Prologue:

Blinding lights, thousands of fans screaming, it rings in my head though I don’t want to see all of this. It’s terrifying to see the huge screen in front of me. I don’t expect too much, we don’t expect to win. My heart is too much of a fright to me even. I don’t know what to see, what to hear, I just need to…focus.

Focus, focus Min Yoongi..

“Artist Of The Year goes to…..”

I didn’t know I held my breath for too long at that moment all I know is someone announced that we won. I was curious, nervous and anxious at the same time. The members seem like it’s all new to them, for me it is, it just didn’t cross in our heads that we will win. My heart was pounding as we went up the stage, everything is such a blur. Namjoon delivered a good speech but I didn’t really catch all the words he was saying. All I know is we did it- we did this…again without even knowing we won. We captured everyone. I was a taken back, Taehyung and Jungkook were behind me almost teary eyed to the point they duck down their faces. Jimin is hiding his face with his small hands, although his eyes say otherwise. Namjoon is a strong leader per say, he didn’t stumble on his own words though I caught a tear stuck in his eyes ready to fall. Jin was looking around trying not to look at everyone’s faces, Hoseok tries to keep a straight but a bright façade on him, I didn’t budge though because he’s too good to hide it.

Me…? I just looked around. My heart is still beating too fast at this point. The crowd is blurry that’s funny as well to me, as if I’m only going to search for someone out there in the crowd, but somehow I did looked around. Seokjin was beside me and I was trying to hide my face at that moment.

“Thank you, we will continue to deliver great performances and deliver a great message on our platform that we make. And ARMY!!! Thank you so mu-“

All of it was a blur. The minute I found myself sobbing for a bit, Hoseok hugged me and mutter words I didn’t quite hear. Jungkook was crying like a baby and I couldn’t blame him, we grew up basically half of our lives to struggle like this and of course now that we made it, it only makes me more anxious what the future holds.

“Thank you, we will always be there, and we will be thankful! ARMY’S!!”

Namjoon’s voice was shaking, while I try my vision to look around and try to search for someone, I don’t know how, when or why, but I knew I saw someone amongst the crowd as we leave the stage and try to recollect my thoughts and how it still so fresh how the night was suddenly so fast to me. The shouts still ring inside my head, it won’t die down for some reason, and it makes me feel giddy, nervous even.

“Hyung we really did it, thank you... We’ve been through this ever since.” Namjoon is crying for sure and I was too, the moment I saw him clutching that trophy made me realize the past that somehow comes back at me as a painful memory.

“Thank you,” I said, tears still streaming down I didn’t know I was crying, or even how the kids look at us and Namjoon. All I knew is that we did it, we’re standing here mostly on the stage we dreamt of, with fans who supports us from the very start. This was an unimaginable moment.

“Hyung, you said you wouldn’t cry!” we joked around a few times, but I was so nervous, only laugh emptily and wipe my tears. Namjoon was ruffling Jimin’s hair, the latter is glowing and crying his eyes out the same time. These kids, will always be the same even in such awards like these. I’m glad… we always talked about this for some time.

We went back to the stage and leave as per usual, fans are still there with banners and light sticks, I couldn’t help but think of a person suddenly appearing inside my mind. Somehow for the past few weeks that person didn’t leave. I wonder what I did on my past life to see her almost every day in my thoughts.

We went back to our seats after we went backstage, and it’s weird cause I still feel a little bit nervous, looking around I try to see if everyone is still here but…

There she is…

I don’t know, maybe because I needed more sleep, or I cried too much accepting the award, it always happens to me how I look at a certain place and everyone is blurry. I can’t see them but I see one person among the crowd, she was laughing, her eyes lit up so much I couldn’t help but stare. Among the girls she was seated with she was the only one I see, literally in my eyes. It looks like someone messed with time for it to slow down. I didn’t know if I lived in a dream. I lived in the present or still on the future ahead but she was there, and I saw her amongst the artists that are sitting next to us.

She was there, and I didn’t know how much my heart comes to my ear to hear it beating so loud.

Something is familiar, her smile I’ve seen that before anyone else, those hands we’re just cupping mine and I felt it, her hair I felt it somehow swept across my shoulder whenever she lays it down, her lips…. I couldn’t describe but... I somehow felt that I met her.

Maybe she was someone I talked to when I was on the lounge with the other artists, but, I didn’t see her, I didn’t meet her face to face. I only…knew her…from face…from touch…from name…

I couldn’t pin point what it is at that point-

“Yoongi…”

I stared at her even more, time loves messing with me, with everything that surrounds me. She’s now looking at me, black raven hair, I can hear the rain slowly and heavily. I didn’t know how still I am until she smiles. Her smile… I saw her before…is she..

“Yoongi-ah~” she smiles like I knew her before, but I did, it was...it was back then.. She was..

“Yoongi…”

“Hyung…”

“Hyung…”

I shift my gaze back to Jungkook who was leaning a bit to my face, almost as if checking if I’m alright. I was fazed and I blinked too many times. The music on my player changed to an upbeat music, it was all of a sudden how I go from here and one place to another. I was maybe dreaming, or I’m just imagining things.

“What happened hyung?” Jungkook asked as he leans in, we were walking on the way to the van and I didn’t know how he was taller than me, he grew up fast at least in my own vision the last time I saw him, on the stage…with the trophy.

I don’t really know.

“I...I’m okay Jungkook...” I chuckled softly at him and messed his hair a bit. Manager hyung was beside me, he was waiting for us apparently to come to the van, he was there on his usual hurry phase, I was just standing next to Jungkook. The others are on the van, Jungkook probably saw me spacing out in the middle of the walk. Maybe that explains why our Manager wants to hurry us up.

“I saw you hyung staring at your side and saying names. I don’t really know what you were doing though,” clueless little Jungkook just scratch his head and I just smiled well…confusingly at him as well. I was, for sure, in a daze as well.

“I’m sorry, let’s just go on ahead before Hyung beat us for being slow.” I joked around; Jungkook nods slowly and skip his way to the van. I was behind him. Night time came when I look up in the sky; my hair was a strikingly strong red. I had those thoughts where I always changed my hair color; it somehow reminded me of her.

“Ah hyung you’ve been acting weird these days…” Namjoon stated on the front seat, the fans are there already when the van moved, it was cold as usual and I saw them screaming, holding up their banners, always saying we should eat, we should take care of ourselves. The window slid down and I smiled at them and waved, I saw so much in their eyes how they waited for us, maybe if I waited too I would have saw her, maybe ask her name, or how she even pass by my mind. Time works wonders for me every time, it sometimes make me the impatient person to exist. I look back to Namjoon at the mirror and I sighed for the umpteenth time of the day.

“I’m just tired… I need to sleep…” I jokingly said and laid back to my seat, Jungkook is still beside me, the kid must have been concerned but he is as tired as me. We all are, but Namjoon laugh it off and shakes his head at my bluff.

“Like you would rest anyway hyung,” Namjoon concluded and I agree for the most of it.

“It’s either you’re in your studio or just…”

I put my earphones on and listened to a good soothing music, her voice just bounce and danced around my ears, it was soothing to listen; it was smooth, as if she’s beside me. I really don’t know if I’m hallucinating but I hope one day I will know what her name is. The world is a small place, but the time is…large for me to even find the right time. Looking out at the window the lights passes by, Namjoon was still talking in the back of my head something about music and a name I couldn’t quite grasp, maybe a good amount of sleep would take my mind off of it. maybe…just maybe..

“I don’t want to get up,” she sounds so sweet and sleepy on my chest, she’s sulking and holding onto me tightly. I don’t want to stand up either on this position we have.

“I don’t want to end this..” her voice came sad, almost wanting to just hold on to me. I, too, was on the verge on taking her away.

“.. What..” I murmured at the back of my head.

“I don’t want to either..” I laugh unconsciously, though to her it seems like it isn’t a laughable moment. That time Seungwan’s hands were on my chest and holding onto my shirt too tight, she was peeking with her eyes softly, and I look down on her. “What if they knew…?”

“Knew what…” it was more like a wondering thought more than a question, her fingers slowly softening her grip on mine, I was breathing unsteadily, I didn’t know what to do and so was she. We were just hiding it at this point before this thing is going to go back to us like a strike.

“Us…” she was quietly whispering, I look down on her, she has her soft eyes, her pink cheeks, her small hands that fit into mine as always. Her heart that is so unsure of anything.

I don’t know… I don’t know…

“Yoongi…” she was uttering those words, my name. It was unexpected she was crying the minute I stared at her deeply, how to calm her is something I’m not good at. I hate when she cries, but I hate it more if she leaves.

“Yoongi…”

A buzz on my ears comes through and I jolt awake on my bed. Heart palpitating too quick on my wrist, eyes wide and sees the blinds on my room. I’m at the dorms.

I was sweating, on the bed and I saw it still midnight, 2’ o clock to be honest. I heard Namjoon at the door, saying something about we need to get up early for broadcast. He knew I wake up this early, time is strange.

“Hyung time to go...” he knocks three times at the door. Seokjin is nowhere to be seen, he’s maybe at the kitchen trying to think of a breakfast. I groaned and sat up straight on the bed. My head is a mess. I’ve been seeing or even hallucinating. A girl…named... I don’t really know.

I don’t want to get up…
I don’t want to end this…

I was struggling to even get up on the bed but as I sat straight, clutch on the sheets, my heart didn’t stop to beat twice as fast as it can. I look up to the blinds of our shared room I had with Seokjin. It’s still dark outside the atmosphere is silent but deafening.

I felt my shirt was tussled, just like it was clenched tightly by someone, it’s odd and somehow felt like someone is missing.

“Hyung, c’mon breakfast is ready!” Seokjin greets me to the door as he opened it slightly. I gave him a curt nod before I hear the door closed, oddly enough it feels like I already heard that sound before but I can’t quite pinpoint where.

“Are you really gonna go-“

The door shut in front of my face, before I could finish. I wish I knew how to run to her…but I can’t.

“Hyung, don’t you think there’s too many people tonight?” Jungkook was in front of me playing with his phone, the other coordinators are either fixing the members’ makeup or others are just practicing. My mind couldn’t focus enough. I’m hearing Namjoon’s speakers blasting to the other side of the room. Jimin and Hoseok are practicing somewhere else and Taehyung is probably sleeping, a shock I didn’t bother to sleep, I could-

“Hyung, hey look at this new game-“ Jungkook’s bright eyes came to me all of a sudden, he was there all the time by my side while I seat on the corner with my sturdy chair. I smiled at him for a bit and ruffled the kid’s hair. He’s been here with me ever since we arrived. I wonder if he knew what I’ve been thinking.

“Hyung, are you okay?” He has a small smile and he was playing with his phone still, I just chuckled for awhile and nod once after I give a small pat at his shoulders, “I’m okay.” I assured and look around, my wrist keeps palpitating too fast early in the morning, I couldn’t sleep well either last night, so looking at Jungkook, I invited him, “Hey let’s look around for awhile,” I was breathing too deep at this point, anything for my heart to be at ease. I couldn’t stay longer for a while; it’s suffocating enough to think about all these things. Especially when I know one moment I could be going to a different place, it will make me weirder and Namjoon will question it.

“Sure, hyung!” Jungkook stands enthusiastically as I pull my hoodie and fixed it to cover my head at least, Jungkook was with his phone most of the time so I just stand behind him. I heard Namjoon yelling where we are going. Seokjin distracted him into asking something, it’s weird how it’s so well timed to us escaping the room.

“Hyung will kill us..” Jungkook hides his head as I put my hand over his head and laugh delightfully at his actions.

“He’s not going to kill us…” I slightly smiled at him on the side as I snorted, “Only of course, if you don’t tell this..”

“Aye, Hyung not fair….” Jungkook is looking down, we’re walking down the hallway, more artists coming by our way and taking a bow as a due respect. I was looking around as I tuck my hand inside my hoodie’s pocket, Jungkook keeps rambling on and on as I hum to his responses.

“Hyung, you’ve been out of it lately…”

Jungkook knows, I can’t try and hide it, “What do you mean?” I peeked through my hoodie though I could see the concern in his eyes. I could see how he wants to know.

“That you’ve been staring a lot, been out of focus.. even Hyung knows it…” he muttered the last sentence but he keeps on continuing as we turn left to an empty hallway. There was a drinking machine on the side; the lights were starting to fade, must be an old model to it.

“You know if you want someone to talk to, hyung is there, Sejin-hyung even wants to call you at some time, and he’s worried…” Jungkook continues through, and I didn’t quite catch what the kid said. Proving me that I’m really out of focus lately, too bad I could only smile and laugh it off.

“Kook, it’s okay- I’m okay,” I looked over at him and give him a bit of a pat on the head, I felt my heart racing again as I heard not too far away little footsteps behind us. I choose to ignore it because maybe it’s just one of those days I hear random things in my head.

“I’m just feeling tired that’s all.”

I can’t really lie that well…

“I hope so hyung,” Jungkook beamed his eyes at me and chuckled. I did as well as we continue walking but Jungkook stop midway to grin at me, “Hyung, wait! I’ll just go to the comfort room. I’ll be back!!” Jungkook suddenly gave me his phone, this kid is really gonna leave me like this alone.

“Yah, be back!” I said as I smile at him and saw him disappearing as he turns to his left, walk to go get to the comfort room. Clutching on his phone, I look around and hum, the hallway is silent, just like back then at the room…

Something doesn’t feel quite right the moment. I still hear that small footsteps I heard awhile ago. No, I’m not scared but I somehow knew who that is at the tip of my tongue…

“Oh hi,” I turned around and see if I’m the one who she’s talking to, turns out she was talking to another girl…

My heart stopped.

Maybe because I’m nervous, I knew her or I don’t know what to do.

“I never saw Joohyun eonnie..” her brown locks was tied in a messy bun. She has her name tag taped across her chest, it was required to do so on these rehearsals. Her eyes are tired and sleepy, her hands are soft but small…

My heart couldn’t stop hammering on my chest.

She was standing only meters away from me. I could feel her presence even in wide space like this, I don’t know if I looked creepy or I looked like I was staring too much but she was there, talking to someone, that someone couldn’t be me, I was thinking too deep at this point.

“Oh..” I suddenly heard her and I didn’t knew I was staring too deep into her eyes. Her eyes I know of somehow for so many years. I smiled at her for once, and I didn’t know how time stops maybe slow down at this moment. If this is them messing with me, I thank them. Just for this once I do.

“Hello…” she bowed at me for so many times, her voice is soft through those words I couldn’t help myself but to smile under my hoodie, my chest too tight but my heart beats fast.

I stared too long before she talks to a girl and I tried to look away, but every time I look down my eyes just keeps on wandering around the empty hallways and finally to her eyes, again…and again.

She was laughing a bit and nods once before she leaves and I stared at her before she even glanced at me, my heart is suddenly never at ease at this moment, the fact that she knew, she stared and never took her eyes at me.

I wish I could ask her though, I wish I can talk to her and pull her close to me…

“Do you still remember me, Son Seungwan?”

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

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