It's been a hard two days

My best friend passed away

She was fourteen

I haven't seen her in two years face to face, only talked to her online, but now all I want to do is to hug her and know she's there

But she never will be

I miss her so much it hurts

When someone is there, you never really care much, thinking that they'll always be there and you don't need to worry much. But when they're gone, you regret too late

I went to her service yesterday

It's like she hasn't aged a day since the last time I saw her a year ago

It's like she's sleeping, and then she'll wake up and smile when I call out

But's she's lying in a cold coffin, and flowers are arranged around her cold body

Her glasses are gone, but she still looks the same

When her birthday passed a few weeks ago, I never even said happy birthday

My hands are shaking as I type this out

When I wrote this story so long ago, I never imagined I'd be in this place 

On the 11th of February 2018, I lost a best friend who never stopped loving me, even when I gave her the cold shoulder, ignored her, pushed her away

I lost a dear, caring sister who never stopped missing me, even when I was far away in another state

I lost someone who called me a best friend

But I never said the same, not in person, and now I will never have that chance

To everyone who read this, take this as a sincer