they get through lol thank god for jin being the bf who prioritize woobin's happiness :')
hakjoon wondering how he could ever get together with someone like eunji--that's definitely my boy :" eunji taking the small amount of time out of her busy schedules to see him ;; the ending tho, OMG i hope they'll be okay!!

about opening the fic for a while...i guess that's all up to you? if you think you can handle more characters then i guess why not? hehe
sirius-
#4
Chapter 13: i failed to noticed that elaine was in this chapter, pardon me and excuse my lack of comments! being a highschool senior *looks at the amount of exams i have left*

elaine and joshua’s part was definitely spot on! and yes, joshua, you singing sunday morning is music to elaine’s ears and mine as well. her character was potrayed so well here and i love how she feels about him. and yes, elaine, if i were you, i’d also be happy for joshua.

excited to see more updates from you!
busans #5
Chapter 14: <span class='smalltext text--lighter'>Comment on <a href='/story/view/1323069/14'> 2.5 </a></span>
i have failed to comment on the previous chapters kdjshfa sobbles but trust me when i say i read all and i loved every! single! one! of! them!!!! all these cute couples have different personalities I'M LIVING FOR THIS.

okay but it's funny how there hasn't been any interactions between won and minghao yet but i'm already so hyped up fr their story!!! i absolutely LOVE LOV E LOVE seulbi and won's friendship!! seulbi's bluntness vs won's sassy remarks !!! i love their banter,, i envisioned their friendship to be like this so thank YOU for making it come alive uwu their entire short section had me lmaoing about the nicknames and secrecydsjfkhs and won being minghao's no.1 fan!!!! YES!! YOU GO MY BOY. SUPPORT YOUR MAN.

oh my god i love woobin and seokjin's rs sjdkhfj jin knowing every single thing about his man and notices every small detail about him is so damn sweet we stan a caring bf!!! but woobin's jealousy is so understandable like... all the skinship between idol groupmates and their groupmates just being too damn handsome for their own good sobs woobin babie i still have your back ilu <3 <3 <3

hakjoon being paranoid about the figure in the station and even taking his taser JDSKHFJASD. eunji's so sweet and thoughtful?! like. sweetie you're the one pulling all-nighters with your practices you're too good for this world. oof but the part about how 'this is something people will never know about idols' hit! me!!! right THERE. like it's so true how we'll never know their true and complete sides of their personalities. BIG OOF!!! and what a way to end the chapter,, does this mean their rs is going to be revealed soon with someone following her and stuff?! we shall wait to find out...

also this is too long of a comment but can i just say that i'm so mf thankful that you're continuing with this story?! so many stories don't ever make it past the reviews stage and many don't come to life so thank you so much for putting the effort to write short snippets like this. please don't ever feel entitled or pressured to post anything because we'll appreciate any sort of update from you, whenever!!! thank you so so so mf much :( all the best with your assignments and take care babie <3

ps also i am ONE YEAR LATE I'M SOS ORRY DSJHFSDJ but i realised i haven't done the second app thing? ?? for won and minghao... but do you still want it to be submitted... i'm so sorry about that babe i didn't know and failed to realise there was a follow up app to be done sobs ;;;;;
busans #6
oh my god i've been so inactive here i rlly apologise;;;; life has been a to me and the past few months haven't been the easiest but i'm glad i finally have the time to come back on wow & i'm so glad you decided to go through with this story and that you're still writing uwu
gonna be catching up on the chapters now (although i just read half of 0.5 and everything about this is so mf CUTE and fluff I LOVE IT TO BITS!!!!!)
looking forward to your future updates and happy new year! <3
seungjjang
#7
Chapter 13: the first thing that came to my mind was "what if soobin is a chanbaek shipper" lmao
the whole things is just so cute AND i can relate to seventeen comeback,, Home was an amazing comeback to start 2019
i really loved how every part has different kind of distinct emotions that stands out btw! that's what i felt anyway ;) i really enjoyed it hehe

also! i won't be changing much or anything major like a change of fc and love interest (unless you think i should :)), but i might rework his app a bit, make the flow of their story better!
tadhana-
#8
Chapter 13: SCREECHES THIS IS TOO ING CUTE
sirius-
#9
Chapter 12: EVERYONE, YOUR PREVIEWS/INTROS ARE KILLING ME, yall made such lovely characters, i’m getting attached.

i’m squealing, getting angry and uwu-ing with the characters. i’m loving the writing style and the relationships. elaine and joshua’s preview was spot on, plus i lol-ed at jasper’s words because jasper is jasper lmao. can’t wait for more content yass < 3

happy holidays!
tadhana-
#10
Chapter 12: sCREECHES I AINT GONNA LIE BUT I LITERALLY SQUEALED AT READING WOOBIN AND SEOKJIN'S SHORT PREVIEW/INTRODUCTION HSIJFDEWLFGR I REALLY CANT WAIT FOR THE FIRST CHAPTER, I WISH YOU LUCK AND TYSM FOR THE UPDATE !!

also i snorted at won's thoughts about how tf minghao or even seventeen managed to dance like they are rn bc mOOD