CHAN/DINO

Being the youngest of 12 guys who are your world is hard, 
being in love with your bests friend is one thing
being in love with the older on is another thing...

to say that dino came to understand the meaning bout liking the same gender didn't faze him, 
not when he had 12 other hyungs to were just like him, 

but having to get caught in a conflict that was never meant to happen was something dino didn't expect. 
so at some point, without a doubt he choose the weakest side,

jisoo ..

the latter wasn't entirely weak, it's just that he tends to put others before him, 
other's happiness before his own happiness which is why he choose jisoo's side, 

even if jisoo doesn't know anything bout the whole choosing side part. 
Dino was ready to protect jisoo through everything and anything that is thrown to him, 
Dino loves the latter, he loves how gentle he was with everything, 

how he bottoms up everything and later when no one isn't looking, he sneaks aways to break down,
Dino loved how gently and humble his hyung was,

even when he saw the pain seeing them together, jisoo tend to stay quit and not say a word
Dino was sure he was not the only one, 
he was sure wonwoo and mingyu would agree, 

which is why he chose to glare at seungkwan after following after jisoo, 
he wasn't alone though, he feels a presence behind him, 
Dino knows who it is which is why he doesn't turn around, 

even when he gets grab by the waist and gets push towards the wall only to come face to face with him 
he doesn't look at him, and he sees jisoo from the corner of his eye stopping from walking to turn around but gets block
when mingyu grabs him from behind, lettiing out a squeal, 
he sees mingyu giving hoshi a nod, leaving the two alone

Dino lets out a breath,

"of course, can't hide forever can't i ?"  he questions to himself,

he was the reason why Dino choose jisoo side, because he understood how it felt to be in a triangle when your the one that gets 
to hurt, the one that gets to feel the pain of being isolate, being forgotten, and dino hated that feeling. 
it was either him or seokmin, 

so the best choice was to keep his distance, which was what dino was good at, but then again he never got far
like right now, struggling to get past hoshi, only made it harder for him since he is no match to him, 

he gives up knowing he can't get away, for now ... 
 

" how long do you expect to ignore me ?" hoshi whispered towards his left ear, making the younger shiver, 

" im not ignoring you" Dino denies not looking at him, making the older shakes his head. thinking of a way to break free from hoshi as he seems to know what the younger is thinking, pins both hands right next to
his head, pushing him to wall, 

" you and i both know your lying, " 

dino closes his eyes as he feels hoshi takes his left hand to wrap him closer, grabbing him by the waist. he feels his body get excited by the way the hoshi pulled him close. fighting his urge to grab the older and kiss him makes dino struggles against him, 

"Stop " hoshi flushes his body towards dino " fighting me" dino tenses up, hoshi leans down towards him as Dino looks away, Hoshi sighs. he really doesn't understand him right now, 

" then let me go hyung,"  

hoshi shakes his head, " not unles you tell me why you've been avoiding me " 

" Dino, why are you igoring me ?" he ask the younger, dino doesn't answer, but closes his eyes. 

" hyung, why did you follow?" he ask hoshi still not looking at him,

hoshi doesn't answer, so dino sighs,

  "oh for s sakes " he can hear himself screaming 
 
" hyung, why do you lead me on ? " 

Hoshi's eyes widen immediately as he looks down to dino was looking down to his feet. 

" chan " 

Dino looks up from his feet meeting hoshi's eyes

" chan, thats not - " 

Dino cuts him off " then what are you doing ? Is it fun ? Are not satisfied with what i have given you? Did you ever just think that maybe .. maybe i as hell is effected by what you did " 

Hoshi doesn't speak, letting dino vent to him

 " for once why can't you think of me .. why can't you think of letting me in " dino points toward hoshi's heart as he said it. 

He feels so broken. So broken that he doesn't want to be here .. trap between the wall and hoshi, wishing mingyu didn't take joshua in. 

He's tired .. " so this how shua hyung must've felt " 

" channie - " 

" Chan ? Hoshi ?  " both heads snaps towards the direction of where the voice came from. As if the lord heard his desperate wishes .. he sees shua outside the door with mingyu behind him. 

Joshua gives him a worried look, making him move from his place between hoshi and the wall. Slowly moving hoshi away from him gave him a sign of relief. 

Making his way towards to where shua is standing, hoshi grabs his wrist, making the dino look him 

" where not done talking " hoshi stated .. 

" hos- " 

" yes you are" they face mingyu who was behind shua .. giving hoshi a cold look, 

" let him go hyung," 

Hoshi gives mingyu a hard look, slowly releasing his hold on chan's wrist. 

Taking the chance to move away from him. He makes a dash towards shua who looked so lost and had no idea what was going on. 

Upon seeing the youngest running to him, he opens his arms welcoming him into a hug. Something he need at the moment. He looks up to hoshi, who does nothing but gives him a sad smile before retreating into the living room. 

" what the hell is going on ?"  he can only think to himself as he hugs chan tighter.